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How can I fall forward when all I see are sunsets? The sun never rises and if it does its hidden by these dark clouds above my head. I can’t see the future, I can’t see the past. As long as I don’t look it seems as if the pain won’t last. I’ve fallen a hundred times before, yet this one hurts the most. Is it wrong for me to fall so much in love when anything else seems hollow and numb? I’ve spoken the words a hundred times but with the meaning unclear until now.

I watch the sunsets melt away knowing not to look forward to another day. I feel the fire leaving my soul, and condemn myself for ever letting you know! Just to watch it dim again. Your eyes breathe light into this dark corridor of my life. I want to embrace it, but all it does is remind me, and the fire sparks up again. The flames distorted, a color I no longer recognize. Is this what I’ve become by allowing you so close to me? Is this how I will falter? I can’t see it, I won’t, and as the sunsets grow further and further apart I remember the words unspoken and unclear. Truth lied in your eyes and that can’t help but encourage me to stand up.

I can kick myself a thousand times for letting you go, but admitting I can hold on means more. My chest is bruised from the fall, but my skin no longer cries to feel it. I’ve danced this dance too many times before. When I said you were different I meant you meant more. Complicated and stinging, the words seem too calm. The loud silence for just two more seconds before it cuts back through. What would you have me do? What would I have me do? The answers are unclear, as well as the future and the past. I’ve cut myself on the knowledge of knowing I can’t be with you. I hate it with ferocity unmatched, but I bow my head as I always have and take a step forward. Can I say I’m getting over not being able to watch a sunset? No, I can’t…..but I can close my eyes and keep the thoughts.

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How can I fall forward when all I see are sunsets? The sun never rises and if it does its hidden by these dark clouds above my head. I can’t see the future, I can’t see the past. As long as I don’t look it seems as if the pain won’t last. I’ve fallen a hundred times before, yet this one hurts the most. Is it wrong for me to fall so much in love when anything else seems hollow and numb? I’ve spoken the words a hundred times but with the meaning unclear until now.

I watch the sunsets melt away knowing not to look forward to another day. I feel the fire leaving my soul, and condemn myself for ever letting you know! Just to watch it dim again. Your eyes breathe light into this dark corridor of my life. I want to embrace it, but all it does is remind me, and the fire sparks up again. The flames distorted, a color I no longer recognize. Is this what I’ve become by allowing you so close to me? Is this how I will falter? I can’t see it, I won’t, and as the sunsets grow further and further apart I remember the words unspoken and unclear. Truth lied in your eyes and that can’t help but encourage me to stand up.

I can kick myself a thousand times for letting you go, but admitting I can hold on means more. My chest is bruised from the fall, but my skin no longer cries to feel it. I’ve danced this dance too many times before. When I said you were different I meant you meant more. Complicated and stinging, the words seem too calm. The loud silence for just two more seconds before it cuts back through. What would you have me do? What would I have me do? The answers are unclear, as well as the future and the past. I’ve cut myself on the knowledge of knowing I can’t be with you. I hate it with ferocity unmatched, but I bow my head as I always have and take a step forward. Can I say I’m getting over not being able to watch a sunset? No, I can’t…..but I can close my eyes and keep the thoughts.