americanhacker In reply to IDaSchmit [2013-03-17 21:07:01 +0000 UTC]

awwwww thanx!!!

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-10-04 13:24:22 +0000 UTC]

trying to make my life work while taking care of my sister work and a long distance relationship. i am so exhausted most of the time.

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-10-04 21:11:27 +0000 UTC]

WOW, busy girl. I'm thinking about moving to South Carolina. I've been saving money and letting go of certain ppl in my life.

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-10-07 02:54:09 +0000 UTC]

yay for people pruning, i did that a year ago and now have my long distance relationship one church friend 3 work associates and my family...i may have gotten carried away just a little.

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-10-07 05:49:52 +0000 UTC]

YEA, ur lucky. All I have is myself most of the time now. All my old friends refuse to evolve. They are the same as kids in High School. My family gossip and shit talk too much so forget that. I really need to move to another state. I want to move to MN but I have mixed feelings about it. Most likely I think I'll move to South Carolina. What would you suggest? I thought your bf was local?

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-10-14 17:12:04 +0000 UTC]

i broke up with my local boyfriend he was a douche, my NM boyfriend is the most wonderful guy in the world and also probably the most forgetful and thoughtless at times. but he makes up for it. i have never been good with dating guys i just meet i think because, i never really get to know them. when you are far away all you have is words so you talk a lot and sooner than later you talk about things that matter and finally meet to see if your parts line up and whether meeting has ruined your relationship. and you cry in the shower when you get home, vowing to never ever ever love again lol. and as for moving why minnesota why carolina figure that out first before you box up all your stuff. sounds to me like you are running away...which is what losers do...don't be a loser.

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-10-15 10:55:27 +0000 UTC]

Wow, you're like the smartest friend I've never met. Wish we could get coffee and just talk. Long distance can be hard, I'm not trying to discourage you but it gets pretty rough. You begin to miss the intimacy or just the little things like holding hands or a hug. Good luck to you and your new bf. Its been awhile since I've been a relationship and gone through the roller coaster ride of deep emotions but trust me when I say "I can relate." I suppose I am at that phase where I don't want love ever again...lol. I am tired of being single though and at the same time I cant get hurt again.
I suppose it sounds like I'm running away, but I just really need a fresh start. Things are too stagnant where I am, I feel like I don't really belong anywhere. Therefore I drift. I'm not the type of person that runs away from a problem, I face them head on.
This might be odd but I wanted to go to MN to see the Mary Tylre Moore statue.

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-06-12 08:59:59 +0000 UTC]

how are things going with ur boyfriend currently?

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-05-10 15:27:03 +0000 UTC]

work and not much else though i am hoping to plan a trip soon but money is tight

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-05-11 09:18:17 +0000 UTC]

kool, u should come SoCal. the beach, good weather, beautiful ppl.

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-05-12 03:00:54 +0000 UTC]

i might since i just sorta wrecked my chance with a guy that actually liked me so he not going to want to hang out with me anytime soon

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-05-14 07:23:32 +0000 UTC]

Im rely sorry to hear that. If u wanna come to SoCal we can hangout, go to the beach, check out disneyland and act like children...lol. What with the guy if you dont mind me asking?

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-05-14 13:48:43 +0000 UTC]

that sounds really great!

And as for the guy I was stupid enough to see a pic of him and his old girlfriend and ask why they broke up, I am his friend I thought I had the right to ask. Well he called me a stalker and said he didn't have room for one more he already had two. Now when I talk to him he gives me one word answers or no answer at all. He used to call me all the time too, now I am wondering why I even have a phone. Its just maddening because its just so stupid. I said I was sorry, and he said we were good, but we aren't grr. The worst part is he is this really great guy that actually liked me for more than what I looked like. I really hope something can be salvaged. I feel like I was cheated at screwing up the relationship on my own. And that's a big paragraph lol.

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-05-14 18:32:43 +0000 UTC]

No worries, i love to read. I used to be a monk and to help people I would listen to their problems. You also helped me in my time of need at one time as well...im not sure if you remember. Personally im the type of person who melts down during a break up.
I remember my grandfather told me there are 3 types of people in the world during any tragedy; the living, the dead, and the dying. The living will live, the dead are gone, the dying should choose one or the other.

Sounds like the guy was insecure with his true feelings otherwise it wouldn't be a big deal if you asked. You simply wanted to get to know him better. Perhaps the romantic aspects gone but there can still be a friendship if he still wants it.

