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Today was horribly hot outside.
I leaned against a tree in the shade and looked around.
I wondered where my journal was... I hoped that it slid through the floor and nobody found it... I can always just start a new journal.
I missed having something to write in though, it actually made me feel sort of alone...
But then, I saw her again.
She looked like such a gentle soul, so friendly and confident- despite her disability, so cool.
As soon as she was alone, I had to go up to her.
I don't think she even knew what my name was...
Finally, it was time- I had to put a name to my voice.
I walked up to her, "Hey, America!" She turned to face me, and that's when I saw how red her skin was from the sun, "Are you ok!? Your skin is really burnt!" She nodded, "Yes I'm fine! Not really used to being outside, but I'll be fine!"
I didn't believe it, it looked like she was in pain. "I have some sunscreen in my bag
if you need to borrow some, I don't mind sharing!" America shook her head, "I'm fine!" I felt worried that she refused my help, but I shook it off, remembering that I had to introduce myself, "I don't think I ever introduced myself, I'm Josh; I offered to help you when we got off the bus, remember?"
Suddenly, I felt somebody grab my arm and yank me away.
"GAH!" I shouted, completely freaked out.
"Listen sugah, I know who you are~" It was the big loud girl, I think her name was Fifi? I wondered aloud what this was all about and then my eyes darted as she rose her hand... holding my journal.
I asked her where she found it, feeling somewhat thankful, but also hoping she didn't read my personal journal... She handed it back to me, "Honey, don't you worry about a thing. Just relax and try not to worry so much about Miss America over there."
I grasped my journal tight, not knowing whether I could trust her or not.
"Just... don't tell anyone about this please," I said, and Fifi smiled at me, "Your secret's safe wit me, hon."
I walked away, unsure of the conversation. Something didn't feel right, like the returning of my journal went a little too well...

For the first part of the challenge we had to jump off of a latter that was 100 feet tall, and then land on a horse.... yeah... I'm serious...
I looked at my team, wondering if there was anyone worth complaining to about the challenge.
It felt really strange to have an urge to talk to someone other than a journal... I suppose I haven't been out and around people much other than school.
It could be cool to connect with someone for once, I thought.
I stood beside a girl with a smug look on her face- Hei-ran was her name, looking like
she wasn't impressed with the challenge either.
Before I could say anything a scary-looking guy- Hunter- walked up to her, "I am so psyched for this challenge!" The girl rose an eyebrow, "Uh yeah, I guess..."
I couldn't believe they actually sounded like they wanted to do the challenge, "You guys actually enjoy this cowboy stuff??"
Hunter was excited to respond, "Cowboys are the coolest kind of dudes! They can be bad asses and just shoot whoever and they have showdowns and still get paid and get girls! HOW IS THAT NOT COOL?!?"
I cringed when he rose his voice, hoping he wouldn't hurt me... that guy needs to tone it down a little... just saying.
"Do you feel the same way?" I chuckled a little, knowing Hei-ran would disagree.
"Hah, no... that's crazy... cowboys? Not cool..." I smiled, actually connecting with someone for once... but then- "OK WOO I'M NEXT!!"
She ran towards the latter with a burst of excitement...?

