Halcyon1990 In reply to MYPeanutGallery [2018-08-05 04:58:06 +0000 UTC]

Thank you, and sorry for the late reply. Military and all.

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Halcyon1990 In reply to MYPeanutGallery [2017-12-22 05:51:34 +0000 UTC]

A VERY late thank you.  

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Halcyon1990 In reply to Rednecked [2016-12-31 09:54:08 +0000 UTC]

Thank you, sir!

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Halcyon1990 In reply to Rednecked [2016-12-31 09:54:01 +0000 UTC]

You may use anything that I post or have ever posted without any restrictions! I'm honored! 

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Rednecked In reply to Halcyon1990 [2017-01-01 06:28:27 +0000 UTC]

I thank you, and im honoured to have such magnificent photos to choose from.
You have a talent of seeing and capturing the beauty of nature with a camera as few
other have. Blessed 2017 to you and your loving family and keep up your magnificent  photography

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Halcyon1990 In reply to Rednecked [2017-01-18 08:15:00 +0000 UTC]

And YOU keep up the artwork. (Sadly, I might not get any true time off this year. : ' ( ) 

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Rednecked In reply to Halcyon1990 [2017-01-20 03:37:18 +0000 UTC]

Well the blessing of life is waking up to a new day and living in the beauty of nature, Take care

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Halcyon1990 In reply to light-serpent [2016-08-09 01:19:46 +0000 UTC]

Busier than crap, man!!!  I am thinking about going back to my old place...they're offering me twice the pay that I used to make. Same job.

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light-serpent In reply to Halcyon1990 [2016-08-10 12:04:35 +0000 UTC]

Oh wow, that sounds like a offer you can't refuse Or at least one that you would carefully consider! Seems like you're a wanted man

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Halcyon1990 In reply to MYPeanutGallery [2016-08-09 01:19:07 +0000 UTC]

Aww, <3 you!!! Hope you're well! 

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Halcyon1990 In reply to cecikins [2015-08-25 05:51:49 +0000 UTC]

Pssst.

Yo.  Ladyface.

After listening to it, I wish I would retroactively say yes. But the real answer is that I combined Arthur Clark's novel with a love for a special friend and a desire for peaceful happiness. To be less vague, a friend of mine nearly destroyed herself, but I stuck around and didn't give up, knowing her potential. She used that confidence I had in her to push aside self-destruction and to succeed in every facet of life, which she still does to this day—and that confidence has itself propped  me up.

But I do think that Hal9000 is a bit cooler than Halcyon1990.

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cecikins In reply to Halcyon1990 [2015-08-25 08:29:20 +0000 UTC]

ohh wow, what a wonderful, meaningful meaning! thanks for sharing interesting back story yeah hal9000 sounds cool, makes me think of all the badass robots from fallout        

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Halcyon1990 In reply to cecikins [2015-08-27 06:37:23 +0000 UTC]

I was highly amused by Fallout 3 when it came out. The most immersive experiences I've had somewhat recently have been the SuraAI German total conversions of the Elder Scrolls engines. sureai.net/games/enderal/?lang…  I really appreciate that the stories they tell aren't generic. Speaking of which, my interest in Bioware games has plummeted to just about nothing recently.  They go to such lengths to deliver pathetic "romance" plots that the whole game is ruined. Though I guess their writing hasn't been too hot for a while.


Totally off-topic garbage because I'm bored:

Do you game a lot? I used to, but then I dated a lady who had a little daughter and it like...destroyed my mind. It made it so that anytime I was gaming I'd get heart arrhythmias and all sorts of junk.  I hooked myself up to a cardiac monitor from my old work and did a diagnostic on myself over a long period...turns out that when I'd play games I'd get stressed because I "wasn't out making real memories" or something.  If I was out in the mountains, or out fishing, or playing games with the kid, or helping the lady with homework and stuff, 0 cardiac issues. Gaming or being lazy=freaked out. 

I guess like at age 27 now it feels weird to not have a wife and kids. I'm hardcore picky though and probably don't give enough people a chance.  But one of the end results is that I don't game very much. Only have one on my computer, even.

