beautifulnightmare [2003-05-06 23:30:33 +0000 UTC]

I am devwatching you. Your wonderful comments have taught me to read carefully when I see one of yours, and I always feel they elicit a response.

You know who I am. You will figure it out eventually I think. Just...when you do...do not reveal my identity to others. It would be, in the least, awkward.

I do not mean to be frightening. [justtheoppositeinfact]

a shy scared bunny with a secret smile.

Join me in my [fake] world.

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spyed [2003-04-10 10:17:18 +0000 UTC]

Have you ever had a dream, that you were so sure was real? What if you were unable to wake from that dream? How would you know the difference between the dream world and the real world?

What you know you can't explain, but you feel it. You've felt it your entire deviant life, that there's something wrong with the story. You don't know what it is, but it's there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad.

You take the blue pill, the story ends. Your browser closes and you believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill, you stay in wonderland. And, I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes.

I offer only the truth, nothing more.

Take: The Red Pill
Take: The Blue Pill

spyed, nobody has ever done this before.
I know. That's why it's going to work.

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anathemadevice [2003-03-23 12:55:59 +0000 UTC]

thank you so much for your comments on thirteen angels! i really appreciated that a lot. i'm working on making a second installment to the story, but while the story is clear in my head, it's taking some time to get it written down the way i want.

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soul-ache [2003-03-18 05:02:16 +0000 UTC]

heyhey. this is loupe, under a new name...i'm logged in to my photo gallery at the moment, but thought i'd take the moment to reply a little as best i could. things are going okay...i guess...you know...i've got someone who is slowly building up my self-esteem, but you know how things go...i'm good during the day around my friends (all freakin three)..but when i get home...everything goes all to hell again. don't worry though, i think this whole thing will sort itself out eventually. ya know. i guess it's same old same old because i can't think of anything exciting i've done...*sigh* boring don and boring loupe...we make quite a pair, no?

it's late. but i will write again, later. (once, again, it's very good to have you back again). i seem to be extroadinarily good at depriving myself of sleep.

*yawn* talk tomorrow, most likely. i'm glad i was remembered too.

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loupe [2003-03-16 22:40:04 +0000 UTC]

*sighs in releif* you're back!!!!!

i'll be back later to talk...because i have to eat. but it is very good to know you're okay.

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loupe [2003-02-15 03:35:47 +0000 UTC]

happy v-day where were you? missed you.

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idiotsavant [2003-02-13 06:09:48 +0000 UTC]

Yo yo yo . Havent talk to you in a long time. Making sure ur alive in all that stuff..

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loupe [2002-12-11 03:41:39 +0000 UTC]

GOd, I was coming around to see if you was okay and all, just saying hi to al my devwatchers, and I read your journal entry. I'm siding wit you on this one. Everyone's got feelings, and it's nice to see a guy actually express them, or acknowledge that he has them. Be glad you're not in high school anymore. There's rumors that I am a lesbian just because I won't backstabe my friends or talk about them behind their backs. I guess I just let it pass right through me now. But I, well, i DON'T know how you feel but i've had similar situations happen to me. I must say, You're much more outspoken about them.
Of course, sometimes it's just bbest to ignore it. But I really wouldn't know about you. I'm not trying to say what you should and shouldn't do mor am i trying to put words in your mouth. Just sharing a few things. Keep fighting for yourself, and maybe that guy will get the picture. Personally, if someone left me a comment saying, don't mind him, he's just trying to get in your pants," I would accuse them of having an awfully sick little mind if that's all they think about.

Enough rambling. And I hope everything's going alright. But I have to go. Take care

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kira-lee [2002-12-07 21:10:34 +0000 UTC]

YAY!

*chews on your poems*

I guess Loupe warned you, huH?

I read though a few of them, and they are very very good. I wish I could write poetry.

I'll be back soon to read more...I have to go now.

But... *wipes slobber* Your poems taste good.

*love love love*

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loupe [2002-12-01 23:52:12 +0000 UTC]

Kira has told me she is going to come "chew on your poetry."
Just thought I let you kow. Take care....

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loupe [2002-11-28 02:33:06 +0000 UTC]

awwww, thank you. your comment made me feel loved. to you to.

and I'll take a moment to say thank you for the comments - every one - that you've left. Yours are so much deeper than some of the others simply because it looks like you actually took the time and looked at the picture...and thouht about it.

again.

