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It happened again. I relapsed. Being around you, it's a "vicious circle". I can't get away from it. I've missed you. I've missed spending time with you, whether it is intimate or just friend time. I can be myself around you. I hate that it is so natural, yet I can't indulge in it. It's a rare occasion, yesterday, yet I want it for my own.

I did hesitate for the longest time. I mulled it over in my head as you watched me with those glittering eyes. You watched me, trying to read my mind through my eyes, my facial expression. I relapsed, seeing your jeweled eyes, your hand covering a smirk. I shake my head ever so slightly up and down with a half smile on my lips and butterflies in my stomach. I opened my door and climbed into yours. I was immediately enrobed in your embrace, lied in your lap, passionate kisses filled the air. I viewed you from another angle. Your beautiful pointed nose, your soft lips, your effeminate eye lashes all angelic. You stared at me pleading with your eyes, burning into me, teasing me. I give in to you. It started raining, oh what a magnificent time it was, hidden in plain view, warm and safe in the back seat.

But I can't wait to get away from here, from you so I don't get pulled back into something I can't have, yet yearn for so badly. I don't want to be in this hideous garb of red any longer.

Yet, I've come to the conclusion that you are my first love. I want most of your characteristics, mentality, artistic ability, loving nature, physical appetite, as well as so may other things in my future spouse. I've learned from you, I look up to you, and I don't look at you as young, unless we are being reckless young kids with each other.

This is for you, for me, for us.

Description
It happened again. I relapsed. Being around you, it's a "vicious circle". I can't get away from it. I've missed you. I've missed spending time with you, whether it is intimate or just friend time. I can be myself around you. I hate that it is so natural, yet I can't indulge in it. It's a rare occasion, yesterday, yet I want it for my own.

I did hesitate for the longest time. I mulled it over in my head as you watched me with those glittering eyes. You watched me, trying to read my mind through my eyes, my facial expression. I relapsed, seeing your jeweled eyes, your hand covering a smirk. I shake my head ever so slightly up and down with a half smile on my lips and butterflies in my stomach. I opened my door and climbed into yours. I was immediately enrobed in your embrace, lied in your lap, passionate kisses filled the air. I viewed you from another angle. Your beautiful pointed nose, your soft lips, your effeminate eye lashes all angelic. You stared at me pleading with your eyes, burning into me, teasing me. I give in to you. It started raining, oh what a magnificent time it was, hidden in plain view, warm and safe in the back seat.

But I can't wait to get away from here, from you so I don't get pulled back into something I can't have, yet yearn for so badly. I don't want to be in this hideous garb of red any longer.

Yet, I've come to the conclusion that you are my first love. I want most of your characteristics, mentality, artistic ability, loving nature, physical appetite, as well as so may other things in my future spouse. I've learned from you, I look up to you, and I don't look at you as young, unless we are being reckless young kids with each other.

This is for you, for me, for us.