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The one thing I truly regret in my life.

The story: I fell in love with this amazing boy a little more than a year ago. We had a great relationship for a while, until somethings changed and we both made mistakes. We were always fighting and our priorities changed from love to sex. It wasn't just him, though I like to put it that way sometimes. It was me too. I ended up falling out of love with him without realizing it. And when I began to I denied it. I shot the thoughts out of my head. He was suppose to be my soul mate. I wasn't suppose to fall out of love. So instead of doing the smart thing, I ended up cheating on him. For some reason my thought process thought that if I cheated on him, I could get the attention I wanted without losing him. I thought it would work. I was living in fantasy land. I cheated on him with one guy for a while, but ended up stopping seeing as he had to go back to where he lived, which was out of the city. I stayed pretty loyal then. I had promised my self I wouldn't cheat anymore. Up until our anniversary. This is the part I hate the most. I'll admit it now, but back when it happened, I was trying to lie to myself to make me forget it. To make me forget how horrible I was. Anyways, on our anniversary I met this amazing guy who I had thought for some reason I had fallen in love with. I was mistaken obviously but there was something about him that I was drawn to. He was moving soon, so I broke my promise without a second thought, seeing as we were in a little fight at the time. I kissed the other guy and then went out to meet my boyfriend. Still living in fantasy world I was sure he wouldn't find out. Of course he did, this is reality, not fantasy world. We broke up soon after. I'm not really sure who broke up with who. I tell people I broke up with him and I'm sure he tells people he broke up with me. We tried to stay friends for a while but he still had feelings for me and I still had underlying feelings for him. Hell I still do. He was my first love, those feelings just don't disappear. So we fought and soon just broke it off completely. He still attempts at times to try to be friends, though I'm sure his new girlfriend hates me because of it. I can't accept his offer though because I'm sure either one or both of us will end up hurt again. Knowing me it will most likely be him. I don't let him know this. I put up a tough front. I can't be caught weak. Or I'll fall back into the trap we were in. Ruining both of our lives.

So this is to say i'm sorry.

And I'll regret this mistake for the rest of my life.

Photo (c) The lying, cheating, bitch I call myself.

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The one thing I truly regret in my life.

The story: I fell in love with this amazing boy a little more than a year ago. We had a great relationship for a while, until somethings changed and we both made mistakes. We were always fighting and our priorities changed from love to sex. It wasn't just him, though I like to put it that way sometimes. It was me too. I ended up falling out of love with him without realizing it. And when I began to I denied it. I shot the thoughts out of my head. He was suppose to be my soul mate. I wasn't suppose to fall out of love. So instead of doing the smart thing, I ended up cheating on him. For some reason my thought process thought that if I cheated on him, I could get the attention I wanted without losing him. I thought it would work. I was living in fantasy land. I cheated on him with one guy for a while, but ended up stopping seeing as he had to go back to where he lived, which was out of the city. I stayed pretty loyal then. I had promised my self I wouldn't cheat anymore. Up until our anniversary. This is the part I hate the most. I'll admit it now, but back when it happened, I was trying to lie to myself to make me forget it. To make me forget how horrible I was. Anyways, on our anniversary I met this amazing guy who I had thought for some reason I had fallen in love with. I was mistaken obviously but there was something about him that I was drawn to. He was moving soon, so I broke my promise without a second thought, seeing as we were in a little fight at the time. I kissed the other guy and then went out to meet my boyfriend. Still living in fantasy world I was sure he wouldn't find out. Of course he did, this is reality, not fantasy world. We broke up soon after. I'm not really sure who broke up with who. I tell people I broke up with him and I'm sure he tells people he broke up with me. We tried to stay friends for a while but he still had feelings for me and I still had underlying feelings for him. Hell I still do. He was my first love, those feelings just don't disappear. So we fought and soon just broke it off completely. He still attempts at times to try to be friends, though I'm sure his new girlfriend hates me because of it. I can't accept his offer though because I'm sure either one or both of us will end up hurt again. Knowing me it will most likely be him. I don't let him know this. I put up a tough front. I can't be caught weak. Or I'll fall back into the trap we were in. Ruining both of our lives.

So this is to say i'm sorry.

And I'll regret this mistake for the rest of my life.

Photo (c) The lying, cheating, bitch I call myself.