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adeptus [2002-11-22 14:31:11 +0000 UTC]

i love this so much i think i could just kik you in tha nuts. but i wont. promise. ok first you have to leave these comments that are just awesome. i could go ask anyone who youve left a comment on and i bet theyd all say that when they feel down, etc. they go look at your comments and an instant smirk, smile, or abrasive grin floods thier face. thats what it is on mine. i try so hard not to and i have to have a pep talk before i even start reading your comments. "dont be a chump! dont smile at nice words!" i dont know why but maybe its cause im a work cheesing like mofo at my screen. you know how you said you dont think anyone should feel sadness? thats how i feel towards you. depression brings out the creativeness. the passion. the words. you feel suicidal and you sit down and write and still rhyme. (something ive never understood.) i sit down and scribble. on paper or skin. same thing really. but we both get it out. on -Glitter- half the rhymes were . shes amazing. i have my metaphores and pain. she has her flow factor, ability to rhyme, pain, and is just all around an awesome writer. i cant seem to compare to so many talents. i have no structure but i dont care! i dont flow half the time etc. i pretty much just got over the fact that im not a ps artist or a photographer with a studio. i dont produce top faves. but you know what? im doing it all for me. fuck the masses. i will mail you later to tell you my thoughts on the rest of what you said. seeing as how this is way too long already. thank you for the awesome comments and fave.

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rightrealm [2002-11-22 09:13:19 +0000 UTC]

Wow. You put a whole new meaning to my picture of "gone".. Your comment not only made me laugh it made me smile and think about what I actauly made..

WOW again..

Thanx..

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rightrealm [2002-11-20 06:48:41 +0000 UTC]

Thanx loads for the thought full and imformative coments..

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loupe [2002-11-13 04:40:23 +0000 UTC]

*indignant*
guys can say "AWWWWW" !!

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loupe [2002-11-02 05:13:47 +0000 UTC]

oh yeah....and post that picture!!!! Even if you think that your art pales i comparison to everyone else's. I wasn't always as good as i am now..and i've got one loooooooooong way to go before it gets as good as i'd like it, but i post...mainly because i want to...and there will be people out there that like it. plus, comments make loupe feel loved, but that's not the point *insert innocent "Bob face" here* (Bob's my friend and makes a patented face when she lies....)

andif you think that there isn't anyone who'd want to see it, remember i do.

i seem to like smileys today....

.......

.........weird.

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loupe [2002-11-02 05:10:12 +0000 UTC]

hey, if you get wasted i your own home by yourself, there's nobody to nark on you...and then again it wouldn't be as fun, right?

so anyway...

right now i can't write much because my dad wants to go to sleep (and the compu is in his room at the moment), but i would like to say that so far i'm ok....and it's a good thing that you are too....so many depressing things in my life my oh my...but i guess i set myself up for it.

as for bleeding silver lyrics...the ones i have right now are sorta inspired by the pic...actually, my lyrics came with a whole music vid in my head...as do most of my stories and pictures, but hey, that's fine with me (music addict that i am). I'm thinking of making them darker...because a lot of my feelings i express through that stuff....rather than saying them out loud or acting on them. but anyway, that's besides the piont. acutally, this "aspect" of loupe (the character) evolved into a large dark gothic fantasy story (tht i have yet to acquire the patience to finish) with "Aerials" by SOAD as the muzak. the lyrics i have now seem to go with that (the story, not SOAD...I'd be damned f i could write lyrics as spontaneous and yet as profound as SOAD could...huh..), but the refrain for it could be used to make some other song so much better....

ah well....anyway. never give up fighting. sometimes you might find that the darkness isn't always bad...at least, when i'm feeling devoid of emotion it keeps my anger from exploding forth upon everyone else, or myself. And it can make you feel secure sometimes....but don't get too secure, that would not be a good thing....not a good thing at all.
to keep fighting is a good thing....

wow..and i said it had to be short. maybe the fact that my dad decided to go downstairs instead of to sleep made a difference... .

you know, at least today was a good day.

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loupe [2002-10-31 04:45:41 +0000 UTC]

I'm hoping you feel better. My heart goes out to you. I know mere words aren't much, but at least I can say something.

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golucky [2002-10-30 03:39:14 +0000 UTC]

well, you wanted an update, so here you are;

lying sprawled out on the phone, with a grin practically plastered on my face, i felt eternal .. bliss, if you will. just listening to that faint voice on the other line...saying that he'd call back at 8:50. by the way, he never did. and now, i don't feel so good. but its my own fault for getting myself suckered into this...i fell into that trap, and i found myself shedding a few tears while wrapped up in a sea of blankets, one of which we shared. so, sitting here, listening to melancholy beatles songs.. please don't wear red tonight...and nothing's going to change my world...well, at least, thats what the intention was at the beginning. i never meant to feel deeply about anyone...i'm just recovering, and then this happens. its like insult upon injury, and its stinging clear. i feel ridiculous for letting myself act this way; letting other people walk all over me like that, and not doing anything whatsoever to make me feel better. i don't know what would make me feel better anymore because the one thing i had trust in, let me down. now, not even ice cream can cure these blues. boo hoo...
maybe its the time change...or maybe it's pms which is causing me to be overly moody and sensitive about little pin pricks. but, whatever be the cause, i still felt it, regardless of time and reality. ah..and too think. just tonight i felt so good, so warm and so...wanted.
who knew that would have been changed by a simple thing such as a 'missed phone call'.
but...don't dismay, or feel bad for me...i WILL get over it. maybe i should swear off guys..or at least for the time being, boycott them.
why, WHY, were humans genetically blessed with the power to FEEL...sure, some feelings are great; love, happiness, yadi yadi yadi; all of which i do not have.
i only feel regret, and hurt, and sometimes depression coming...slowwwly sinking..
that's why i needed something, or rather, someONE to help regulate me, and make me want to be a better person. but that obviously isn't happening at the time, and not only that, but there are other reasons as well that i might feel like this, some of which are too explicit to reveal hehe.
aw well...
write me back if you feel like it hon.
[ i need a hug... ]

