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Published: 2014-01-27 00:16:10 +0000 UTC; Views: 925; Favourites: 19; Downloads: 4
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I just got this idea of what if Pinkie wouldn't have moved away from the rock farm and how that would effect her since she's a really social one.Related content
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Aww, i know how she feels. I know how it is to be real lonely :/
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Yeah, it can be quite hard that's true
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Especially for longer periods. Which is very common these days. I know that becouse i've been through it and to say it this way. When you live 1-2 years on lonelyness and depression it get's more difficult to live than to kill yourself. I'm gonna say the same thing a friend of me told me once.
''Humans are afraid of silence, becouse then they get enough time to think, enough time to realize that life really is pointless''
You could think and ask yourself what is there to live for? Why do we have a life? If god exists, why would he give us life ? Β Does he want us to accomplish something ? Β Or does he just love the endless cycle between life and death ?
You do realize that the only purpose of life is to make your own purpose. Make it worth living. But what if, you can't come up with anything to make your life worth living.
These are thoughts that are flying through the mind of a depressed human being. He's/She's depressed, then he/she doesn't want to go outside, be with friends. He/she wants to stay alone and think. And that's when you have enough thinking time to realize that life is just an endless cycle of life and death. And all the happyness and all you've accomplished in life will dissapear. And then it's up to you to decide whether all the work to get through elementary, high school, college, maby even university, was worth it. Even when you know that it will all end one day. And you'll be laying in the ground forever.
I think you can clearly tell i've been depressed ^^
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Yes, I can somewhat relate to that, I've had my own moments of loneliness aswell. I just thought that Pinkie would have ended up like that if she would have stayed back in her home and live the life that others expected of her.
But from my own experience I have to say that being alone, truly alone with just your thoughts, that thing will drive anyone insane, especially by a long run.
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Exactly, and that's why people very often turn on music when they're alone. Even when playing pc-games. Most human beings are uncomfortable in silence. Why, becouse their thoughts scares them
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Very much true, sometimes people find it hard to be able to sleep aswell, as the thoughts fill their mind as they are trying to get some shut eye.
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Yea, i'm one of those peeps. I can't sleep in the silence :/
But as long as it doesn't kill me, i guess i'll be fine. I guess i'm trying to say that it's not so bad that i can't sleep for days.
I do fall asleep after a while.
The thing is that your mind controls a little bit too much some times. I mean when i went through depression (and still are) my mind controlled almost 100% what i was thinking and feeling.
Which then led to change of interests and how i was as a person. I became disciplined to my mind, i became used to letting my mind control everything. It drove me insane. I didn't always like my little pony, or
bloody gory pictures (like my profile pic). Also i wasn't always a quiet shy person. Before i used to be happy and energetic. And trust me, i don't look like one of those emo kids. I don't have black emo hair or i don't
wear all black every day. No, i'm actually blonde, and i wear whatever fits me.
Depression is some very scary shi*. I actually got these weird dreams about me killing myself in front of my class, and even taking students and teachers as hostages. Where i after a while started to randomly execute
them. And then, when the police showed up, i bursted into tears and shot myself. Probably the creepiest dreams i ever had. And i could feel that i became more and more angry after every school day. Untill i actually had to
ask for a couple of days off. I'm still kinda living with this problem today, but it's not as bad as it was for about 1 to a half a year ago.
I guess the moral of this whole shi* is that if you let your mind and fantasy control everything, then you will turn insane. And maby even into some Pinkamena character. Let's hope it doesn't go like that with me :/
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