Too bad you aren't here, I made some alcoholic ice cream and I don't have anyone to share it with. You sound like you definitely need the disneyland fix.

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-05-15 13:14:31 +0000 UTC]

alcoholic ice cream mmmmm, and as for the guy, he says we are fine, and that he has just been busy. however even when he was busy he'd manage to call me. but I will let it mellow, and let him figure out what he wants.

I am getting so irritated with my boss, he was a guy i dated for 4 months and then broke up with because he thought I was cheating on him. and His behavior is just terrible, I understand that I hurt him, but he's taking it out on my friends. and abandoning me at work during large tasks I was 22 minutes after close last night and on top of it I was really sick. and the night before that he almost assaulted me because he told me to feel better and I told him I wouldn't for a while because mental things don't just life. then he said he knew how I felt and I completely lost it, "Oh so you were rapped and want to die!" luckily I was close enough to my car to get in and lock and so he ended up just punching my car.

I live a charmed life.

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-05-15 19:06:33 +0000 UTC]

Trust me when I say I know how surreal life can get. I do hate it when people say they "understand" when they never experienced physical and mental anguish. Some people are blessed with a normal life with a handful of challenges; thats just not case for people like us. I was physically and mentally abused for many years of my childhood by my parents. I was assaulted as you were when I 13. I was so scared I couldn't scream and I never told anyone. I suppressed my natural sexuality for many years and I didn't lose my virginity till I was 21. That was very scary because I kept flash backing. My first break up was very painful and it happened in New Orleans. I had no support from anyone. Im sure it was totally caused by constantly suppressing my emotions and feelings. As for the your boss that's why I don't date at the work place. How did you hurt him if he left you?
I almost moved to Minnesota but my ex left me and married someone else. She said we can still be friends but I cant do it. It takes a special kind of person to be friends with an ex, I'm not that person. I love with the heart and when it breaks I completely avoid the person so I don't do anything stupid. I love enough to let go. I get tired of my exs leaving me and getting married and telling me I helped somehow. Its very irritating.
Where do you work? I'm a bar tender at medieval times. I have a really fun job.

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-05-16 13:47:57 +0000 UTC]

I work at RadioShack in a mall. I meet some really terrible people, and sell them phones. Sorry that you can't find someone to love forever, I don't even care about love anymore, I just want the guy to stick around.

So I am trying to act normal around the guy that said we were good. But my texts are turning more into a diary then a conversation. I tell him good morning and about my plans for the day and at the end of the day I say good night. And thanks to Facebook I know he's not as busy as he says. But I am going to ignore Facebook, since it started all this trouble to begin with (you shouldn't have photos of you, kissing your ex on your profile, when you tell a girl you want to be exclusive)

So I am keeping as busy as I can to avoid feeling lonely. I just want my chance with this guy, I want me to be the one that screws it up, not some ex that can't let go. And I know that sounds a bit pathetic, but I am okay with that.

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-05-16 17:41:02 +0000 UTC]

Love is for teenagers and young people. I'm over it. It sounds like he clearly still has feelings for his ex even though he won't admit it. I do believe you're right, no one keeps intimate pictures of their ex on their social network. That's just weird or just plain clingy. What you want does not sound pathetic at all. Whatever happens you should see it through. Wish I was in the neighborhood, I'd buy u coffee and just hang out. There are plenty of good guys out there, the only problem is good and bad guys use the same lines to get girls.

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-05-17 01:49:48 +0000 UTC]

I think its the girl that's not over him though he could be kind and untag himself. He used to call me every night now I call him and get his voicemail. He says he's just so busy I hope this is the truth.

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-05-17 09:02:40 +0000 UTC]

I hope things work out for you. No one so busy that they cannot give you a simple message to say hi. You should get a new job and ditch the radio shack. I hate retail jobs. I make more money as a bar tender than a nurse. I realize thats a lot easier said than done though.

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-05-19 04:54:59 +0000 UTC]

oh my goodness I couldn't figure out why you didn't write me and its because last message never posted, and it was a good one. It had all my thoughts laid out and shit!

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-05-19 08:54:35 +0000 UTC]

That's ok, you can just give me the cliff notes version. if you want to be friends on facebook my address is www.facebook.com/raginglonewolf

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-05-19 14:37:21 +0000 UTC]

oh it was me saying how i was going to let my relationship with this guy teach me patience. i think he broke up with is girl in febuary on is birthday no less

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-05-19 19:11:55 +0000 UTC]

You should find another guy

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-05-20 13:42:57 +0000 UTC]

I just got out of a relationship I thought was going somewhere, on the marriage brick road. This guy thinks I am awesome when I don't feel awesome, that's enough for me. I am not on the rebound, and I am not looking to date, I just want a guy that stays. He stays, even if he does get to busy to talk.

