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Published: 2012-02-19 03:46:27 +0000 UTC; Views: 1007; Favourites: 30; Downloads: 4
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there's been too many memories of being in the dark in this room, and it scares me because last night it really felt like you were coming back. but it was only to distance yourself more did you reel me back in again.it hurts because you have answers i'll never have, and i can never communicate perfectly how i feel.
it hurts because it felt like i needed to see you cry to prove to you your tears are supposed to land in my hands. to me, your tears were the saddest thing in the whole world and it hurt to see the intoxicated you feel the ache of having blood in your body more than the sober one ever has.
it hurts because no matter how many times you make me cry, i still always go back and look for things i could've done differently, and every effort i make to understand you is another chance to succeed in looking even more weak.
it hurts because i'm always naked in front of you, so naked you see me from the inside and see things i can't even see. it hurt to feel your lips kiss the inside of my thighs and it hurts to watch the way you pretend you're not looking at me whenever she's around.
we are two shards of the same broken glass; we fit together perfectly but do nothing except destroy each other.
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I was once, sadly, the boy in this elegantly described situation. It hurt me, too. I wondered who I was lying to or if I was lying to anyone. Maybe I just loved them both. I could do that. I had the heart, the attention span, the foresight. In the end, I did. But they didn't.
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i know exactly what you're talking about. it aches. i used to convince myself i loved two people at one time but the same thing happened with you. it just doesn't seem to work.
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I know exactly how you feel. i never turn it into something so beautifully written. i only wrote simple poems about how im torn. but this...i cant believe how well it describes the pain. though my deadening experience is finally over, yours is still stretching on, i hope you find relief soon.
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you took my exact thoughts out of my mind. it's so weird/scarry how much this is the same for me.
so i know the way you feel, at least your capable of expressing it, i can't even do that. i feel so fucking stuck like time stopped and i'm just drowning in quicksand at the most slowest rate.
(idk if that even made sense but yea)
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it makes sense. expressing yourself is a skill that takes practice and developing just like anything else in life. i'm sorry we've had simmilar experiences, but at least you can find comfort in the fact that you are not alone.
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I could feel every word you wrote as I read this. It's funny how you feel so alone when this is happening to you, and yet someone else can write the words you wish you knew to describe it... you have written what I wish I could... this is truly beautifully heartbreaking. I hope that things get better for you my dear, you are an amazing writer, and I'm sure an amazing person. I wish you all the luck in the world.
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that is truly one of the most beautiful things about writing, i find. it's not only an expression of self, but it allows other to seep into my emotions and relate when it's relevant to their lives. thank you for your kindness.
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thank you, lovely <33
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"we are two shards of the same broken glass, and we fit together perfectly but do nothing except destroy each other."
i love your words. beautiful. really.
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You might need an 's' on the end of 'care' in the third stanza. I got a little hung up on that as far as flow goes.
Other than that, whoa. What a piece.
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love that line from the tracey fragments.
things will turn out okay somehow.. whether in the end, you have him or you don't.
i know it
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holy hell, this is beautiful.
i think i teared up a little, and i wish i knew you better so i could make
you feel better somehow.
[if steph loves you, i must love you too
i hope you're okay, lovely.
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knowing there are people like you on this planet makes me more hopeful about all the shit that goes on in this world. thank you for your kindness. <3
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fellow writer.
i have to help those who i know understand me
the best
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oh michele. i hate that this is sad and it's happening to you (since you're one of the most wonderful people i know). but maybe as long as we can make awful things into beautiful words, the world will be kind of okay. maybe.
<3
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you're so lovelyyy. i hope so. i really really do. <3
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me too. you'll be okay no matter what -- you're strong like that. something great is meant for you.
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