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FairyAurora [2016-01-24 20:20:39 +0000 UTC]

Bellissime! <3

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PenguinGirlAnzu [2016-01-24 20:04:42 +0000 UTC]

Genius~x3

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MarilynMarshall [2016-01-24 17:03:55 +0000 UTC]

Just... Awesome !
I don't know what I can add about your job, it's simply beautiful *^*
Amazing pic' dear ! **

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RengokuNoSamurai [2016-01-24 14:51:14 +0000 UTC]

MY GOD! *0*
You improved so much Dear! It's just awesome!
This drawing is CJGKSUDIUYUILSCBUTGXUYH!

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MlleStorm [2016-01-24 13:56:14 +0000 UTC]

KJHEDRHGOHGIERHGEHZOIZHSDOICHGZOEFGZPIOEHFOZIEHGCOIZEAHGFIZHFZOIUEHGOZEGVIUOZEHGUOZHFOZIEGHCOIZFOIZHFOIZEHYOIZEDHJCIZHYFOLZSOHZEVFHOZEFOIZHEIFHZF FINALLY FZLEKJHGPEOJEH

JESUS I WAS SO STRESSED LIKE 'gtg spam the refresh gotta check my phone it's friday friday i mean wut-' 

iouehrgoiehgpoejrhojeprhjerpogjefpozehfpoezhiozhpozsnjcpozehjfpoezhopzejzoijczpoehgz i love spamming the keyboard yes it's dying omfg johezrgoiehrgo i already spent ten fucking minutes only staring at the drawing smiling like an idiot before starting to actually read ojehgnoejhi

like i ken't even how you're improving so fast it's like something has triggered you and now you're improving so much so fast at each drawing getting away from the animu bullshit/jail/most unoriginal stuff it's crazy jgboierg i'm just in love with your way of doing faces and i'm looking so forward to see more because i'm sure it'll be better each time new and ysee how you told me you were actually happy of what you were doing for once and all of that because you're starting to learn your style and improve it and build it your own way without being limited and i'm glad i'm here to help you in everything because all i want is to see you happy and satisfied with what you're doing because i hate seeing creative and talented people restraining themselves or stopping to do what they love because they think they aren't good enough or somth .. SO DONT YOU DARE TO EVER STOP OR GIVE UP BECAUSE I WONT LET YOU ANYWAY LIL BITCH 

EVEN DAT COLOURING JESUS PENIS LOOK AT DAT WOMAN DO YOU REALISE . you're getting better in everything and i wanna help you so bad to get out of this vicious circle to make it a virtuous circle that will only help you jump higher each time you fall . I love helping you and when you show me your drawings and even if i'm always finding the little somethings that are wrong it's only because i wanna help you get your eye sharp to realise your own mistakes so you can improve even more so i won't stop èué

AND LOOK AT OUR BABIES THEY ARE SO CUTE i ken't even, i couldn't even describe our story in one sentence if somebody asked me to cause jesus fuck do you realise how much details we added and how complex it became, from two dumb empty fairy tail OCs to an actual original story with its own universe and dozens of characters AND our own personal projects i ken't even xD .

Alright now brace your ass cause i'm gonna go full feels and comment each sentence of what you wrote . 

Lemme grab somth to eat before or i'm gonna faint 

ALRIGHT *cracks fingers*

So first of all you already know how sorry i am for you loss even more cause it had been a while you were talking me about it and i'm glad i was here so you could talk about it and in a way i already tried to help you through this even if i'm not the most efficient xD Now what happened happened and i'll be even more here to help you because even if i never lived such things, even if i don't know much things about how to mourn, i know you by heart and so i'm trying my best. 


And so yeah jesus fucking christ today is been exactly a year , an entire year Black Eagles exist and oh god i would've never bet things would've taken so much proportions and became actually part of the most important things of my life. I would've never bet that them, the Black eagles, and you, who became my precious baby floff, would've helped me change who i am and improve my drawings so much like i ken't even .
And I may have a shitty memory and not remember much things, but i do remember when i told you they'd make a good team, i don't remember why or even how i came to say this, but idk i just felt it and said it like it was automatic and just my fingers writing for me without my brain to realise, maybe it was my heart talking ? maybe it was a lil help from fate ? i really don't know but what i know is that for once it was the best decision i've made since long xD 
I didn't even realise you were struggling to get my attention like i was some kind of popular person or somth xD while i was just spending days alone as usual and at the time couldn't even put words on what i felt, i didn't even know what i was feeling, even though these feelings were here for so long. I had just became like an empty shell, all those feelings i had they had became part of my daily routine and so i thought they were normal.

