DanielSands In reply to DanielSands [2012-12-26 18:27:11 +0000 UTC]

i wake up one day a bit more than three years ago to find a stupid text that didn't sound like me and that marked the end of my first and only relationship so far (i still see the girl several times a week at work which is lovely). I didn't drink alcohol again for 2 years and nine months, apart from a pint at my uncle's wake to drink to his life, some wine to drink to my gerbil's life with family, and a sip in the nevada desert when Chad handed me a can that i thought was pop. it seems i ignored the very strong feeling that led me to not drink after waking to find that text, feeling i should make that choice out of respect, and somehow just decided to see after 2 years and 9 months if i could enjoy a sensible drink. well clearly that's not the case and i'm back to my sensible decision, with a desire to investigate that original respect. it can seem all well and good until writing drunken rambles to one of your dearest friends, what the heck kind of non-sense have i written, sorry about that. 'fine' what's that, a mental concept or the other side of hell? i've seen many years ago a lot of how un-fine things can seem, and it scared me so deeply i still don't meditate, so you're far far from that open ay alcohol imbued mind. I have amazing confidence in myself, and deep and wondrous passion and love for living this life truely. all poised waiting until i actually finally wholistically investigate, work my way down hell, and be a peace lover. sure it scares me, though it's going to be siriusly awesome. i've known since all those years ago i'd walk this path, and built my life steadfastly around that in the meantime. surely, Dan, it's time to live this fully seriously at last. sorry about the long message i was just a little embarrassed at the nonsense an alcohol soaked mind can produce and thought it needed an explanation. maybe just hide them both. best wishes for 2012 brother! so looking forward to our meeting one day (:

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MysticalMike In reply to DanielSands [2013-01-28 14:33:08 +0000 UTC]

Noone is free from changing own perspective.

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DanielSands In reply to DanielSands [2013-01-19 03:07:36 +0000 UTC]

'The scenes playing out on our planet are no different than the scenes playing out within us. We are all responsible for the co-creation of our perceived reality. In the old cycle, we fought and condemned the perceived “darkness” (hence all the wars and fanaticism).

But in the New Cycle we know that blame or condemnation get us nowhere but into a samsaric cycle. To transcend the cycle we embrace the darkness and face it directly with no fear.'

'Without preference we wouldn't exist anymore. Too afraid to exist only as the whole.'

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MysticalMike In reply to DanielSands [2013-01-28 14:29:22 +0000 UTC]

Transcendance is a concept.

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MysticalMike In reply to DanielSands [2013-01-28 14:24:56 +0000 UTC]

it is not like that!

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DanielSands In reply to DanielSands [2012-12-29 00:12:44 +0000 UTC]

To be fair I don’t really know why such limitation over the years. For me there’s something to being just as i am at this point to shift from, I like the person I’ve become, and that it’s that that has to be tested from this seemingly kind of late point, though looking back it’s such a disregard of potential service. I’m going to hold a fire ceremony for welcoming in the new year, share my best wishes and kind of symbolically forgive myself my limitation, asking to make a big effort to let go of the old to make way for the new, having the will to allow space for transcending attachment. I’m always super intrigued at combining elements in life, what happens if these things are brought together in the space of body through practice. Though it requires silent meditation to develop, such as for developing concentration. I read that the more one can concentrate the more one can hold and therefore remember. My concentration span in say focus on a symbol seems similar to that of my two puppies. That must be a simple one to practice and develop at least at first and surely very useful. I’m looking forward to long days out exploring in spring and summer, collecting wild plants, bare feet on the ground practicing chi kung, Ba Duan Jin and Xi Sui Jing. That’s a typical adventure for me, though this year it’s also Yoga, and the critical element of long meditation. Most of all I want to give all I can in service to the earth this next year. So many words, though Ryan’s facebook status gave a more succinct description, ‘could and would will not build a bridge to the other side’.

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MysticalMike In reply to DanielSands [2013-01-28 14:24:18 +0000 UTC]

stop thinking about doing meditation
everything you are is meditation

there is no other side!

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SorenGama In reply to MysticalMike [2013-01-28 15:29:43 +0000 UTC]

hahaha. your presence is welcoming.
well said, friend.

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DanielSands In reply to SorenGama [2013-03-14 01:33:43 +0000 UTC]

