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Birdtalon — Poet in distress [NSFW]
Published: 2011-09-16 21:20:37 +0000 UTC; Views: 181; Favourites: 7; Downloads: 1
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Description He wanted her more then anything in the world
She captivated him
And ever since seeing her he's never been the same
His love grew like a cancer
And he had no answer to this sudden spark
He truly loved her, like nothing else
He wanted to be able to call her his, to share everything he had with her
His one desire was to acquire her entire heart
And never let it go
But when he professed his love for her
Their friendship crumbled
The columns collapsing and the walls caving in
Burying him alive
Attempting to dig himself out, he communicated his feelings in the best way he knew
The poetic beauty of his writing was only trumped by her complexion
Soft and light, kind and gentle
But his sentimental thoughts withered as her tolerance with him vanished
She wanted nothing to do with this desperate soul

After their sudden separation
Prolonged with no explanation
The only thing he wanted her to read was his life's work
His only passion other then her
The pages he engraved saved him from countless nights of loneliness
She was his focal inspiration
Whether she knew it or not
These characters he crated from seemingly nothing
Were born of them both
Playing out his fantasy of fictional romance
Where the two of them entwine in a love like no other
Without the binds of reality
Rules and laws played no part
It was as vast and limitless as the dreams they shared
Through fields of emerald grass
And sapphire seashore walks
Under the spotlight of the moon
Soon to be eclipsed by the silhouette of the two lovers
Examining every inch of each others body
She was his undeniable lover
And under the cover of darkness, they would kiss

His folly was his absolute obsession with her
This progression of irrational thought drove him further in love with her
When she would never return the favor, he gave up on her
Alone without the one person that gave him purpose
He was meaningless
His one wish had blown up in his face
Afraid of the repercussions, he devised a new method of copping
Through crying, cutting
Bleeding and writing
He was feeding the beast underneath his thin skin
And when his cannibal consumption could no longer sustain his unbearable pain
He would refrain from writing all together
His hopes of keeping her alive on the page was fading
He couldn't be with her in reality
And now his fictional world was in complete chaos
The relapse was wrecking his body
His mind was melting onto the paper
Raw emotion was scattered in a senseless form of forever sadness
Staining the book, it was a permanent scar on his only memories of her

Throwing a chair across the room released a mild portion of his built up anger
"God damn it!"
Pencils slice the air, and puncture the wall
"I have nothing left! She is gone, my creativity is gone, and I have nothing!"
His arm sweeps across the table like a tidal wave
Destruction is instantaneous
"I love her! I've tried everything to get over her! It's impossible"
He sinks to his knees and buries his face in his hands
"I've fallen so far! I don't even know how or why! Where are you when I need you?"
He instinctively grabs the nearest weapon
The loaded gun on the floor, now in his hands
To his head, he cries out bloody murder
"Why have you forsaken me?! I fucking loved you! And then you hate me for it!"
He cocks the hammer
"There is nothing left for me! Existing every day! Having to see your beautiful body!"
"Having to deal with you, smiling, while I'm fucking dying inside!"
"I've lost count of the nights I spent crying myself to sleep!"
"I weep over you, and you act like I'm nothing! Well, I wish I was!"
And then he went out as suddenly as his love flourished
The mind that bled his poetry was cut
His suicide note scattered over the floor
The recollections of a severely distraught poet
Hundreds of pages of literature
All about her
Never to be written of again
It was over
The characters died along with him
The sea of sapphire dried up
And the emerald green fields were scorched with ruby red flames
His story had sought its ending
And his life along with it
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Comments: 7

SomethinGrimm [2011-09-18 14:01:43 +0000 UTC]

oh wow this is amazing. quite beautiful. i liked it a lot.

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Birdtalon In reply to SomethinGrimm [2011-09-18 14:02:10 +0000 UTC]

thank you

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SomethinGrimm In reply to Birdtalon [2011-09-18 14:40:00 +0000 UTC]

anytime

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AJthe90skid [2011-09-17 06:04:06 +0000 UTC]

Intense! nothing like i expected it to be. and NOT cheezy, like most of the stuff the bleeding hearts write - this one was realistic!

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Birdtalon In reply to AJthe90skid [2011-09-17 16:24:13 +0000 UTC]

well thanks a ton! i would HATE to write cheezy poetry xD

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vanzan3000z [2011-09-16 21:38:06 +0000 UTC]

This is powerful and beautiful. I've felt this feeling that you're resenting rather often. I'm like this to and applaud you for beng able to express your desire for death in writing. I do the same thing and I've never read anything closer to how I feel. well done.

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Birdtalon In reply to vanzan3000z [2011-09-16 22:54:44 +0000 UTC]

im glad we can connect...feel better, it gets better...eventually...

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