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a2valentine — Survived thus far

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Description Out of a one-night-stand on New Years Eve
   Into the incarnate fetus fe
Out of the womb
   Into a foster home
Out of the flood in the dollhouse
   Into Richard's basement quiet as a church mouse
Out of innocence
   Into incest
Out of a dozen schools mid-semester
   Into the next neighborhood for Cinderella sequester
Out of Beverly---Hills that is, swimmin pools, movie stars
   Into Dale Field for after-school fights and peep shows after hours

Out of the honor rolls, winning spelling bees and teacher's high marks for conduct
   Into the principal's office to roll down the waistband and wipe off that makeup
Out of families of adult alcoholics
   Into VW vans with purple mescaline and music
Out of grandpa's love ended with his third heart attack
   Into grandma's sour wrath and Alzheimer flack
Out of the schools of dumbing us down
   Into the J.O.B. just over broke world like a circus clown
Out of a threatened arranged marriage
   Into the streets where the Detroit riots ravaged
Out of Jan a shrewd two-faced aggressor who is mugged
   Into Aurelia a relentless considerate distracter now smug

Out of virginity at 23
   Into my first of four affairs with Okie
Out of romantic stride
   Into sample suicide
Out of my house you once my sister and now of heroin addicted thieves
   Into the doctor's office and pusher I go for speed
Out of the theatre in the round as the bourgeois Madame Coulmier whom I offer
   Into the 3-ring circus of engagement, wedding and suffer
Out of damnation and hellfire the preacher my husband is so wild
   Into motherhood to be raised by my child
Out of the marriage two times seven years
   Into the heathenistic frying pan full of fears

Out of corporate Americka's injustice system
   Into bouncing between two family's Prozac hypocritical mayhem
Out of my mother guilt trip selling my organs for Cheerio's  
   Into my patron saint's asylum in the central mountains of Idaho
Y'all come back now, y'hear
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Comments: 18

nothingbuteverything [2010-05-07 01:00:22 +0000 UTC]

Well written!

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a2valentine In reply to nothingbuteverything [2010-05-07 05:08:06 +0000 UTC]

thank you!

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nothingbuteverything In reply to a2valentine [2010-05-07 05:29:25 +0000 UTC]

welcome!

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LazyBonesStudios [2010-05-02 19:53:51 +0000 UTC]

Wow! Is like a menu on the flavors of life. Bravo to fold. Once for constucting this work in such an artful manner and again for the courage to share.

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a2valentine In reply to LazyBonesStudios [2010-05-03 06:36:29 +0000 UTC]

it's so much easier to share with strangers, eye am discovering, as family and friends easily become em-bare-assed once they get to know details, and lookout when they find you're writing a book about your childhood sexual abuse... so thanks, not that eye was looking to be artful (the above just "poured out" of me one afternoon in less than an hour... and courage, yes, we all have it... thank you for recognizing that eye am using it <3

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wallawallabigguy [2010-02-27 18:41:54 +0000 UTC]

An amazing historical compilation!

And I have to say how I am shocked by the "Christians" who claim to be filled with God's love, yet will say things like your hex-husband said. They think this is love?

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a2valentine In reply to wallawallabigguy [2010-02-27 23:03:14 +0000 UTC]

thank you, dean

nothing shocks me anymore, although eye must say, it fascinates me to observe people, listen to their talk and then watch their walk... absolutely fascinating!~

myself included

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faeriecrone [2010-02-24 01:35:51 +0000 UTC]

if the heart's capacity for joy is carved out by the tool of pain ... you have a really big heart.

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a2valentine In reply to faeriecrone [2010-02-27 23:08:55 +0000 UTC]

thank you...

your words remind me of gibran

and joseph campbell... oh! eye am reading the power of mythology and getting lost in dictionaries of symbols and have ordered more of his books... just when you think life can't get richer, it does

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faeriecrone In reply to a2valentine [2010-03-08 22:25:12 +0000 UTC]

I love Hero with a Thousand Faces, but really came to enjoy Campbell when I read the book which is a transcript of the Bill Moyer PBS series with Campbell.

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hell-on-a-stick [2010-02-10 13:10:21 +0000 UTC]

a beautiful history.
its all here.

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a2valentine In reply to hell-on-a-stick [2010-02-10 19:51:38 +0000 UTC]

thank you, we're all tough bastards, eh? (your chapbook is so close to home, eye can only read bits/pieces at a time), which of course reminds me of this:

On December 12, 1992 at 10:36 p.m., I asked my (now hex-) husband, a Pentecostal preacher, "Where was God when I was being sexually abused?" He answered, "He was not with you. You were a bastard. You were born unclean. Had he been with you, the Lord would have protected you. God can not fail. I'm saying that for every child. If he [a husband] was not a servant or his wife not a servant or his wife not a servant of God." He further explains that since I was born out of wedlock, "She was whoring. She had no husband. Therefore you were born unclean."

so all us tough bastards and rough bitches are working out our own salvation, just as the bible instructs, yes we are

writing about it really clears the air, doesn't it joseph?

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hell-on-a-stick In reply to a2valentine [2010-02-15 15:29:38 +0000 UTC]

yes it does. in more ways that I can tell.
This is an amazing story. I'm sure you'll get it down. you've got all the necessaries and all the words. Everything I see from you is 'right'. Its the real thing.

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a2valentine In reply to hell-on-a-stick [2010-02-18 21:06:11 +0000 UTC]

ty vurry vurry much <3 <3 <3

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hell-on-a-stick In reply to a2valentine [2010-02-20 03:19:45 +0000 UTC]

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Multisingularity [2010-01-20 06:53:33 +0000 UTC]

And through it all you shine, like the brightest star amidst a sky of shadows.

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a2valentine In reply to Multisingularity [2010-02-27 23:10:44 +0000 UTC]

thank you steffan, eye am so blessed to have you as a friend, you are wise beyond your tender years! <3

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Multisingularity In reply to a2valentine [2010-02-28 00:56:04 +0000 UTC]

, We are one my good friend. <3's

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