I looked up at the 100 foot latter, I could barely see the diving board, the sun blinded my eyes as I tried to find it.
Person after person refused to jump... and then I saw America, looking sort of confused. She stepped forward, wanting to go next.
I had to say something, I didn't want her to get hurt.
"Hey... this looks really bad for America... Um... host person...?" I turned to the person
beside me, "What's her name again?"
The host glared at me, I didn't care, "I really don't think America can jump off of that. You know she's blind, right? She'll get seriously hurt!"
The host huffed, "Fine. You can jump for her then!"
My mouth dropped open, wondering if I had heard her correctly, "What!? But we're not even on the same team!"
I couldn't believe the lack of concern the host had for the contestants.
She continued looking immaturely pissed off, "Would anyone else like to jump twice for the blind girl...?" Everyone went silent.
She crossed her arms and smirked at me... I don't think I've ever felt this warmhearted towards somebody... not.
America quickly walked towards the latter, ready to do the challenge.
Unlike these other horrible people, I couldn't watch her get hurt, "Wait!" I ran up to her, "I'll jump for you!" I started to climb the latter like an idiot.
"I think I can handle a little jump." I stopped when I heard her... so I looked back at her, "You can't see how tall it is- you'll hurt yourself!" My heart poured out of my mouth, not
thinking about how she really felt... I was so stupid.
"I've lived my entire life getting helped by others! I've never done anything by myself!
I'm doing it, I'm jumping!" She pushed me off of the latter and began to climb.
I then got a pain in my gut, feeling embarrassed and useless.
I just hoped she would be okay- I hope to god I don't lose this journal again... jeez I'm blushing just writing about this...
But that little scene actually happened... and everyone saw... damn, I just realized how much I embarrassed myself... ugh.
Anyways, she jumped. And although it did look painful, the same thing happened to everyone else who jumped... So I guess I shouldn't be so worried.
Oh, and I didn't jump either... Once I climbed that latter and got to the end of the diving board- I looked down- bad idea.
I chickened out and climbed back down...

The second part of the challenge was easy.
The cowboys had to catch the cows... and by the way, I can't believe how lucky I was that I got to be a cowboy instead of a cow... avoiding embarrassing situations doesn't usually come my way, so... thanks to whoever decided.
But... America did look cute with the utter hat... She looked easy to capture, but I saw an even better target.
It was Olivia, not paying any attention to the challenge and taking pictures of herself... I smiled, ready to win the challenge.
I lazily threw the rope around her, bulls-eye.
She gasped in shock, but then using her phone camera, saw behind who caught her.
She backed into me, totally invading my space and aimed her camera at me. Terrified of some pretty girl getting that close to me, I bolted... I don't know if that counted as
catching someone but whatever. Pathetic, I know...
When I turned around, I saw America stumbling along, and then Fabio tripping her.
I gasped and covered my mouth, how could someone do that!?
It was completely uncalled for! HOW could someone TRIP a BLIND person!?!? I was so baffled, I entered the confessional for the first time...
"Um, ok... I've never done something like this before... BUT HOW COULD SOMEONE TRIP A BLIND PERSON!? Like, ARE YOU KIDDING ME!? WHY!? Fabio has made it onto my 'avoid at all costs' list. UGH has he no heart!?"
As I left the confessional... I felt a little better.
It was like... an audio journal or something.
It felt good to actually say how I felt for once.

After the challenge we were told to clean ourselves up.
Everyone lined up to use the showers, I didn't feel that gross so I waited outside, writing in my journal.
However, I then saw Fifi looking kind of bummed out.
I remembered her words, "try not to worry so much about Miss America over there."
Was she actually trying to help me out?
Maybe she wasn't a bad person... maybe she was trying to be a friend.
I stood up, built up the courage to approach her, "Hey, Fifi?" She noticed me, "Oh hey there sugar!"
I nervously looked at the ground, feeling stupid, "Sorry that I acted kinda rude to you this morning..." She tilted her head, "What you talkin' about, sweetie?"
"I was a dick to you when you gave back my journal, so I apologize. And maybe we could... be friends?" I couldn't believe I said something like that.
Seriously, I never act so pathetic like that at school... but having a companion in this competition seemed like a good idea. "Aw, well sure sugah! That sounds nice!"
I cracked a smile, feeling good about it. "Okay well I guess I'll see you around?"
She smiled back, "Of course, honey." I walked away, smiling more than I probably have in years.
It felt good to have someone on my side.

