HOME | DD
AtomicFishbowl β The End Of All Feelings
by-nc-nd
Published: 2011-08-14 23:03:39 +0000 UTC; Views: 15994; Favourites: 1928; Downloads: 129
Redirect to original
Description
Lulu paints her fur and feathers black.With a personal lack of friends and as a magnet for lust, her depression and hatred for herself drives her to rid herself of her colors.
She can't believe how so many living things can think she's happy. She can't believe how strangers can think she's arrogant when they haven't heard her speak a word. She can't understand how she -- a being without the need to say anything -- can be loved or hated on a whim.
She simply stands out too much and attracts the worst of both worlds... she thinks that maybe if she blended with the shadows she can find solace in the darkness of her soul.
Maybe then she'd learn to love her long ears, beautiful colors and feathery tail. But she never will, she can't love who she is not.
Related content
Comments: 109
That's sad 
π: 0 β©: 0
This just reachs so deep for me, since there are many times when I wish I could curl up and disappear. I have a hard time shoing my true feelings to others, and sometimes I come off distant, uninterested, and even alittle abrassive to be around for long periods of time. I seem to bring people down and they hardly talk around me or to me just as its hard for me to talk to them, and when I do want to talk and reach out, they don't really know what to say to me. I have few people I can really call friends, but they just don't feel as close to me as they should.
Then there are a few people who reach out to me like this one boy I hate to mention, who's just so.. mesmerized with me and wants to be my boyfriend. But I hate him since he's makes no effort and simply seems to not care to get to know me and or understand how I feel or what I've gone through. Makes me feel so angry that one of the few people to notice me and seek me out can't even see the start of who I am.
And other people. I just feel so invisible to everyone else that I feel I hardly matter. I rarely try to make myself stand out, and when I do I feel quickly dismissed. When someone randomly comes up to me wanting to get to know me, make friends, or compliment me on something, I become weary and skeptical, afraid to open u to them very much thinking that its just a passing thing and that they'll have little interest in me. So I rarely try my best, try to make new friends, or join others. Sometimes I feel like I'm in a mist, close but seperate to the real world.
Main difference between me and Lulu is that I really don't want to be...
π: 0 β©: 0
Wow, her background sounds amazingly sad, which totally is ok with me.
I enjoy the small story you've created with this character. Let alone the amazing picture.
π: 0 β©: 0
That's super beautiful. I love both the concept of Lulu and her design.
π: 0 β©: 0
The concept of this reaches out to depressed people, or people with low self-esteem. You did a wonderful job with this, and I can feel Lulu's pain, even if she is not real. The splatters of paint, and Lulu's expression really show how dark she feels deep inside. I love it, you did an amazing job.
π: 0 β©: 0
Sounds like me at one point. I had a severe revelation earlier this year. It's hard to explain, but I had something occur to me that really opened my eyes and gave me the answers to all of those questions in the description, because those were among many I had when I was going through a time of anxiety, depression, fear, anger, and hate. I realized that I all of this darkness and angst and pain I was feeling I was bringing on to myself because I was letting the world drive me to do it. I realized that, if I am who I am, and don't give a rats ass about how others look at me on sight, without knowing me, I am so much happier. Because you can't change who or what you are, and why would you? We are all lucky enough to be able to experience life, considering the pale blue dot we live on. Ruining yourself (painting yourself black 
~Meg
π: 0 β©: 0
This is so beautiful. It almost makes me want to shed a tear.
The emotion is so deep, and drawing. Just excellent, absolutely fantastic. 5/5.
π: 0 β©: 0
If I met someone like her who was always in self-pity mode, I'd start agreeing with them. Hey, Lulu, your colors aren't beautiful! There's no comprehensible reason you're a magnet for lust because you're rather repulsive, as you say.
π: 0 β©: 0
This is like that old folk story about the birds. I think it was a crow? Or a peacock or something.
Anyway, their feathers were painted black.
π: 0 β©: 0
It's a smile marking, from what I can tell from the other drawings of her.