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cecikins In reply to Halcyon1990 [2015-08-28 02:23:07 +0000 UTC]

yeah, you can get lost in fallout for days. i used to sell drugs and in the winters never leave the house, so i practically lived in the wastelands then. i played elder scrolls 4 for a bit but got immersed in other games instead at that time. wth, i can't believe people have made a fangame, that's so cool. strangely, i haven't played any bioware games (aside maybe the star wars one) but yeah that sounds like a bummer that they cant do something more edgy and diverse. they'll be suffering from it sooner or later..

wow, that's some interesting development you discovered in your gaming! i suppose certain elements in life do clock us over into different beings whether we want to or not.. little cogs.. but hey, it gets you out more so it's not too bad. i feel a similar sentimentality towards gaming too, i've been a big gamer all my life but since i've been living abroad for the past 5 years i haven't had any outlet. and man, i've catted out bad. real bad! atm i have my iphone so i play an emulator on there, i only play pokemon, and i hardly have time for that. i miss gaming a lot, but situations change. the last thing i was seshing was black ops online, hard. of course while sniffing drugs, selling drugs 24/7, it was fun ha.

yeah, i'm 25 and finally feel 'calm' enough to settle down.. kids not for me though.. well you have more time to find the princess in real life now

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Halcyon1990 In reply to cecikins [2015-08-29 06:38:19 +0000 UTC]

So your life is basically real-life Fallout!?!  I used to administer drugs in a life a long time ago. I miss it. I regret my decision to not become an anesthetist, as emergencies with the need for advanced airway management were my favorites. 

It's weird. I also NEVER wanted a kid. Loudly proclaimed it. But then having the life where my relationship became basically that of a husband and father. SNAP! Like the interrogator in Zero Dark Thirty said, "Everyone breaks. It's biology, bro." 

Hahahahaha, finding a princess, huh??? Nah, I'm keeping busy now. Getting a girl is easy. Getting a matching puzzle piece is more fun and challenging. Not accepting applications for that right now, anyway.

I last played Black Ops in like...winter 2012!?! Now I feel SOOOOOOOO old! Quit making me feel old! You're a quarter of a century yourself, practically one foot in the grave.

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cecikins In reply to Halcyon1990 [2015-08-29 15:23:47 +0000 UTC]

lawl, in fact i did dress like a raider back then yeah a medical career has always been of interest, that's so cool that you were in the position you were. how exactly did your work path change? being an anesthetist would be quite a bit of pressure but keeps work interesting dealing with emergencies. my business was in fact with ketamine. mm, sedation. lol     oh, and nitrous on the side too, ha.

haha yeah, i can see how the inevitable happens. the puzzle pieces will lay when they need to. yeah man, don't remind me how long ago that was! i last played autumn 2011 blud. since then BO2 has come out AND MW4. and I HAVENT PLAYED EITHER   one foot the in grave? ONE FOOT HIGHER UP IN AWESOMENESS   

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Halcyon1990 In reply to cecikins [2015-08-31 04:53:39 +0000 UTC]

Why did YOUR work path change???  Making a change in lives is great.

I basically got tired of being slightly poor. The new job I took paid around ~$100,000/year, which for age 23 wasn't bad. I now make less, col. Oops.

Ketamine is fascinating. Most here limit its use because of the horrors which can be associated with it.

What's your favorite country? 

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cecikins In reply to Halcyon1990 [2015-08-31 08:22:59 +0000 UTC]

lol, i've only had 3 jobs (longest was for 6 months), i was shottin since 17.. i initially left the country because i was mentally & physically at the serious point of no return. it was getting too hot, people close were getting busted and it was now like searching for water in the desert, getting the good goods and i was joint biggest street supplier in the city because my quality never wavered which was a reputation i don't go back on. i sold my business and the new owner got busted a few months later. he was stupid.

holy fuckin crap, $100,000, gwan lad! well done for achieving that. yeah, justified career move haha my profit was just over half that, always coulda gone bigger but i'm too wise for that. so did you live the high life for a while? it's cool having enough money to not even pay attention to what you're spending.

ketamine, horrors? holy crap the stuff is enlightenment in a line. never had anything less than beautiful, euphoric, spiritual and incredibly fun experiences. it's so addictive. especially because you can't OD on it. it will give you so much and then when you're deep in, it will take so much. my best friend died from our addiction march '14, in her sleep. kidney failure leading to complete organ failure. i can never forgive myself for not taking her away with me. i thought i was finished with it (prior to that), but got my hands on the best of the best in cambodia which you just can't turn down. i couldn't believe i had the gold at the end of the rainbow which hundreds of us had quested on attaining for years.

my favourite country.. very hard because each have their qualities. i've been to 23 and i suppose vn earns the most points, tbh. i suit life here. i think the vnese are the shortest race, and being 4'11" i am finally feel at home LOL hk, japan and switzerland are very livable places too. you?

