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Published: 2012-01-14 00:07:28 +0000 UTC; Views: 865; Favourites: 32; Downloads: 6
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Description I don't own the background, I found it off the internet.
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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to ??? [2012-02-27 00:54:26 +0000 UTC]

I was bullied a lot in my elementary years. Then all of a sudden I got pretty. Lol

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XxBrokenFeathersxX In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-02-27 01:40:56 +0000 UTC]

Wow. How old are you?

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to XxBrokenFeathersxX [2012-02-27 21:24:09 +0000 UTC]

18. A senior in highschool

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XxBrokenFeathersxX In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-02-28 01:33:11 +0000 UTC]

Wow. Why do I have the tendency to talk to people that are so much older than me...? Whatever, I have more fun talking to people that are older than my age, they're more mature and less irritating... Anyways, how are you?

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to XxBrokenFeathersxX [2012-03-02 05:27:15 +0000 UTC]

i've been doing pretty good lately. A person I reccomend talking to is she's young but talks like she's 30. A very smart and wise girl. Not to mention the fact that she has really good poetry.

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XxBrokenFeathersxX In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-03-10 00:14:12 +0000 UTC]

Cool, I love your profile pic, just payed attention to it, hehehe

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to XxBrokenFeathersxX [2012-03-10 06:25:30 +0000 UTC]

thanks! It's one of my senior photos.

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XxBrokenFeathersxX In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-03-10 23:23:09 +0000 UTC]

you're welcome

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o0SHeeP0o [2012-01-21 10:37:39 +0000 UTC]

well what people think is only what they see, no one here can read minds

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to o0SHeeP0o [2012-01-21 17:17:43 +0000 UTC]

true that

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o0SHeeP0o In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-22 01:43:12 +0000 UTC]

though i have to say, when you look deeper into someone, humble yourself, because there might be more, but to know someone, it takes a lifetime. and you, currently know yourself best

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Adonael [2012-01-15 14:37:44 +0000 UTC]

Strong words and the acrostic tied it together quite nicely.

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to Adonael [2012-01-15 16:21:51 +0000 UTC]

Thank u

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Adonael In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-17 19:05:45 +0000 UTC]

No worries

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Marija343 [2012-01-14 20:43:28 +0000 UTC]

Scary how much I can relate

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to Marija343 [2012-01-14 20:45:34 +0000 UTC]

Yeah

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princessluvv [2012-01-14 19:58:47 +0000 UTC]

like how emotional the picture is

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to princessluvv [2012-01-14 20:07:48 +0000 UTC]

Thanks

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princessluvv In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 21:03:33 +0000 UTC]

welcome^^

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MyLifeThroughTheLens [2012-01-14 08:05:25 +0000 UTC]

Link to the original artist [link]

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to MyLifeThroughTheLens [2012-01-14 08:07:17 +0000 UTC]

wow... I only used it for a background but the original artist is VERY much talented!

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MyLifeThroughTheLens In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 08:23:20 +0000 UTC]

Yep he is one of my favorites here in dA..but either way good work.

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to MyLifeThroughTheLens [2012-01-14 08:25:15 +0000 UTC]

thank chuu soo much! Check out my other artwork if you would like!

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ThreeTeabags [2012-01-14 07:20:54 +0000 UTC]

easy to connect to, well written. good job

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ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn [2012-01-14 02:08:57 +0000 UTC]

its really tragic :'O that everyone tries to be excepted yet most of us don't except each other

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn [2012-01-14 02:09:42 +0000 UTC]

tormenting others is a way of people to make themselves feel better than others.

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ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 02:15:07 +0000 UTC]

yeah i get made fun of by what i wear all the time but i joke about it so it really doesn't bother me much one person called me a scary goth chick but eh better them scared of me i guess

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn [2012-01-14 02:17:38 +0000 UTC]

well I never get bullied about my looks... I mean, I'm not an ugly girl. Look at my ID. I'm a cheerleader and pretty popular. Everyone thinks my life's so perfect, but it's actually the exact opposite. My school life and home life are complete opposites. I suffer from BPD, deppression, and post traumatic stress disorder.

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ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 02:34:35 +0000 UTC]

i guess people miss judge i act like i am ok when i am not and not even my best friend can see threw it or my family i told my mom and she felt the same way when she was my age i never would have guessed

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn [2012-01-14 03:07:09 +0000 UTC]

me and my mom don't get a long. She's an alcoholic and abusive so I moved in with my aunt and uncle.

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ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 03:23:09 +0000 UTC]

i am sorry but i can relate in a way my mom takes pills for her breast cancer and it makes her moody so she snaps at me a lot it some times scared me because it seemed like she wanted to hurt me i told her that i felt that way and at one point she wanted me to go to my grandmothers her doctor might give her some pills to help with the mood swings me and my mom use to be really close but not as much any more me and my parents mostly argue now

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn [2012-01-14 03:24:15 +0000 UTC]

I was very close to my dad, but he's been in jail for almost 11 years so it's really hard. I'm a very lost person.

