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I am sorryy for not uploading anything, i'm just so sick and tired of my life and stuff that's going on at the time. I just really hope you, guys, don't think that im just a lazy prick, sitting flat on his ass and doing absoltely nothing. That's not a right thing to think. And im not talking about my studying, everything is great now, i dont spend that much time on it anymore cuz i study at home since New Year. Im talking about my mental health, and that is the thing that was killing me these three weeks of September. It has never been this bad, N E V E R. Btw, if you dont know, with what exactly i have to deal with - i suffer from bipolar disorder and depression for three of more years now. I have panic attacks, almost every night, i cry a lot, and to get me you just have to touch me not the right way. I take meds but it doesn't really help, i think.
Soooo, what does it have to do with my drawing?
Basically, i have no inspiration,and when i try to draw anything, if i fuck up - i literally just start crying and shaking, i hate everything about my art and myself, i just can't. maybe it's just a rough period of my disorder, i hope so, well uuuuh. i just hope i dont kill myself. Sometimes it gets easier, so maybe i'll squeeze something out and upload it. But i cant be sure, sorry, again

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I am sorryy for not uploading anything, i'm just so sick and tired of my life and stuff that's going on at the time. I just really hope you, guys, don't think that im just a lazy prick, sitting flat on his ass and doing absoltely nothing. That's not a right thing to think. And im not talking about my studying, everything is great now, i dont spend that much time on it anymore cuz i study at home since New Year. Im talking about my mental health, and that is the thing that was killing me these three weeks of September. It has never been this bad, N E V E R. Btw, if you dont know, with what exactly i have to deal with - i suffer from bipolar disorder and depression for three of more years now. I have panic attacks, almost every night, i cry a lot, and to get me you just have to touch me not the right way. I take meds but it doesn't really help, i think.
Soooo, what does it have to do with my drawing?
Basically, i have no inspiration,and when i try to draw anything, if i fuck up - i literally just start crying and shaking, i hate everything about my art and myself, i just can't. maybe it's just a rough period of my disorder, i hope so, well uuuuh. i just hope i dont kill myself. Sometimes it gets easier, so maybe i'll squeeze something out and upload it. But i cant be sure, sorry, again