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Scene from EC's novel "The Outsider" - www.asstr.org/~caligula97030/o…

Ruthie’s mind normally housed a muddle of thoughts at any moment, but she was unusually focused when she left the student center. She realized that she needed help. The thought of committing suicide did not bother her, because she had toyed with the idea for several years. However, the thought of doing something that would send her to jail did scare her. She wouldn’t mind dying in the least, but the idea of sitting in jail and having a criminal record was enough motivation for her to take action.

Fortunately the university counseling center was not crowded. She was handed a form in which she had to provide her personal information, followed by a long list of questions, including:

Do you feel you have trouble expressing your feelings? – yes
Do you feel that no one understands you? – yes
Do you feel that other people treat you unfairly? – yes
Do you have problems getting along with your family? – yes
Do you have problems getting along with co-workers and/or classmates? – yes
Do you have any friends on campus? – no
How often do you go out with other people just for fun? – never
Do you have a roommate? – yes
Please rate your relationship with your roommate from one (lowest) to ten (highest) – one
Please explain – she’s a total bitch and treats me like shit
Are your parents divorced? – yes
Do you have regular contact with both parents? – no
Please think of one word to describe your life before you entered college – sucked
Please think of one word to describe your life now – sucks
Do you worry about your financial situation? – yes
Do you have trouble concentrating in class? – yes
Do you have trouble sleeping? – yes
Do you feel lonely? – yes
Some of the time, most of the time, or all of the time? – All of the time.
Do you feel hopeless at times? – yes
Some of the time, most of the time, or all of the time? – Most of the time.
Do you feel depressed? – yes
Some of the time, most of the time, or all of the time? – Most of the time.
Please rate your happiness from one (lowest) to ten (highest) – one
Have you ever thought about hurting yourself? – yes
Have you ever thought about hurting others? – yes
Have you ever considered suicide? – yes
If you have considered suicide, do you have a specific plan? – yes

Fifteen minutes after she turned in the form, the receptionist asked her if she could come to an appointment at 3:00 that afternoon. No problem. She had nothing else going on at that time of the day, so…sure…she could make it.

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Shortly before 3:00 Ruthie returned to the counseling center. By that time she was starting to have doubts about actually going to her appointment, but she could not work up the nerve to cancel.

Description
Scene from EC's novel "The Outsider" - www.asstr.org/~caligula97030/o…

Ruthie’s mind normally housed a muddle of thoughts at any moment, but she was unusually focused when she left the student center. She realized that she needed help. The thought of committing suicide did not bother her, because she had toyed with the idea for several years. However, the thought of doing something that would send her to jail did scare her. She wouldn’t mind dying in the least, but the idea of sitting in jail and having a criminal record was enough motivation for her to take action.

Fortunately the university counseling center was not crowded. She was handed a form in which she had to provide her personal information, followed by a long list of questions, including:

Do you feel you have trouble expressing your feelings? – yes
Do you feel that no one understands you? – yes
Do you feel that other people treat you unfairly? – yes
Do you have problems getting along with your family? – yes
Do you have problems getting along with co-workers and/or classmates? – yes
Do you have any friends on campus? – no
How often do you go out with other people just for fun? – never
Do you have a roommate? – yes
Please rate your relationship with your roommate from one (lowest) to ten (highest) – one
Please explain – she’s a total bitch and treats me like shit
Are your parents divorced? – yes
Do you have regular contact with both parents? – no
Please think of one word to describe your life before you entered college – sucked
Please think of one word to describe your life now – sucks
Do you worry about your financial situation? – yes
Do you have trouble concentrating in class? – yes
Do you have trouble sleeping? – yes
Do you feel lonely? – yes
Some of the time, most of the time, or all of the time? – All of the time.
Do you feel hopeless at times? – yes
Some of the time, most of the time, or all of the time? – Most of the time.
Do you feel depressed? – yes
Some of the time, most of the time, or all of the time? – Most of the time.
Please rate your happiness from one (lowest) to ten (highest) – one
Have you ever thought about hurting yourself? – yes
Have you ever thought about hurting others? – yes
Have you ever considered suicide? – yes
If you have considered suicide, do you have a specific plan? – yes

Fifteen minutes after she turned in the form, the receptionist asked her if she could come to an appointment at 3:00 that afternoon. No problem. She had nothing else going on at that time of the day, so…sure…she could make it.

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Shortly before 3:00 Ruthie returned to the counseling center. By that time she was starting to have doubts about actually going to her appointment, but she could not work up the nerve to cancel.