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Published: 2011-05-07 17:52:23 +0000 UTC; Views: 235; Favourites: 1; Downloads: 2
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I do not feel betrayal no longer,but remember what it felt like.
A weight of heavy surprising guilt,
for letting you get that close to me and them.
And you, my mother,
ever so careful to always hurt my feelings,
chipped at my self worth and insecurities-
until I was nothing more than a questioning, defensive fool.
I begin to build back up.
Roadblocks scarce but present,
trouble mounting the acceptance.
But getting closer.
So I forgive, but never forget.
And still hold you at arms distance.
My fair heart letting you stay,
my vengeful thoughts causing me to bite my tongue.
This time I'll be careful.
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Comments: 4
Beautifully written. We so often seek approval from those who are least willing or able to give it. Being let down by a loved one, even worse a parent, is so hard to come to grips with. They say if it cannot kill you it serves to make you stronger but I tend to disagree, I think it hardens the wall we build around our hearts killing that unconditional love we feel as children.
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agreed. Your comment hits the nail on the head. Thank you so much for your kind words.
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It is always a pleasure to read your work. Remember Brittany you are a beautiful, smart and talented young woman whether your parents can see it or not.
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well thank you so very much!! You've definitely made me smile.
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