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-05-20 20:57:09 +0000 UTC]

Are you sure this is the type of guy you want in the long run? I already have to failed engagements. He should think ur awesome at all stages of ur life. No one is so busy that they cant give you a curtsity message to see how you are doing. After all the things you have been through you totally deserve better. You are beautiful, I am sure ur never short of people who want your company. I would say just think it over before you do anything rash. Renumber you're beautiful; inside and out. He should appreciate both; not just one.

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-05-21 15:43:48 +0000 UTC]

I am actually very short of people who want my company. And yes he is the guy I want in the long run. He's a guy that was an xbox friend for 5 years, I never knew what he looked like until this April. He liked me before he knew what I looked like. I don't want a guy that I am his world, I want a guy that understands that we live in this fantastic world and we can share it together. I knew what I was getting into, this guy is a river guide so hes early to rise and goes to areas of no cell service, and yes its stupid that he doesn't send me texts as often or at all on some days. but I won't hold it against him. life is a busy place, and relationships are hard, and all I want is a touch point, and so that's what I have with him. and when I meet him this September, I am sure some decisions will need to be made, but until then, I am happy.

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-05-21 16:54:37 +0000 UTC]

Well if ur happy that's all that matters. I just hate seeing people get hurt. What is gonna happen in September?

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-05-22 02:56:06 +0000 UTC]

Going to jump on a plane and go camping with him. Would go sooner, but the rafting season is in full swing so he is all booked up. September marks the end of the season, so he should have some down time before he jumps off to another country to do rafting there.

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-05-22 06:31:21 +0000 UTC]

Sounds fun, where you flying too?

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-05-22 13:24:57 +0000 UTC]

Albuquerque New Mexico and then driving into Santa Fe its cheaper, and gives us an hour and 30 minute drive to be awkward.

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-05-22 19:43:36 +0000 UTC]

I love awkward silences lol. Hope you have fun when you go.

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-05-23 16:22:28 +0000 UTC]

I am not so worried about silence, more about has he told me everything, or am I in for a whole bunch of surprises.

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-05-23 20:37:01 +0000 UTC]

In my experience surprises are never a good thing. Just my opinion, I have never had a good surprise...

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-05-24 16:31:39 +0000 UTC]

I have never really liked surprises mainly because no one knows me well enough to give me a good surprise.

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-05-24 21:05:06 +0000 UTC]

Well my offer still stands, if ur ever in town I can play tour guide. Disneyland, the beach, etc. Sometimes all you need is a friend who listens.

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-05-27 12:11:28 +0000 UTC]

thanks.

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-06-27 05:14:12 +0000 UTC]

any progress with ur boyfriend?

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-06-27 15:39:01 +0000 UTC]

well we haven't spoken in nearly a month because he has been fighting forest fires and doing the rafting thing, also he lost his phone in Iowa. the phone has been found and is on the way back to him, so i guess we are okay he sends me a facebook every once in a while. i have been working almost nonstop and my life is falling apart so i haven't had much time to think about it.

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-06-29 02:38:37 +0000 UTC]

I am really sorry to hear about that. Is he a fire fighter? Whats happening...?

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-06-30 16:15:18 +0000 UTC]

he was for 4 years up in montana, now hes just helping out. my life stinks because my car died, i am not getting promoted,my mum might be getting surgery, my grandfather is getting dementia, i work open to close all last week.

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-06-30 20:55:31 +0000 UTC]

Im really sorry to hear that. I hope everything turns out alright.

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-07-01 04:39:38 +0000 UTC]

tonight right now everything is perfect.

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-07-01 07:52:40 +0000 UTC]

good to hear, i worry about my friends

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VINESHKUMARSINGH In reply to americanhacker [2012-05-29 06:19:19 +0000 UTC]

What kinda friend would I be if I didn't? lol

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americanhacker In reply to VINESHKUMARSINGH [2012-05-29 13:48:15 +0000 UTC]

yeah but i am not too fond of that part of california its so crowded. much prefer northern areas. and i am really set on new mexico. i think its only fair to myself to meet this guy and figure out my life i am 26 years old i need to do that. plus i need a gorgeous guy no strings attached vacation really bad.

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