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This was so hard to make, I struggled so much to make this. This took me almost 2 months to finish because I'm still in agony from the loss of my fur baby. Her name was Bear, I've had her since I was 3 years old, and I'm 20 now, almost 21. Bear was 18 years old when she passed. I came home from work one day, i had to work the morning shift, and I went to go give her water from a syringe, she hadn't been acting right about a week before. I had a feeling it was her time, but couldn't get myself to accept she was on her death bed. I went into my room, where she wanted to be past few days, and I found her, laying on her side, next to my bed. She wasn't moving, wasn't breathing, didn't make a sound when i touched her, I felt her body it was all stiff, that's when I knew; While I was at work, she passed. She wanted to be by me in her last days she had left, she knew her time was up and wanted to spend as much time with her momma(me) as much as she could with what time she had left. I gave her the extra love and attention in her last days. Needless to say, I was not expecting to come home and start balling my eyes out right away. My family had been home that day, they went to check on her, I ran into the kitchen, away from everyone to cry. My mom had told me that she wanted to be by me, she choose me, no matter how much of a bitch she was, how she always growled and hissed at everyone, she choose me. As if it hurt enough to see Lily go, now her sister too. We got a new cat, his name is Ace, while i still love him like Bear and Lily, I just cant seem to look at him the same way I did with Bear and Lily. I feel like I'm replacing them, I know I'm not, but it still feels like it. Ever since then, Ive been in constant agony, I cant handle the amount of people I loved and lost this year, I've lost more that 5 of my loved ones this year, and I cant handle it.

Three Days Grace ~ LifeTime

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This was so hard to make, I struggled so much to make this. This took me almost 2 months to finish because I'm still in agony from the loss of my fur baby. Her name was Bear, I've had her since I was 3 years old, and I'm 20 now, almost 21. Bear was 18 years old when she passed. I came home from work one day, i had to work the morning shift, and I went to go give her water from a syringe, she hadn't been acting right about a week before. I had a feeling it was her time, but couldn't get myself to accept she was on her death bed. I went into my room, where she wanted to be past few days, and I found her, laying on her side, next to my bed. She wasn't moving, wasn't breathing, didn't make a sound when i touched her, I felt her body it was all stiff, that's when I knew; While I was at work, she passed. She wanted to be by me in her last days she had left, she knew her time was up and wanted to spend as much time with her momma(me) as much as she could with what time she had left. I gave her the extra love and attention in her last days. Needless to say, I was not expecting to come home and start balling my eyes out right away. My family had been home that day, they went to check on her, I ran into the kitchen, away from everyone to cry. My mom had told me that she wanted to be by me, she choose me, no matter how much of a bitch she was, how she always growled and hissed at everyone, she choose me. As if it hurt enough to see Lily go, now her sister too. We got a new cat, his name is Ace, while i still love him like Bear and Lily, I just cant seem to look at him the same way I did with Bear and Lily. I feel like I'm replacing them, I know I'm not, but it still feels like it. Ever since then, Ive been in constant agony, I cant handle the amount of people I loved and lost this year, I've lost more that 5 of my loved ones this year, and I cant handle it.

Three Days Grace ~ LifeTime

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Sarin(httyd oc)(C) Me
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