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Halcyon1990 In reply to cecikins [2015-09-03 21:37:17 +0000 UTC]

Hahhahahaha, you're fun-size! That makes me almost giggle, but honestly it came out more as a couple of amused but not-very-becoming snorts. 

You would probably find me very interesting in person, at least based on how very different we are. As you probably know, I grew up in the far reaches of some mountains without running water or electricity. I never thought much of our strange life until the FBI showed up. Although it's not something I'll discuss heavily online, it turns out that my dad had some very shady ongoings over a very long time. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Centenni…  That was the least weird of the incidents that I ended up knowing about. Turns out there was some history of government-sponsored drug distribution on college campuses during the Vietnam era to make some groups more easily controlled and less viable as reactive units. So my dad never went to 'Nam, being involved with that instead.

Anyway, my life was fairly isolated, but happily so. I learned to survive on my own in all seasons and to be rabidly independent. In fact, maintaining situational control at all times was a chief priority in my life. Unlike others in high school and college, I refused drugs of any sort, including alcohol. I had become intimately familiar with the predatory nature of some, and how purposeful altering of another's mental status was (to those following a rationally egoistic mindset) beneficial if one was willing to do away with the tedium of empathy. However, I did seek to learn more—thus I aced biomed classes and got a career where I was in charge of taking crises and making them in control, and taking human bodies which were no longer homeostatic and restoring that equilibrium.  Later I would go on to master air traffic control—notice the theme of taking chaos and producing order. 

However, this goes beyond simple desire to me, and reaches to the very depths of my intellect. Did you see where a man over here murdered a reporter and her cameraman on live TV? This is a normal result of viewing man as a purely physical organism. Viewed from that perspective, we cannot rationally say there is such a thing as free will. We are mere organic machines operating based off of chemical reactions in our brains and bodies. While the reactions are advanced, they are just that—meaningless reactions. Richard Dawkins’ valuation of human worth may be depressing, why on atheism is he incorrect when he says, “There is at bottom no design, no purpose, no evil, no good, nothing but pointless indifference....We are machines for propagating DNA...It is every living object’s sole reason for being?”

Suppose you killed a man by stabbing him because he stole your parking spot—could you have chosen not to? Of course not! Certain chemical reactions were happening in your body in response to an outside stimuli. As a pointless machine, chemicals were released in response to an environmental cue. To say that you could have chosen differently is to say that there is some intangible force beyond the level of chemical reactions in the brain. So some "will" can control the chemical reactions in your very brain—nonsense.

In fact, from a purely atheistic standpoint, there is no such thing as "objective" goodness or evil. At best it can be claimed that the illusion of morality has survival value and therefore is perpetuated among Homo sapiens as an evolutionary trait, which would mean that acting in a rationally egoistic manner would therefore make one a more viable creature.

That is, taking the maximum advantage of any and every opportunity and creature to maximize self-interest, but not going so far as to incur the backlash from society as a whole, which is seeking to "self-stabilize" by inculcating societal norms advantageous to the collective. To dumb it down a shade, beating up an old lady for her money is just fine—it only becomes detrimental if you get caught, and society then enacts a punitive feedback mechanism. At least, that it where atheism rationally leads. It is all, in the end, pointless.

Anyway, enough of the metaphysics, although I deeply enjoy logic and reason. Our ketamine use on burn victims and victims of recent trauma tends to produce horrors indeed, although not with younger children. Most anesthetists over here choose over medicines without those particular dynamics. I am ambivalent, really, but "ketamine" sure is fun to say. 

I would enjoy Switzerland, but I suspect I would like New Zealand more. I have some excellent friends from New Zealand. Wyoming and Montana are great states as far as the USA is concerned, though. There is so much freedom, and if I wish, I can vanish for a month and never see another person. Kinda cool!