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ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 03:33:39 +0000 UTC]

were all a little lost and its very hard to lose the person you love most I lost my rabbit patches she was the best thing that ever happened to me i know kind of different but still the same i cried for weeks over her but i never would have met zero (my other rabbit) and my cousin we use to be really close when we were little and were always there for each other but we rarely hang out or talk anymore :/

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn [2012-01-14 03:44:54 +0000 UTC]

I don't have anyone who understands what I've been through or what I'm going through. My father was a gang member and was convicted of attempted murder.

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ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 03:48:36 +0000 UTC]

it must be really hard on you i could only imagine how you feel i really wish i could help :/

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn [2012-01-14 03:50:58 +0000 UTC]

that's what everyone says... they repeat the same thing over and over again.

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ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 04:02:01 +0000 UTC]

i mean what i said i remember how i felt so alone because i kept all my feelings to myself and that everyone would think i am crazy for thinking about just taking my life because i felt like it would be so much better than dealing with bullshit i would literately cry myself to sleep thinking i was useless and that i could never live up to anyone's expectations i still feel like that sometimes but i want to help people like me and get to know them better so that way they don't have to feel so alone anymore

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn [2012-01-14 04:03:40 +0000 UTC]

oh... I've forgotten how to smile, every time I try I feel like I'll start crying. The pressure of it all is destroying me and I don't want to go on anymore. I'm tired of these bruises and meds that only make me numb

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ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 04:13:50 +0000 UTC]

i plaster a fake smile on my face but deep down i feel like breaking i wish i could go back to when i was little when i didn't know how cruel and unfair the world was i sometimes feel like running away to a place where it seemed like time stopped and everything was perfect but no such place exist not even in my dreams

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn [2012-01-14 04:18:35 +0000 UTC]

yes, pieces of me are drifting in the wind. How is your life going as of now?

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ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 04:33:47 +0000 UTC]

its a little better i try my hardest to keep a smile on my face and try to be a little happy or at least fake being happy i am never really happy at school i only go to see my friends other than that i wish i could just drop out of school and stay locked up in my room despite me feeling this way i love making other people laugh even if my jokes are bad i figure if i cant be happy than i can at least put a smile on someones face i love creating new things it helps me keep my mind off of life i like getting to know people like me hopefully getting them to feel like at least one person understands all though life as more bad days than good i made it this far and you?

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn [2012-01-14 04:37:34 +0000 UTC]

I'm going through a lot right now. My boyfriend, whom I though I loved is apparently abusive. We got into a petty fight and he slapped me across the cheek. He yanked my arm and wouldn't let go when I tried to walk away before the situation got any worse, and yesterday he grabbed a fistful of my hair because he found out I was talking to my ex. People say it's so easy, "just walk out" but it's not as simple as that.

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ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 04:53:29 +0000 UTC]

i never had a boyfriend i am waiting for that someone that just completes me besides i just want to make it threw school first yeah its not that simple i understand that even though i haven't been in a relationship the ones that you thought loved you hurting you my moms slapped me cross the face before pulled on my hair and grabbed my neck (not hard but still)like she wanted to squeeze the life out of me all though it was just from the pills she takes it still scared me to death I all so got to live a horror movie on thanksgiving because my aunts friend that actually loves her drank to much and went crazy and there was blood and everything (no one got hurt though so i am happy for that the guy just got a broken nose and he hurt his hand from punching the car so pretty scary)

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn [2012-01-14 04:56:11 +0000 UTC]

abuse sucks. One time I ran away and stayed at my friends house for three days and when I came back my mom slammed me against the wall and put her hand around my neck and started screaming in my face. Then she threw me against the ground and walked away. So yeah, I understand.

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ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 05:07:50 +0000 UTC]

i know my mom doesn't mean to act like that and its just the pills but it still kills me inside to see her that angry and looks like she wants to just kill me on the spot

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn [2012-01-14 05:09:50 +0000 UTC]

it must be very scary for you. I'm not going to say I'm sorry because honestly, I don't take pity on others and "i'm sorry" is such a meaningless pity phrase. I can only hope you'll pull through and I won't say "you'll pull through" because I don't know for sure and I'm a painfully honest person.

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ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 05:18:40 +0000 UTC]

thanks i hope the same for you as well we all have to stick together i guess all of us that feel like there isn't any reason to live anymore but if we stick together perhaps then that gives us a reason for living

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn [2012-01-14 05:30:45 +0000 UTC]

yeah, because we understand each other we can help each other. Watch me? I'll watch chuu.

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ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn In reply to blueiceNINJA4 [2012-01-14 05:33:41 +0000 UTC]

sure and you can always talk to me i don't mind

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blueiceNINJA4 In reply to ToRmEnTtHeFaLlEn [2012-01-14 05:44:15 +0000 UTC]

I'll keep that in mind.

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