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Published: 2008-09-15 21:25:53 +0000 UTC; Views: 1293; Favourites: 5; Downloads: 14
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Description I can see so many things I want to fix on this. My head is too small and the face not quite right, the hand looks awkward. Ugh! BUT...the point of me posting this sketch of me in a bathing suit is because of the five pounds I gained a few weeks ago and have yet to lose. I avoided wearing my bathing suit all summer. (Why are girls so silly?) So I tried it on. Then I saw it on me and decided I look good! I'm not being superficial or conceited, it just took me a long time to accept that my body is changing, becoming curvier and more womanly, hehe. Did I want to stay a stick figure forever?! No, I guess not. So even though I'm ever so slightly softer than I was, and will probably gain more over the years, I think it is meant to be, and I'm ok with that. I still haven't worn this thing in public, but I might just have to do that before I lose my nerve. You're only young once, right?
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Wetsobem [2008-09-16 05:11:55 +0000 UTC]

Indeed...and what was it about this that initially made you self-conscious? Assuming that this is accurate (head and hands aside), you look phenomenal.

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athousandstoriesshy In reply to Wetsobem [2008-09-16 23:44:33 +0000 UTC]

Thank you! I guess I've just been happy with my athletic build. I don't want to be soft. All my life I've heard my mom make comments about some actress gaining five pounds. "Oh, what a shame!" she would say. So it's been pounded into my brain that it is shameful to gain very little weight. That's almost 18 years of brainwashing I'm working against! I've also always been really good at sports, and my boobs and hips are tough to get used to in that capacity. And now I'm a tiny bit squishier, too! I'm the only one who can really tell, but that 18 years of brainwashing is easier overcome in theory than in reality.

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Wetsobem In reply to athousandstoriesshy [2008-09-17 04:00:54 +0000 UTC]

Understandable; I had the same sort of environment (albeit having a different affect on me than you). It is good, though, that you are comfortable with yourself and understand the many facets of body-composition, which are often overlooked and undervalued. You really should be proud of yourself, though, because I find it hard to believe that many people would find much of anything to object to from any stand-point.

If you understand my meaning, you are somewhat of an oddity in this community: you take the idea that forms the basis of our literary genre from an almost purely analogous standpoint; how it applies psychologically. That isn't a bad thing, quite to the contrary. Normally, you see a very one-sided bias skewed by sexuality that isn't present in what you write. Kudos.

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athousandstoriesshy In reply to Wetsobem [2008-09-19 11:22:27 +0000 UTC]

Wow. You always say such encouraging things. Thank you!

Also, I seem to be an oddity in any community.

I feel the need to say that it is easy to omit flaws in a drawing rather than an untouched photograph. I can't say this drawing is an exact me. It isn't. But it is more than just the essence of me, even if it isn't as perfect as a photograph. (Does that make any sense?)

Again, thank you for the kudos!

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Wetsobem In reply to athousandstoriesshy [2008-09-20 00:07:19 +0000 UTC]

Yes, it makes sense. Honestly, I would prefer to see nothing in artwork but the very best impression of the subject that the artist can render. By that, I do not mean an exact likeness, far from it. I would prefer a better likeness, one which does not show the flaws of the subject but which depicts the perfect abstraction which seeing the real subject stimulates. In a still-life, not a bowl of fruit, but the concept of a bowl of fruit; the perfect bowl of fruit. I would love to see self portraits done in that fashion: not lies, not touch-ups, but ideals--self-esteem in oils.

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pandorapandora [2008-09-15 21:55:31 +0000 UTC]

Hey, that's that bathing suit I never wore and gave to you! Looks fantastic on you.

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athousandstoriesshy In reply to pandorapandora [2008-09-15 21:57:14 +0000 UTC]

Thank you, Barbie. I really like it!

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