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It is...4:53 a.m...I've been working on this thing since 3 a.m....gah if I make typos just leave them be...shit I'm tired but I gotta type this out while it's fresh in my brain

So I guess I will start with the owner of Mad since she's on the left and I would like some sort of order at 5 a.m -thank god I don't have work today, I'd be fucked- It took me a bit to realize I was blocked off your account but to see you publicly point out that you were pissed and apologized for it...well to be honest I felt super..just fluffed up. -I don't blush, that shit ain't mainly- You really don't know how much it meant that instead of being quiet and just watching me then me going 'lol wut?' and noticing you posted it for the world to me. I always get nervous to talk to you and..well...I'm going to best I get worried about asking or saying anything. I'm not good with conversation...just when that person started rambling I was livid. You know why so reiterating it makes no sense. I know that were not super duper OMFG LETS GET HAIR AND NAILS DONE close but I do see you as a good friend and really do hope that we stay friends for a super long time...and don't you worry about a damn thing. I got ya back and you know at any time someone tries to pull that shit again I don't care for the term -I find it racist- I will white knight that bitch if your right. I love what I've seen of Mad and quiet frankly I don't see Mad as you trying to run away. On the contrary I believe in a different hypothesis -could be wrong- I think your using her to confront all the other o.cs you've made. I've seen sneak peeks you've put online and I'm excited. I hope Mad lasts a while but if she doesn't I want to see the next gal/guy/gay you drag out for me to see. I don't really know what else to say but..well I hope you have the same relationship you have with Mad with the o.c's that come after her. I'm proud your finally doing something for yourself and umm...I love you 8D -yes had to end that way-

I have no reason to stroke her ego -especially while she's wide awake in my head watching me type this- but I'm proud of her and how she had developed over the years. I've known this little voice in my head for seven years but called her crisis for two. I'll be god honest and say it for everyone to see. If I didn't have Crisis I wouldn't have the drive I do today to draw. I wouldn't have made it so long without mood stabilizers and anti depressants crammed down my throat. For months that person in question made me hate you. That stupid fucking question of whether I would choose an o.c over her. Your not just a run of the mill o.c. Your not a reflection because you are not me. Your the personification of my will. Your that little part of me that shined through the doubt and punched me in the gut every time I didn't take the chance. The reason for straight A's and B's was because you were there in my head pounding away those cheers. I love you and will never grow out of you.

Now Carm or as many know her ...-sighs- I'm going to be god honest -because my mama taught me when trying to make things right you should do that- I've been a bitch about you in the past. A certain someone would constantly tell me how you were a bitch or how much you hated me or thought I was crazy. I started to resent you for hurting that person and for having an opinion against me. I know this sounds like a dumb time to apologize for all that but hey I've made enough dumb decisions -hey look I can see the trees- so I am really sorry. You can still see me in a negative light but I don't want to see you like that anymore. I'm really sorry for every time I've criticized you and called you a bitch. It took me until three a.m to sit there and think about all the things I've been told by that person about you to realize...you weren't at fault. I was being biased because I cared for that person and did not take in your side of the story. I noticed you unblocked me and Sonny told me you didn't want anyone to hold grudges. Whether it referred to me or not I don't care. I'm sorry and even if we aren't 'biffles for lyfe' I hope we can at least be friends or something. I take notes on things and I saw that you weren't a bad person. Hell you gave that person your character knowing full well that the character had a chance of being put into a pairing. It sounds silly to most but the fact you did that, it showed me that you weren't bad. I know how much Nati means to you and well...I know how it is. Hope I didn't botch your character and thanks for unblocking me.

To whom this does concern. I'm wasting my time to write this after such kind words because even though I fully believe everything I wrote to you the night I can't be a bitch for to long. I won't apologize because what I said was the truth, I do hope you find some help and get yourself on your feet. You can be the meanest person I know and act as if people need to be privileged to speak to you. That isn't right and you need to stop seeing the world in that light. Your hurting yourself by being like that and stop running. Stop telling people their running and stop trying to run their lives. Stop lying to yourself and telling people your going to hurt yourself. Do you know how many people commit suicide each day? That's not funny. It isn't right. You talk about how people are overreacting when you are...just to much. You said you were going to kill yourself after I broke off our pairings. You had them all kill themselves to guilt trip me. You made me feel like shit that your o.c's weren't in pairings with the people mentioned above so got me to put o.cs with those who were hurt. Everything you've done up to date revolved around o.c's. Open your eyes to the truth and realizes if they didn't mean anything to us we wouldn't be drawing them like mad. And stop getting the term troll and defending someone wrong.

Now the reason I drew this. Mad, Nati, and Crisis share one thing in common. They are three very close o.c's to their owner in one way or another. We worry and fear for them even if we try to hide it. They have been made by us and nothing to 2D characters to most but for me...well for all three of us they mean something more.