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Episode 2 Submission for

I couldn't finish the other pictures and backgrounds so this is the best I could do xD I think I spent too much time writing everything out. Soo this entry is more journal focused... obviously xD

Description

Today was horribly hot outside.
I leaned against a tree in the shade and looked around.
I wondered where my journal was... I hoped that it slid through the floor and nobody found it... I can always just start a new journal.
I missed having something to write in though, it actually made me feel sort of alone...
But then, I saw her again.
She looked like such a gentle soul, so friendly and confident- despite her disability, so cool.
As soon as she was alone, I had to go up to her.
I don't think she even knew what my name was...
Finally, it was time- I had to put a name to my voice.
I walked up to her, "Hey, America!" She turned to face me, and that's when I saw how red her skin was from the sun, "Are you ok!? Your skin is really burnt!" She nodded, "Yes I'm fine! Not really used to being outside, but I'll be fine!"
I didn't believe it, it looked like she was in pain. "I have some sunscreen in my bag
if you need to borrow some, I don't mind sharing!" America shook her head, "I'm fine!" I felt worried that she refused my help, but I shook it off, remembering that I had to introduce myself, "I don't think I ever introduced myself, I'm Josh; I offered to help you when we got off the bus, remember?"
Suddenly, I felt somebody grab my arm and yank me away.
"GAH!" I shouted, completely freaked out.
"Listen sugah, I know who you are~" It was the big loud girl, I think her name was Fifi? I wondered aloud what this was all about and then my eyes darted as she rose her hand... holding my journal.
I asked her where she found it, feeling somewhat thankful, but also hoping she didn't read my personal journal... She handed it back to me, "Honey, don't you worry about a thing. Just relax and try not to worry so much about Miss America over there."
I grasped my journal tight, not knowing whether I could trust her or not.
"Just... don't tell anyone about this please," I said, and Fifi smiled at me, "Your secret's safe wit me, hon."
I walked away, unsure of the conversation. Something didn't feel right, like the returning of my journal went a little too well...

For the first part of the challenge we had to jump off of a latter that was 100 feet tall, and then land on a horse.... yeah... I'm serious...
I looked at my team, wondering if there was anyone worth complaining to about the challenge.
It felt really strange to have an urge to talk to someone other than a journal... I suppose I haven't been out and around people much other than school.
It could be cool to connect with someone for once, I thought.
I stood beside a girl with a smug look on her face- Hei-ran was her name, looking like
she wasn't impressed with the challenge either.
Before I could say anything a scary-looking guy- Hunter- walked up to her, "I am so psyched for this challenge!" The girl rose an eyebrow, "Uh yeah, I guess..."
I couldn't believe they actually sounded like they wanted to do the challenge, "You guys actually enjoy this cowboy stuff??"
Hunter was excited to respond, "Cowboys are the coolest kind of dudes! They can be bad asses and just shoot whoever and they have showdowns and still get paid and get girls! HOW IS THAT NOT COOL?!?"
I cringed when he rose his voice, hoping he wouldn't hurt me... that guy needs to tone it down a little... just saying.
"Do you feel the same way?" I chuckled a little, knowing Hei-ran would disagree.
"Hah, no... that's crazy... cowboys? Not cool..." I smiled, actually connecting with someone for once... but then- "OK WOO I'M NEXT!!"
She ran towards the latter with a burst of excitement...?