I watched Wonders of Life with Brian Cox and it was more like a flow of sparks of memory when it’s usually just here and there. it seems that those sparks will form a large part of the perception of awakening. i sat with Shakyamuni art for 10 minutes and like a jolt of memory that i can’t remember recalling for many years, of sense of mind as a tiny speck just dissolving into the all abiding. that’s the most powerful memory i can remember appearing from effort to just sit, as i practically never have, yet it’s just a scratch on the surface of memory. i recognised nearly ten years ago that i could sit zen like and wake up, yet i never have, somehow managing to avoid something so obvious. thinking about doing meditation has been constant day to day, and in the whole time i’ve thought deeply about nothing that i can remember, not even about doing meditation ‘one day’. it’s been strange time of never thinking or feeling deeply into anything, just allowing the same simple thought patterns to slowly change, with novelty appearing whenever. some main aspects added such as music, diet, interest in plants and horticulture, chi kung and art. the highlight of last year was following the 13:20 each day from april, learning how to know the adventure codespell for each day, and so on. i’ve been fascinated by the sheer awesomeness of the 13:20, and imagining what if this was people’s daily experience of reality that they were able to observe and practice together. i like the simplicity of it and also the idea of learning directly from the universe from my day to day experience. i can follow the synchronometer for contemplation and that seems kind of concept free as contemplation is open. it and related things on the internet are strong in promoting imagination. great to imagine though the quote would seem fanciful to think it is how things are. i noticed it due to how it reminded me of reading about not avoiding the ‘dark’ side of life. i don’t know what is truth of 13:20, though i can remember visions with synchronous feeling of it. i like the idea of 4th dimensional self and that in some ways that’s the closest to my awareness so first step ‘beyond’ my awareness, though that would be an other side. i like the idea as it makes it seem like it’s right here as the next level of the same one consciousness so it’s like i’d be able to feel it in the air around me. i liked the bridge quote as it made me think of the idea of the rainbow bridge. so yeah, waiting and waiting for years, always placing the mental concept of doing meditation as the imagined point of awakening. i was thinking during the fire ceremony how it’s all just the same process taking place anyhow, sitting in meditation just basically kind of speeds up the realization of it. so, body as the battlefield of universal fight. I moved to my friend’s house last friday. mostly just the most relevant and useful things in a clear space that gives the feeling of being out in the world. i got a book to carefully read and introspect from, ‘God Talks With Arjuna’ by Paramahansa Yogananda. wednesday 27th was my day off as usual, and i had a plan of lots of time studying verse 1 and adding to this message, then i could perhaps send it weeks after writing most of it. it was a day of blue sky and i rode along the river in the afternoon and sat enjoying the weather. in the evening i went to a Buddhist meditation talk with my Dad. later i read some of the interpretation of verse 1. the day in all fell short of what i could envision as making the most of my one day off. it’s interesting to observe how what the book might call ‘sense tendencies’ are able to seemingly steal what could have been a highly productive day, for no good reason, lol. it’s how i’ve thought about it for years, like a force determined to defend its fortress. defending against how i would live my life. it is radically scary i would imagine to ‘that’ as it’s always to offer myself up.

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DanielSands In reply to DanielSands [2012-12-26 18:35:32 +0000 UTC]

and best wishes for 2013 (: vague memories are suggesting that by 'so far beyond' i meant what i often think, how when 7 billion humans live so out of harmony with nature, wearing away at the earth's vast abundance, is it not that the shift to natural time is required as Jose said. psychic compression for noospheric activation sounds like an awesome idea. i've followed the 13:20 every day since last april, i absolutely love it (:

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MysticalMike In reply to DanielSands [2013-01-28 14:33:52 +0000 UTC]

whatever is best wish!

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SorenGama In reply to MysticalMike [2013-01-28 15:30:38 +0000 UTC]

there is only nature. no out of harmony.

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SorenGama In reply to SorenGama [2013-01-28 15:31:19 +0000 UTC]

see: bigger picture

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SorenGama In reply to DanielSands [2012-12-12 13:14:31 +0000 UTC]

2011 was a very hard year for me, but coming out the other side, it was definitely a good thing growing as a person. we don't grow unless we're challenged. there's this amazing (fallen) tree down at the inlet near where I live (i'll post some photos soon) it's massive fallen body and root system has transformed in a new direction, that is; Up. It continues to grow despite all it's been through. and maybe not 'despite' but is a marvel BECAUSE of what it's been through. So never forget to take the challenges in life, bro.
deviantART muro drawing

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DanielSands In reply to SorenGama [2012-12-14 02:01:36 +0000 UTC]

(: cheers brother. what's Zae say 'forged in the fires of adversity'. i think it's natural functioning of the universe, resistance to pain, and it's in that crucible that the universe must test our ability to live not hiding from the painful side of life. Let's live these lives of great potential to their full. So well said Trevor, not 'despite' but because of what it's been through. It's something i quite often have pondered, that it's only because of the transient nature of existence that we're here; hearts open in compassionate humble feeling.

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SorenGama In reply to DanielSands [2012-12-14 14:40:22 +0000 UTC]

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DanielSands In reply to DanielSands [2012-12-14 04:01:11 +0000 UTC]

i just accidentally smashed a glass into 4 pieces, not something you'd try to achieve without concern at hurting your foot; yet my foot is fine. i'm shown every day how my resistance is if accepted a limitation of my potential, that, well, is not something i can make much sense of, other than understanding of myself.

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MysticalMike In reply to DanielSands [2011-05-06 13:27:50 +0000 UTC]

much love for you

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thank you
love

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