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Published: 2005-06-15 20:47:21 +0000 UTC; Views: 15196; Favourites: 302; Downloads: 10
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Dear self harm,I am writing to thank you for your help over the past few years. You have helped me through a lot of my problems throughout my life. But I'm not sure if I can go on seeing you.
We met that one night a few years back in my bedroom. It was surprising how we just clicked like that. We're perfect for eachother. Whenever I was angry, you could always calm me down. Whenever I was upset, you'd replace my tears. Whenever I needed you, you were always there. You are my best friend. You are my hero. You are my saviour.
But then our relationship started going badly. I began to start using you. I insisted on you being there even when I didn't need you. I made you come here late at night when I was alone in my room. When I realised you could be there, I abused you and your friendship. I made you do things to me that you didn't want to do to make me feel better about myself. But now I want that to end, as do you.
So this is my last letter to you. I don't think I will ever be able to leave you forever. I don't think that I can erase you from my life. You will always be a huge part of me and something that I will never eradicate from my life. I will call upon you when I sincerely need you. Rather than when I want you just to be there.
So goodbye. Goodbye to the control you give me, goodbye to the shame that you have given me. But thankyou for being there when I needed you. And thankyou for keeping me alive at my most different times.
Yours Sincerely
Andie Jonothan Davies
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Beautiful. Made me tear up. Stay strong, but it's okay to break down ever once in a while, just dont go back to your ex named Cutting. He'll destroy you.
Life can suck sometimes and break you to the point where it feels like the air that you breathe is raping your lungs.
But, oh darling, life is so much more than your scars. This life is so much more beautiful than guilt and pain from the remembrance of red lines in your skin.
When the sun shines on them, the lines turn into battles scars and the stars in the heavens lean down in amazement that so much pain could transform into something so tremendously beautiful.
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Wow. So beautiful. This helps alot. Thank you.
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wow this is a really great poem!!! I thought how u used the words like friendship and relationship was a really good idea! it made me cry tho but it was still awesomeπ
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Is that Rick and the governor..? looks like it...(Carl:] DAAAD, HIT EM' IN THE SHIN!!!!!!!!!!
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This literally gave me chills. It's like you took the words from my mouth.. thank you
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good poem, but I dont really understand the abusing-the-friendship-part... The rest is clear to me, and I think I can relate to you very welll... So could you please explain this part to me?
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It's meant to be a reference to the aspect of cutting where you end up doing it because of the routine of cutting, rather than the emotional aspects. And therefore, abusing the friendship with cutting because you're doing it because you want to, not because you need to. This poem was written almost 10 years ago, and occasionally I'll still have the urge to cut, despite being content with life right now.
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10 years ago? And you're still struggling? Damn.. I thought it would be over someday.. but it will never be.. is it?
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Truly amazing and wonderful. I'm actually on the way to recovery myself. I'm tired of people asking" Why do you wear sweatshirts every day?" I'm tired of feeling ashamed. I'm tired of being depressed. It's time to say good bye to my once dear best friend self harm. :')
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Yeah wear sweatshirt all the te even when my cuts are healed up, I still want to wear a hoodie. Wearing black and long sleeves that go past my wrists and covers my fingers is my comfort zone. It's weird, but I prefer it even if it's 100 degrees out.
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I know this is old but, I'm happy your staying strong, I'm not there yet. But maybe one day.
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Im definitely better now. I graduated from high school last year and being done with the stress of school instantly helped changed my mood. Stay strong
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Yeah I dropped out of 9th grade and I'm in 11th grade, 16 now so I can do my GED and get that over with. Yeah thanks I'm tryingππΎπΊ
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Wow... you have basically summed up what I feel exactly, thank you.
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Well, there's not much to had, you right so well about it
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Keep smiling. xo
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Yeah 
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If you're going through something, inbox me. I'll be there.
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Thanks a lot. Keep smiling! 
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Thanks, I try to, usually fail tho.
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Thanks. Stay happy!
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omg love this, how i feel right now and have felt....very beautiful
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Thanks a lot. Stay smiling! :3 x
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I try every day and thank you
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I love it 
And if it's true I hope you really mean the last part
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I've been free of self harm for several years now. The occasional slip-up occurs but I'm much better now. Stay happy. xo
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If anyone here needs to talk to someone, message me - I'll respond, I promise. I've been there, I'll understand, and sometimes having someone to talk to makes all the difference in the world.
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If your going through this message me. I'm here for you Hun. I'm kinda going threw the same.
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Amazing. I can relate, and I wish to say goodbye, but it sneaks up on me sometimes
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Thanks. Keep smiling. xo
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Wow, amazing, you capture every little detail and emotion and you finish it so perfectly. I think its the voice of us all reading.
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That's really powerful, I can relate to it. hope one day I'll be able to say goodbye to self harm... <3
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I feel ashamed with my relationship with self harm. What you've written is beautiful and I'm sure many people can relate to it.
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dear Jonothan,
when will i find someone who will love me as much as i love you?
whou in this lonley worled is beutiful but you?
i could never let you go
but when you pull away and shut me out
it herts me more than you will ever know
but i will stand and sing you cumfert songs
i will be wating all my years long
becouse i asked god for simple remedey
to show me who he pland for me
and you are my onley one
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