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cecikins In reply to Halcyon1990 [2015-09-04 19:07:48 +0000 UTC]

hells yuh   

omg!! what a story! ya okay, i guess you have had the most interesting life i know! wow you musta been pretty confused when the fbi turned up. turned life upside down i bet. i'm sure you've got plenty of stories. that's mad about the nam stuff too. the government has turned a blind eye on ketamine this side of the pond in efforts to keep the underground disabled from our antifa movements. can't believe you have an inside view on that piece of history though, quite incredible.

yeah that's fantastic you grew up in such an environment (a beautiful one at that) to give you such skills, and for them to be so innate an natural to you. it's an incredible feeling to be able to trust yourself in survival. i'm sure you know yourself much more than most others, an empowering attribute. lends hand to how wise you were through school, that's awesome. once you've lived in the wild you will always see the forest for the trees. riiight, i see (how things loop to the medical sphere), how fascinating! that's seriously awesome, you were certainly the right man to do the job! wow that's just so cool. what a life you've lived, what an incredible job. that's amazing. i see the theme rolling and it sounds like you're on the up and up, you've defintaley been staying and progressing on the right path for you. it's truly great to hear someone smashing it, go you.

i wasn't aware of the murder on live TV. Richard Dawkins makes a valid point and that's all very true deductions when contemplating life from an athiest view. that's an interesting point on moralism also. seeing as morals are molded from values which are products of our individual environment, as you say it's simply about staying inline with said society for survival. for the athiest, anyway. i suppose without the belief in will it is a lot easier to follow 'cues' and make a progress of sorts. however ideas of limitations are based on experience, and regardless of the implementation of will, there isn't reason to assign theoretical limits to what is possible to be or achieve.

i think if you've suffered that sort of damage then it's safe to say you're going to be having a pretty bad time no matter what you're doing. medical use of k at least, is akin to getting spiked, the individual has zero idea what they're getting themselves into, and to experience dissociation with an unprepared mind is going to be a wild ride. i know what you've seen, i've seen it enough in individuals of a.. lesser intellect and scope of perception (e.g. big burly lads, ratty girls, 'normal' people), the 'horror' is people's experience of reality breaking. the typical individual is not going to have a good time lol they react by freaking out, as the ignorant do. upon sniffing my second ever line, i witnessed rising out of my body and raising through the roof, i zoomed out with great speed to space, where i floated above the earth. two slithers of white light were in front of me, and communicated various truths to me. they showed me a sped up reel of my life from birth to present day, and i felt emotion when witnessing moments which i would have never recalled. next they took me to view an individual and i watched them. they were a troubled, unhappy slave to their self appointed powerlessness, beat up and run down, will die in the gutter. next they took me to a family, it was the father in particular, and i watched. their life was the polar opposite and i observed the defining details. after, they told me that the meaning of life, summarised, is to be happy, and they warned? mentioned? said? not to get involved in earthly affairs because there is so much more to life, including what proceeds this present life. i returned back to my body after that. internally i was astonished, it was the most incredible thing i'd experienced, and still is. some people struggle to process what happens into words and it doesn't help that the trip's clarity fades like a dream. younger children have less attachment to constructs of life, hence less disturbance at boundaries being broken. they might not being enjoying it at the time, but you're probably doing them a favour expanding their perceptions.

new zealand, what a marvel. yeah, seems like your terrain. i do hope to visit wyoming and montana when i come take a trip over there. it appears the west has more to offer than the east. i've only been to new york, tampa and seattle. me & the man have a roadtrip through the states as our next travel plans (after returning to the alps)   

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Halcyon1990 In reply to cecikins [2015-09-17 20:55:13 +0000 UTC]

Sorry for not responding young madam (You are like a version of Annasophia Robb). I've been busy doing some airplane controlling junk. I got airman of the quarter and am now up for Amn of the year. WHOO HOOO! All my volunteering to help people clean up their lives is paying off.

How do you feel about America, BTW? Some of the states here I would never live in (CA), but others I love. Montana, for example, has no tax on sales. Wyoming, though, has no tax on income. It seems that the states with less developed population centers tend to allow their residents more freedom, simply by virtue of not legislating as much.

I guess I like freedom. What sort of government do you prefer? If y'all are ever out here, I'll show you around! You just have to promise to tell everyone that these are the worst two states in the world. 