π: 0 β©: 0
All I can say is WOW. Beautiful. This should be a DD.
π: 0 β©: 0
Oh my gosh! i just don't have words for how much I love this!
π: 0 β©: 0
human love is very ephimeral and shallow...
even self-love, loving oneself is pretty hard when looking at oneself...
we see how messed up we are.... our how empty
please do not take an offense at this... i want to share this with you,
because it has been the answer to my life... i know not everyone believes there's a God...
but i know He exists, He's changed me... and given me self-worth and a mission for my life...
it's infinitely different than human love... it's something vastly different and unsearchably deep
i don't care what other people think... i hope you don't either-
please.... if you want you can listen to this: 
π: 0 β©: 0
The picture doesn't convey all the sadness your description does... it was a one-two punch!
π: 0 β©: 0
Depression is f*cking evil. I can't think of anything that embodies evil more perfectly than depression. It twists and perverts anything beautiful into something ugly or, worse, something indifferent. After all, the opposite of love isn't hate, it's indifference. Lulu's tear is almost a glimmer of hope, that maybe she at least feels something, even if it's pain. Anyway, absolutely spectacular, evocative piece. /gush
<-- ignore the idiot, plz
π: 0 β©: 0
This piece is beautiful, and the description really makes me be able to feel her pain.
π: 0 β©: 0
Wow......your description makes this piece even more amazing than it already is......as I look closer I can see she isn't smiling.....Its amazing how so many of us feel like that........ Such an interesting and creative portrayal of emotions... 
π: 0 β©: 0
Love this.
A very good design and an awesome yet sad background story.
Superb job.
π: 0 β©: 0
I love this picture! But it's really sad... I want to go up to Lulu and say "I'll be your friend." But now it would be too late because she's already given in to the darkness in her soul...
π: 0 β©: 0
If she attracts the worst of both worlds, then Dark Arsenal will gladly repel them.
π: 0 β©: 0
"Never, ever do this. Ignore the fools who judge you before they know you. Focus instead on those few true friends. Those few people who are there for you when you need them most. Do you have any people like that? Any people who are there for you no matter what? Do you have any... friends?
No?
Then I will be your friend."
-So says my OC Dark Arsenal to Lulu. He is like darkness posessing a suit of armor, and is very dangerous and very evil looking, but he was human once, and he still cares. Just dont get on his bad side. I will upload his pic once i get the chance.
One of the stories that inspired dark arsenals attitude on friends is one of Abraham Lincoln. When a pardon request (from a criminal, sort of like a petition) was brought to him by his advisor, Lincoln noticed it had no signatures on it. Said lincoln to his advisor, "Has this man no friends?" Said the advisor, "No sir, not one." Lincoln said, "Then I shall be his friend." and pardoned him.
π: 0 β©: 0
It's interesting what a character Lulu is. Unlike most colorful beings Lulu is quite the opposite inside. Her dark fur around her mouth gives the impression she's laughing, but really it's quite the opposite... really good job on this, I love your lulu pictures.
π: 0 β©: 0
So sad for being such a beautiful furry creature
π: 0 β©: 0
Your art is so amazing <3
How do you get all of your brilliant colors?? This was made on the computer, right?
π: 0 β©: 0
*cough* I saw this after I saw the first drawing of your Lulu. I'm awed by the emotion that the image portrays. It shows so much and your story just magnify the already strong effect. But I like how you capture the despair and helplessness in Lulu. I also like the story even though it almost make me cry. Just raw emotion pour off the art. I like it. Love the colours and shading. Good job and keep going, AtomicFishbowl! ^^V
π: 0 β©: 0
It's so sad
Please don't get rid of your colors, Lulu!!
π: 0 β©: 0
uh... I'll just hope she won't cut her ears off, like Van Gogh... O.o
π: 0 β©: 0
Amazing.. and so sad. Great pic and a beautifully told story.. I love it.
π: 0 β©: 0
| Next =>