Crisis: -thumbs up- we got the name 'bitches and hoes' because we promised we'd call it that lD

Mad (c)
Nati (c)
Crisis (c)

5:40 in the morning now...not even worth sleeping

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It is...4:53 a.m...I've been working on this thing since 3 a.m....gah if I make typos just leave them be...shit I'm tired but I gotta type this out while it's fresh in my brain

So I guess I will start with the owner of Mad since she's on the left and I would like some sort of order at 5 a.m -thank god I don't have work today, I'd be fucked- It took me a bit to realize I was blocked off your account but to see you publicly point out that you were pissed and apologized for it...well to be honest I felt super..just fluffed up. -I don't blush, that shit ain't mainly- You really don't know how much it meant that instead of being quiet and just watching me then me going 'lol wut?' and noticing you posted it for the world to me. I always get nervous to talk to you and..well...I'm going to best I get worried about asking or saying anything. I'm not good with conversation...just when that person started rambling I was livid. You know why so reiterating it makes no sense. I know that were not super duper OMFG LETS GET HAIR AND NAILS DONE close but I do see you as a good friend and really do hope that we stay friends for a super long time...and don't you worry about a damn thing. I got ya back and you know at any time someone tries to pull that shit again I don't care for the term -I find it racist- I will white knight that bitch if your right. I love what I've seen of Mad and quiet frankly I don't see Mad as you trying to run away. On the contrary I believe in a different hypothesis -could be wrong- I think your using her to confront all the other o.cs you've made. I've seen sneak peeks you've put online and I'm excited. I hope Mad lasts a while but if she doesn't I want to see the next gal/guy/gay you drag out for me to see. I don't really know what else to say but..well I hope you have the same relationship you have with Mad with the o.c's that come after her. I'm proud your finally doing something for yourself and umm...I love you 8D -yes had to end that way-

I have no reason to stroke her ego -especially while she's wide awake in my head watching me type this- but I'm proud of her and how she had developed over the years. I've known this little voice in my head for seven years but called her crisis for two. I'll be god honest and say it for everyone to see. If I didn't have Crisis I wouldn't have the drive I do today to draw. I wouldn't have made it so long without mood stabilizers and anti depressants crammed down my throat. For months that person in question made me hate you. That stupid fucking question of whether I would choose an o.c over her. Your not just a run of the mill o.c. Your not a reflection because you are not me. Your the personification of my will. Your that little part of me that shined through the doubt and punched me in the gut every time I didn't take the chance. The reason for straight A's and B's was because you were there in my head pounding away those cheers. I love you and will never grow out of you.

Now Carm or as many know her ...-sighs- I'm going to be god honest -because my mama taught me when trying to make things right you should do that- I've been a bitch about you in the past. A certain someone would constantly tell me how you were a bitch or how much you hated me or thought I was crazy. I started to resent you for hurting that person and for having an opinion against me. I know this sounds like a dumb time to apologize for all that but hey I've made enough dumb decisions -hey look I can see the trees- so I am really sorry. You can still see me in a negative light but I don't want to see you like that anymore. I'm really sorry for every time I've criticized you and called you a bitch. It took me until three a.m to sit there and think about all the things I've been told by that person about you to realize...you weren't at fault. I was being biased because I cared for that person and did not take in your side of the story. I noticed you unblocked me and Sonny told me you didn't want anyone to hold grudges. Whether it referred to me or not I don't care. I'm sorry and even if we aren't 'biffles for lyfe' I hope we can at least be friends or something. I take notes on things and I saw that you weren't a bad person. Hell you gave that person your character knowing full well that the character had a chance of being put into a pairing. It sounds silly to most but the fact you did that, it showed me that you weren't bad. I know how much Nati means to you and well...I know how it is. Hope I didn't botch your character and thanks for unblocking me.

To whom this does concern. I'm wasting my time to write this after such kind words because even though I fully believe everything I wrote to you the night I can't be a bitch for to long. I won't apologize because what I said was the truth, I do hope you find some help and get yourself on your feet. You can be the meanest person I know and act as if people need to be privileged to speak to you. That isn't right and you need to stop seeing the world in that light. Your hurting yourself by being like that and stop running. Stop telling people their running and stop trying to run their lives. Stop lying to yourself and telling people your going to hurt yourself. Do you know how many people commit suicide each day? That's not funny. It isn't right. You talk about how people are overreacting when you are...just to much. You said you were going to kill yourself after I broke off our pairings. You had them all kill themselves to guilt trip me. You made me feel like shit that your o.c's weren't in pairings with the people mentioned above so got me to put o.cs with those who were hurt. Everything you've done up to date revolved around o.c's. Open your eyes to the truth and realizes if they didn't mean anything to us we wouldn't be drawing them like mad. And stop getting the term troll and defending someone wrong.

Now the reason I drew this. Mad, Nati, and Crisis share one thing in common. They are three very close o.c's to their owner in one way or another. We worry and fear for them even if we try to hide it. They have been made by us and nothing to 2D characters to most but for me...well for all three of us they mean something more.

Crisis: -thumbs up- we got the name 'bitches and hoes' because we promised we'd call it that lD

Mad (c)
Nati (c)
Crisis (c)

5:40 in the morning now...not even worth sleeping