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Cricket as a kirin... but on a carousel.

I have this bucket list dream of buying a blank carousel horse and then painting it from scratch, which I've wanted to do for centuries.

Just a friendly reminder that I CAN draw when I actually have the time. These days I don't have much of it, so my art has been simpler lately, but once in a blue moon when I have the time, I like to put a lot of effort into something as a treat for myself. It's been pointed out to me recently that my art quality has gone down, and that I've lost certain people's inspirations. Well that's the sacrifice of having a baby I suppose, but for me personally the baby is far more rewarding than any art piece I could ever come up with. No offense but art has never brought me such joy that it could carry me out of depression, in fact if anything, engaging in social media using my art has brought me far more anxiety and depression. Since having the baby I've felt more content with my life, and I wouldn't trade her for anything, not even to be the greatest art master in the world. I have always said that others get to enjoy your art more than you do. After looking at a piece for hours and putting in so much effort I often come away feeling exhausted and feeling contempt towards the art piece. That's what happens when you stare at an art piece too long I suppose, you develop a hatred towards it. But everyone else looks at it like it just popped into existence and they feel appreciation towards it. Well I'm glad for you, for me art has always left me feeling empty. That isn't to say I don't enjoy it, I've always loved drawing. But there is a certain point where art isn't the be all end all of life, and I'm far happier now that I have a baby to love and cherish. Suddenly it's like, I created a person who is far deeper and far more lovely than any other work of art or project I could've ever completed in my entire life. And she's like a new realm of wonderful. She's awe-inspiring. She's amazing. She is the greatest reward out of anything I've worked on in life, she's also my greatest nightmare but hey, she's worth it. I would gladly give up all talent for her, her value is worth far more. It means little to people online who will never meet her, never hold her and look into her beautiful eyes. For them it's disappointing that I've traded art quality for a baby. But for me she's my greatest treasure, and I have absolutely no regrets.

Description
Cricket as a kirin... but on a carousel.

I have this bucket list dream of buying a blank carousel horse and then painting it from scratch, which I've wanted to do for centuries.

Just a friendly reminder that I CAN draw when I actually have the time. These days I don't have much of it, so my art has been simpler lately, but once in a blue moon when I have the time, I like to put a lot of effort into something as a treat for myself. It's been pointed out to me recently that my art quality has gone down, and that I've lost certain people's inspirations. Well that's the sacrifice of having a baby I suppose, but for me personally the baby is far more rewarding than any art piece I could ever come up with. No offense but art has never brought me such joy that it could carry me out of depression, in fact if anything, engaging in social media using my art has brought me far more anxiety and depression. Since having the baby I've felt more content with my life, and I wouldn't trade her for anything, not even to be the greatest art master in the world. I have always said that others get to enjoy your art more than you do. After looking at a piece for hours and putting in so much effort I often come away feeling exhausted and feeling contempt towards the art piece. That's what happens when you stare at an art piece too long I suppose, you develop a hatred towards it. But everyone else looks at it like it just popped into existence and they feel appreciation towards it. Well I'm glad for you, for me art has always left me feeling empty. That isn't to say I don't enjoy it, I've always loved drawing. But there is a certain point where art isn't the be all end all of life, and I'm far happier now that I have a baby to love and cherish. Suddenly it's like, I created a person who is far deeper and far more lovely than any other work of art or project I could've ever completed in my entire life. And she's like a new realm of wonderful. She's awe-inspiring. She's amazing. She is the greatest reward out of anything I've worked on in life, she's also my greatest nightmare but hey, she's worth it. I would gladly give up all talent for her, her value is worth far more. It means little to people online who will never meet her, never hold her and look into her beautiful eyes. For them it's disappointing that I've traded art quality for a baby. But for me she's my greatest treasure, and I have absolutely no regrets.