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Darkness.
Overwhelming.
All consuming.
Its all I know.
All I ever have known.
And all that I ever will know.
There are brief flickers of light amidst the ocean of darkness.
But they are just that.
Brief.
As soon as I get used to the light they go out.
Plunging me once more into the darkness.
I go along the path blindly, not knowing where it is leading me.
Or if I will fall off.
In the darkness everything is lost.
Hope.
Trust.
Happiness.
All is lost except for sadness and insanity. Longing and pain.
Longing for something besides darkness.
Longing for light.
For the lost things.
As I go along there is another light.
In the distance.
Will it go out like the others?
Or will it stay?
I follow the light.
As I get closer I see a figure.
This is the thing I was longing.
I greet Death with happiness.
Yet he turns from me.
"People need you here." he says.
"But why? Why do they have to need me? Why do they have to care?" I ask furiously.
"How can they? After all I've done. All the things that have been done to me."
He shrugs and grins. "Who knows?" he replies as he walks away.
As I go on my body becomes heavier.
I'm chained to this darkness.
Chained by people's need.
Chained by my own caring for them.
If I could just let go of everything I care about.
Get them to let go of me.
I could meet Death again.
And come with him.
Yet here I am.
Still in the darkness.
I will always be here.
Stuck.
Chained.
A slave to the darkness.
Never to get what I want.
Will Death and I ever meet again?
I know not.
So until we do.
If we do.
I shall wander.
Endlessly.
Never stopping on my path.
Hoping to find a way to rid myself of the chains.
To escape from this jail.
This slavery.
Who knows?
I might never find my way out of this.
This darkness.
As I go I find others.
Other slaves to the darkness.
Some escape.
By pills.
Guns.
Knives.
Drowning.
Falling.
Hanging by a rope.
Cars.
Toxic fumes.
Chemicals.
They escape.
Leaving me behind.
Will I someday leave others behind?
No.
That's my curse.
My choice.
Due to caring and cowardess.
I will be an eternal slave.
Suffering under my master.
Darkness.

Description
Darkness.
Overwhelming.
All consuming.
Its all I know.
All I ever have known.
And all that I ever will know.
There are brief flickers of light amidst the ocean of darkness.
But they are just that.
Brief.
As soon as I get used to the light they go out.
Plunging me once more into the darkness.
I go along the path blindly, not knowing where it is leading me.
Or if I will fall off.
In the darkness everything is lost.
Hope.
Trust.
Happiness.
All is lost except for sadness and insanity. Longing and pain.
Longing for something besides darkness.
Longing for light.
For the lost things.
As I go along there is another light.
In the distance.
Will it go out like the others?
Or will it stay?
I follow the light.
As I get closer I see a figure.
This is the thing I was longing.
I greet Death with happiness.
Yet he turns from me.
"People need you here." he says.
"But why? Why do they have to need me? Why do they have to care?" I ask furiously.
"How can they? After all I've done. All the things that have been done to me."
He shrugs and grins. "Who knows?" he replies as he walks away.
As I go on my body becomes heavier.
I'm chained to this darkness.
Chained by people's need.
Chained by my own caring for them.
If I could just let go of everything I care about.
Get them to let go of me.
I could meet Death again.
And come with him.
Yet here I am.
Still in the darkness.
I will always be here.
Stuck.
Chained.
A slave to the darkness.
Never to get what I want.
Will Death and I ever meet again?
I know not.
So until we do.
If we do.
I shall wander.
Endlessly.
Never stopping on my path.
Hoping to find a way to rid myself of the chains.
To escape from this jail.
This slavery.
Who knows?
I might never find my way out of this.
This darkness.
As I go I find others.
Other slaves to the darkness.
Some escape.
By pills.
Guns.
Knives.
Drowning.
Falling.
Hanging by a rope.
Cars.
Toxic fumes.
Chemicals.
They escape.
Leaving me behind.
Will I someday leave others behind?
No.
That's my curse.
My choice.
Due to caring and cowardess.
I will be an eternal slave.
Suffering under my master.
Darkness.