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Amani-Famana — This is Why
Published: 2013-07-09 04:22:36 +0000 UTC; Views: 134; Favourites: 1; Downloads: 0
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This is why I never actively desire anything. The minute I let myself want something, I start to worry about whether or not it'll happen and all these stupid questions start popping up in my head and I wish I could just scrawl a great big "STOP!!" across my brain and make everyone in there be quiet. :<The desire this time is college. I really want to go back, but there are a ton of complications in my way. Most of them are financial, but some are class availability, since I took so long to make up my mind about what I'm going to do. I'm also looking for a job and just hoping I get called for one of the six jobs I applied to in the last week. All that's left to do now is wait.
And waiting is hard.
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Just keep smiling, eat a cookie, and send me an e-mail if you need anything. But don't give up actively desiring, with out that, dreams cannot move forward.
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I know, that's the point my boyfriend made when we talked about it. It's kind of frustrating for me because I feel like he gave me permission to want things, and now I want everything, and it all flies around inside my head and won't leave me alone. 
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I'm sorry. I didn't mean to be repetitive.
Just keep working hard. Enjoy the thoughts that can be accomplished now. Look forward to the ones that will take some digging to achieve, and thank the ones in your past that have gotten you this far.
Sorry, I sound all know it all-ish, when in reality I barely have a droplet.
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It's alright. ^^
That's the thing, I can't accomplish ANYTHING right now. Except cleaning. I've done a ton of cleaning. There's not even much I can do to take steps in the right direction. I'm stuck right now.
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At least you aren't waiting for things to happen, you are doing something. Even if it doesn't seem to be going any where. You will make it somewhere soon.
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