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stormclouds [2002-10-24 23:00:15 +0000 UTC]

Thanks for the comment. I'm going to go through your gallery and let you know what I thought.

~Emm

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loupe [2002-10-24 02:30:41 +0000 UTC]

hey, thanks for the +watch!

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nattle [2002-10-23 22:16:58 +0000 UTC]

I know what you mean about school *sigh* I hate going to school...

Hope things are okay.

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golucky [2002-10-11 02:07:09 +0000 UTC]

aww
your comment was just so deep...it blows me away! really! i feel so good having someone analyze what i say, and want to know what i really mean at the core of the issue...
its so rewarding.
and your comments are always there! i'm so glad you enjoy reading my prose and poetry, and can actually relate to it...
i always love to hear YOUR feedback especially, because, unlike most everyone else, you don't just compliment, you back up all your statements!
fannntastic job..i feel like you've done a better job at explaining my stuff then i have in making it....

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darklyartistic [2002-10-10 06:39:26 +0000 UTC]

are you also donny-d lol..........just wonderin and what were you talking about......oh gosh i am so confused.

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idiotsavant [2002-10-10 03:15:04 +0000 UTC]

... but the question that plagues us is.. could god microwave a burrito so hot .. that he himself couldnt eat it!

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adeptus [2002-10-09 13:13:16 +0000 UTC]

and then suddenly someone seemed to understand. thank you so much for your comment on Kandeh I Bawl-. i do believe you are the first one to actually read the words. when i write on something... then that is the work... not the picture. but who am i to correct anything? people can take it all for what they want. but i thank you for looking at what was important. to me atleast.

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loupe [2002-10-08 12:00:17 +0000 UTC]

h'mmm thanking you yet again...and yet again I'm doing homework...early int he morning this time. !!!

I think it's not only the ould, but its contrast with outside appearance. All he really wants is to get his life back. And he's not helping himself do that...i guess...that's the whole outlook of that character...your comment made me think about his soul. Which isn't really something I've done yet for many of them.

thanks

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loupe [2002-10-06 23:58:54 +0000 UTC]

thank you so much for the cmments..they're really uplifting...
I also think your poems are really awesome so far, though I can't comment at the moment b/c of the fact that I'm supposedly writing an english paper..so I'll jam it all in here and then comment later when I'm done. They re really neat...the "I'm going insane" poem really fit my feelings awhile ago...i wish I'd seen it then...then I'd know i wasn't the only one. Well, I'd know for sure...seeing that "it happens to everyone." ;P

Thanks again...

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xstersy [2002-10-06 09:01:12 +0000 UTC]

thx for the comment man,yeah my freind did it..hes a chinese
his name is Sun,we call him Mike because his real name is a bit too long..

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golucky [2002-10-03 20:42:25 +0000 UTC]

am i still intoxicating

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idiotsavant [2002-10-03 16:06:58 +0000 UTC]

nice poems... if i had a gun id probably shoot myself in the foot on accident. although i do whoop ass at point blank.. I own at FPS games!!! arrr!

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donny-d [2002-10-03 09:36:58 +0000 UTC]

Hadn't had enough of you...? how does one get enough of you ... your a poet... an artist... a SINGER! (wow!) and you play the most seductive instrument in the world... the guitar... yet your sad... you said my "longgg" comments makes your day better... hmmm... I don't think infinity could hold everything I would wanna say about your works... hope that made you feel better... if not... read the title of my last deviation... if you had just read it... your right....... it is for you...

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golucky [2002-10-02 22:20:35 +0000 UTC]

teehee, im back again! haven't had enough of me, have you
thanks a lot for your comment, it was awesome!!! i love them longgg comments makes my days better.

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golucky [2002-10-01 22:53:32 +0000 UTC]

awww your poem is so emotional, and heartbreaking..*sigh* you should submit it. i think its very lengh-y and detailed. thanks for sharing doll!

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golucky [2002-10-01 16:42:13 +0000 UTC]

i'll have you know they are not mostly guys, there are plenty of girls i talk to as well. and i DO assure you, i am no devil in disguise. besides, you can't take one look at my art, and the people who look at it and decide your opinion on me,you only just came to dev art a day ago! just wanted to clear that up, and that that is no reason to dislike someone.

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