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Alshrim — Speechless
Published: 2004-08-08 00:07:59 +0000 UTC; Views: 43; Favourites: 0; Downloads: 1
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I am a big soul...I have never thought long about..
what i thought.
My words fail me
as I speak to you.
my words betray me..
as my soul sings out to say..
What a special person you are..
It confuses me..
for i have never been one
for lack of words
it shatters my recolections
that you should be the one
that silences me.
I am one of passionate convictions
I am one of opinion
and perhaps even intelligence
but I look upon you as a kindred soul...
tho' you may not see it..
tho' you may not even expect it
tho' you should .. for i have shown you too many times..
my shyness.
and yet.. I am not shy!!
And therein lies my paradox!
I am in confusion, or sorts..
it is safe to say that..
i cannot resolve this conflict within me.
i am not saddened.
I am not even angered.. yet..
confused!
I have not been like this,
all the years of my life.
not even at birth was I so meager.
I looked upon the world as a playground..
to exploit and venture..
and upon you I falter..
How can that be, I ask you..
How is it..
I draw upon a great sweat,
as you and I speak idle conversation;
how is it..
that words, so easily spoken by me..
to you
spill out like confetti upon a distant ocean...
how can i be wordless...
except for fear!
I am not a coward..
and yet with you.. i am.
and that scares the hell out of me!
I am one that is in control
and yet..
Life has dealt me a hand
that shows me just how chaotic it can be...
are we one and the same..
so different we are.. and yet..
how fate has dealt us the hand of similarity that i can only surmise..
i am raving.
raving of nothingness...
an insecurity that I am not used to..
you are so far away.
and yet i feel you as a kindred spirit..
WHY!?
Why?
Why??