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cecikins In reply to Halcyon1990 [2015-12-01 10:40:23 +0000 UTC]

haha yeah we do look a little similar! i've been mistaken for avril lavigne twice though, that was weird. well done for smashing it at work, good on ya, i hope you get the award of the year

i've been to new york (3x), tampa and seattle. i last visited in '07/8 and was quite overwhelmed by the excessiveness expressed in many manners of life over there. i've been a 'conspiracy nut' since age 12 so have an aversion to the US' state, media and big pharma, and not to exclude any other dishonest government and organisation round the globe, i began getting involved in activism age 17. my next trip plan is to the states cos i wanna check out the NW (you're gonna have to give me some destinations), portland, san fran, the mojave desert, vegas, wherever in nevada and new mexico, houston, denver and new orleans. any suggestions or comments? that's quite cool about lack of tax in wyoming and montana. must be pretty quiet over there. i have a cousin called montana in fact. i heard residents in alaska get paid to live there? oh and i wanna check out hawaii too, obviously! i will definitely let you know when i make movements to over there! it would be awesome to have my own personal tour guide

i love freedom too, why i've always been on the move. i wish we could pass a referendum on changing the electoral system, our current one doesn't represent the people fairly at all. we would have a chance to progress then. i feel like our governments are keeping us the stone age, holding onto aged ideas and methods. the people in power are a big, selfish clique and too many people don't see the set up.

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Halcyon1990 In reply to cecikins [2015-12-19 04:10:44 +0000 UTC]

Well little lass, that's why you've got to live in Wyoming or Montana. It's freedom and minimal interference from any humans. No comments on NM, AZ is a little overpopulated, San Fran is the prettiest, go see Muir Redwoods right up the road, Houston is a bore, Denver's nice but head up to Estes Park or down to Colorado Springs, more to see and do! 

Yes, people in Alaska do get paid to live there. Not a ton but the state government (not federal) does give them money that they make from oil! 

Ohhhh, government. Yes, America's two-party system is the worst. It's identity-politics. People pick based on broad spectrum "beliefs" instead of what the candidates actually are. BLECH!!!!

You MUST check out Glacier Park. Yellowstone sucks but if you go over Beartooth Pass and swim in the Boiling River, it'll be worth it. 

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cecikins In reply to Halcyon1990 [2015-12-20 22:50:31 +0000 UTC]

thanks, bruh!! notes taken. wiggles with excitement. yes yes. looking forward. more wiggles. wiggly wiggles. i am pretty much a worm now i am so wiggly. ya, gotta see some redwoods!

yeah, and the candidates never represent their vocalised angle once in power... it's the same story every election, sigh, people still take the bait. on the whole i've stopped caring about the world's future (obviously i still stay true to my beliefs, but i'm not 'active' on a larger scale anymore), i think we've got better chance at making progress by focusing on ourselves and our close circles to begin with. what's that quote about 'it starts at the home'..

yellowstone sucks? boiling river? banging, i'm up for, as long as it won't be some overpopulated fat-tourist spot   glacier park looks like the fucking one   

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Halcyon1990 In reply to cecikins [2015-12-30 05:45:53 +0000 UTC]

Oh you bet your little bottom it is! Take my words to heart, little miss.  

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Halcyon1990 In reply to Irsanna [2015-08-20 03:30:25 +0000 UTC]

Always a blessing to see your art, Irsanna!

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Halcyon1990 In reply to light-serpent [2015-07-17 02:02:39 +0000 UTC]

Thanks, Jakob! Just living the life of an air traffic controller. Actually, my Canon 60D broke after only 9,000 shutter actuations, which is horrible, so I'm back on the old T3i.  Oh well, that's proof that I don't have many big problems in life! Thank you very much, man! 

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light-serpent In reply to Halcyon1990 [2015-07-18 11:24:53 +0000 UTC]

Uh, that sucks! But if everything else is going well then that's really not so bad overall, glad to hear that
So are your recent pics done with the old camera? Because they still look pretty great

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Halcyon1990 In reply to light-serpent [2015-07-19 03:39:53 +0000 UTC]

Yes, the old camera! How dumb that it's still going? Blech! 

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light-serpent In reply to Halcyon1990 [2015-07-19 15:45:36 +0000 UTC]

Haha yeah, that's too bad, otherwise you'd have a reason to buy a new one

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Halcyon1990 In reply to PencilsAndInk [2015-07-17 02:03:08 +0000 UTC]

You are just too sweet, MP! Thank you very much! 

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Halcyon1990 In reply to Crystal-Marine [2015-07-17 02:04:32 +0000 UTC]

Thanks, Crystal! It was a great one!

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Crystal-Marine In reply to Halcyon1990 [2015-07-17 14:57:10 +0000 UTC]

You're welcome! Glad to hear!!!!

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