I looked up at the 100 foot latter, I could barely see the diving board, the sun blinded my eyes as I tried to find it.
Person after person refused to jump... and then I saw America, looking sort of confused. She stepped forward, wanting to go next.
I had to say something, I didn't want her to get hurt.
"Hey... this looks really bad for America... Um... host person...?" I turned to the person
beside me, "What's her name again?"
The host glared at me, I didn't care, "I really don't think America can jump off of that. You know she's blind, right? She'll get seriously hurt!"
The host huffed, "Fine. You can jump for her then!"
My mouth dropped open, wondering if I had heard her correctly, "What!? But we're not even on the same team!"
I couldn't believe the lack of concern the host had for the contestants.
She continued looking immaturely pissed off, "Would anyone else like to jump twice for the blind girl...?" Everyone went silent.
She crossed her arms and smirked at me... I don't think I've ever felt this warmhearted towards somebody... not.
America quickly walked towards the latter, ready to do the challenge.
Unlike these other horrible people, I couldn't watch her get hurt, "Wait!" I ran up to her, "I'll jump for you!" I started to climb the latter like an idiot.
"I think I can handle a little jump." I stopped when I heard her... so I looked back at her, "You can't see how tall it is- you'll hurt yourself!" My heart poured out of my mouth, not
thinking about how she really felt... I was so stupid.
"I've lived my entire life getting helped by others! I've never done anything by myself!
I'm doing it, I'm jumping!" She pushed me off of the latter and began to climb.
I then got a pain in my gut, feeling embarrassed and useless.
I just hoped she would be okay- I hope to god I don't lose this journal again... jeez I'm blushing just writing about this...
But that little scene actually happened... and everyone saw... damn, I just realized how much I embarrassed myself... ugh.
Anyways, she jumped. And although it did look painful, the same thing happened to everyone else who jumped... So I guess I shouldn't be so worried.
Oh, and I didn't jump either... Once I climbed that latter and got to the end of the diving board- I looked down- bad idea.
I chickened out and climbed back down...

The second part of the challenge was easy.
The cowboys had to catch the cows... and by the way, I can't believe how lucky I was that I got to be a cowboy instead of a cow... avoiding embarrassing situations doesn't usually come my way, so... thanks to whoever decided.
But... America did look cute with the utter hat... She looked easy to capture, but I saw an even better target.
It was Olivia, not paying any attention to the challenge and taking pictures of herself... I smiled, ready to win the challenge.
I lazily threw the rope around her, bulls-eye.
She gasped in shock, but then using her phone camera, saw behind who caught her.
She backed into me, totally invading my space and aimed her camera at me. Terrified of some pretty girl getting that close to me, I bolted... I don't know if that counted as
catching someone but whatever. Pathetic, I know...
When I turned around, I saw America stumbling along, and then Fabio tripping her.
I gasped and covered my mouth, how could someone do that!?
It was completely uncalled for! HOW could someone TRIP a BLIND person!?!? I was so baffled, I entered the confessional for the first time...
"Um, ok... I've never done something like this before... BUT HOW COULD SOMEONE TRIP A BLIND PERSON!? Like, ARE YOU KIDDING ME!? WHY!? Fabio has made it onto my 'avoid at all costs' list. UGH has he no heart!?"
As I left the confessional... I felt a little better.
It was like... an audio journal or something.
It felt good to actually say how I felt for once.

After the challenge we were told to clean ourselves up.
Everyone lined up to use the showers, I didn't feel that gross so I waited outside, writing in my journal.
However, I then saw Fifi looking kind of bummed out.
I remembered her words, "try not to worry so much about Miss America over there."
Was she actually trying to help me out?
Maybe she wasn't a bad person... maybe she was trying to be a friend.
I stood up, built up the courage to approach her, "Hey, Fifi?" She noticed me, "Oh hey there sugar!"
I nervously looked at the ground, feeling stupid, "Sorry that I acted kinda rude to you this morning..." She tilted her head, "What you talkin' about, sweetie?"
"I was a dick to you when you gave back my journal, so I apologize. And maybe we could... be friends?" I couldn't believe I said something like that.
Seriously, I never act so pathetic like that at school... but having a companion in this competition seemed like a good idea. "Aw, well sure sugah! That sounds nice!"
I cracked a smile, feeling good about it. "Okay well I guess I'll see you around?"
She smiled back, "Of course, honey." I walked away, smiling more than I probably have in years.
It felt good to have someone on my side.

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Episode 2 Submission for

I couldn't finish the other pictures and backgrounds so this is the best I could do xD I think I spent too much time writing everything out. Soo this entry is more journal focused... obviously xD