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hey, wow,
you look...
great! you do!

I'm well,

and you?

good, good.

are you happy?

great!

am I?

no, but here, have my

nervous laughter,

see me turn myself

upside down when we run

into each other.

while you are shaking hands

and kissing babies

still smiling for smiling's sake,

I've seen the real you

crying into wine. I've felt you

stain my shirt black-streaked

with hidden away things

creased things, folded

and-tucked-under-heavy

upturned-lip things

and in the process, you

soaked my soul in

everything you.

spooning your vulnerability

was better than

exchanging virginities

in one blind night,

better than the electric jolts

you sent burning up my arms

when you grabbed my hand

one day, out of the clear blue,

better than that first kiss

when both our tensions

dissolved into each other

like butter in a hot pan.

nothing has quite matched the night

when I saw you naked, saw you

emotionally undress for the first time:

I'm fine, you slipped off your shoulder

I'm okay, really you gently pushed down,

passed trembling excited knees.

I remember it like yesterday,

how you pressed my hand over your

insecurity; you asked me to kiss your

exposed hurt still raw as the scarring day,

pleaded with me in shakily caught breaths

to make you come

clean.

even now in this unexpected meeting,

as I hold my frown up

with these veiling pleasantries,

I see by your softening eyes

we will never be strangers again.

we will always be

still-in-love exes because

I will always be the one

you lost your walls to.