Actually you were the first one to have an interest in me as a person, instead of the "AMG U DRAW GOOD U SEMPAI PLZ NOTIEC MEH" because my drawings aren't even that good, and i wasn't the kind to "hang out with the popular ppl" like if it was some kind of elite. I too was looking at the persons behind the drawings i saw and i quickly realised that behind your drawings were a lil fragile baby floff struggling with her confidence. like i said all I hate is to see people wanting to give up because they think they aren't good enough. I never seeked for success or anything in the fandom, really that's useless, i just wanted to say what i thought out loud and if it could help some ppl then good. I think at first i saw you like a hurt baby deer and i wanted to protect you and to show you that things could be different from the way you saw them. I wanted to give you support like you lacked it , to show you that even if you weren't satisfied with what you were doing, you were on the right way to improve and become a great artist, and it's what you are, a wonderful artist, because you always draw with your heart, and what you draw is always meaningful, and that's the most important part of being an artist, above having "talent" or "skills" . You don't do that art that is here to say "LOOK HOW IM GOOD AT DOING THIS AND THIS " you do that art that, wherever we come from, whatever language we speak, whatever gender we are or who we are in general, will warm up our lil hearts and make us smile thinking "it's adorable to see people like this still exist".
And so beyond these stupid bases and all the trouble they created, i supported you and other people did too, to make your own art because behind it i could actually see you, it had and still has a soul. I do remember how i always wanted to reassure you when you were kinda lost about what you were doing, so used to people telling you what you were doing was shit, i was always so glad to see you happy whenever i made you the tiniest compliment, it showed how simple happiness is and how nothing it takes to actually be nice to someone and help them fight their insecurities. Even thinking back to how i was feeling and how precious you are makes me smile up to my ears.

Then came several more collabs and we started to try developping our story even if it was all animu shit schemed xD like "OHOHOHOHO I AM *whispers* Da guy" i ken't even xD thinking to ali being "da guy" and what he is today xD smexy indian daddy desu xD *purrs the R* and even a smexy band leader xD *to our hours fangirling*

Actually i don't remember the first time i opened up to you but it came naturally, because you had gained my confidence so easily, by just doing one little tini tiny easy thing : listening to me. It had never happened to me before. Whenever i tried to talk about what i felt it's like if was trying to shout but no sound was going out. Nobody ever took time to listen what i had to say, and even if they did, it was just to hear it but nothing more. Here and for the first time, you had always interest in me, you were always the one coming to me for news. That was really new for me, i never had someone caring about me like that before actually. I guess that how you carved your little way into my heart xD 

Well to be honest this summer was probably the worst i've ever had, firstly because y'all were on vacation and doing tuns of stuff together and i was stuck here all alone to study. It made me so angry i ken't even xD . I was just feeling left out as usual, like the person people barely notice when i'm here and completely forget when i'm not, the person nobody really cares about like, idk, a painting in a living room or a plant or somth ? decorative, not very useful but still here xD 
And then it kept going worse and worse, when i was working, oh god even thinking about that again makes me feel horrible. This feelings were so harsh. I don't wanna think about that again, it dragged me so low. I had never felt so horrible in my life and these feelings really were strong and tough to me. Even to the point where i have to admit, and call it by the actual name, that i fell into a kind of depression yeah. I couldn't see the light neither the end of the tunnel, each day more was a pain, i was sick of everything, everyone. I lost weight, i was interested in nothing anymore, wasn't hungry like i used to, i stopped smiling like i always did to make people think everything was alright, even if absolutely nobody except you knows what really happened and what i felt, because we spent all evenings talking and arguing. This really was a hell. And even if today i'm still not out of it, i feel better and the most harsh feelings stopped even if they probably still are here. Not even probably because i do know they are still here. This summer really was one of a kind because it completely changed who i am. I don't even know how or why but suddenly everything exploded and then we became so close so fast im still like 'how in the heavens-" I remember how each day i was in spain, i was even avoiding to do stuff only to spend time with you, and even after i refused to do many stuff only to talk with you, because you were here, my lil bubble of oxygen, it just felt like you were the only thing holding me up and if suddenly you weren't here then everything would fall apart. I think we didn't realise at the time but things good have really gone bad for me at the time if you had not been here for me even with the hell i was dragging you through. I, like the person who hates giving up and stuff, i even didn't feel like drawing anymore, aka what i always feel to do in my guts. Drawing. 
And again even today we argue often, but i don't like calling it arguing because it's not what it is. We just throw our feelings on the table and we always end up finding a solution and knowing each other more because we put words on what we're feeling. 

And now do you even realise everything we share aside black eagles ? nights spent watching videos together, even that first time we skyped and you were all floff xD all the saints row, we played 15475646 times again but always laughed so much, GHOST ADVENTURES I KENT EVEN ! it became our things and i can't even imagine them without you now ! And even these christmas gifts we made each other, like actual real stuff xD 

And yes it does bother me that i'm not able to do anything for you in this day because it means a lot to me. And I don't even know anymore how to find something that would ever be enough to thank you for being here and who you are, for everything you're doing for me, for never giving up on me, to pay back all the tears you've shed because of me and everything you went through because of me.. 
It will take time but i will cover you in gifts and love, even if it'll be never enough for everything you deserve, because you deserve the best this world has to give.
And we will meet, we will spend time together, live even more stuff together, and i'll never let you go, i'll stick to you until i'm not even able to because now that i've found you there's no way i'm letting you go.

So Giorgia//Gio//Babu// baby mole precious adorable fluffy floff or any other nickname you love me to call you by, never forget to be yourself and listen only what your soul has to say before hearing others okay ? do what you want with your life because it's yours and you'll have only one chance to live it. Don't have regrets, live your life like you want to live it, simply. It's yours, it's your gift, you're the captain on board alright ? 

now what else i can say except that i love you and that even a second away from you makes me so anxious i ken't even. I've taken almost a whole hour to write this so now i won't make you wait longer xD 

I LOVE YOU !   

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