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Taiko being dejected after a failed mission.

Like most of the problems in her life, her inability to cope with failure stems from her desire to be loved and to be considered worth keeping around. But since she equals affection with usefulness, she grew to actually fear failure of any kind to a dispropotional amount, even for a member of the Mafia where failure can actually be punished by death. This already held true when she was still living in the orphanage, but was made so much worse as she got older. In the street gang her physical wellbeing depended on being useful and delivering results, moreso than it ever did in the orphanage, and after that Enchi kept exploiting and manipulating Taiko's desires and fears for years to make her loyal, making them even worse in the process.
In short, instead of learning to deal with failure over the years the exact opposite happened, leading to her overworking herself on a rather frequent basis and withdrawing completely to sit in morose silence for a few hours until she manages to get a grip on herself and her emotions again, when it does happen. Because despite everything she does realize that her fears aren't completely rational and that she is too useful for the Mafia to discard over a single mistake, but it's hard to Keep that small fact in mind after nearly fours years of Enchi playing into Taiko's worst fears on a nearly daily basis.

Taiko by carnivorousGekkou
Base from Atsushi

Description
Taiko being dejected after a failed mission.

Like most of the problems in her life, her inability to cope with failure stems from her desire to be loved and to be considered worth keeping around. But since she equals affection with usefulness, she grew to actually fear failure of any kind to a dispropotional amount, even for a member of the Mafia where failure can actually be punished by death. This already held true when she was still living in the orphanage, but was made so much worse as she got older. In the street gang her physical wellbeing depended on being useful and delivering results, moreso than it ever did in the orphanage, and after that Enchi kept exploiting and manipulating Taiko's desires and fears for years to make her loyal, making them even worse in the process.
In short, instead of learning to deal with failure over the years the exact opposite happened, leading to her overworking herself on a rather frequent basis and withdrawing completely to sit in morose silence for a few hours until she manages to get a grip on herself and her emotions again, when it does happen. Because despite everything she does realize that her fears aren't completely rational and that she is too useful for the Mafia to discard over a single mistake, but it's hard to Keep that small fact in mind after nearly fours years of Enchi playing into Taiko's worst fears on a nearly daily basis.

Taiko by carnivorousGekkou
Base from Atsushi