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How did it come to this? I can't stand to look at myself right now. Why did I have to choose a dress like this? I can't fucking breath with these E implants. I think I'm stuck! Yup, I'm stuck wearing this stupid dress. It all started with my sister practicing her makeup on me. She would then throw me into a dress and call me a pretty girl. She always wanted a sister. We started playing dolls together. 2 years later, I was her sister. She named me Bethany. Worst part was my mother knew she was doing this to me and already had girl's clothes for when I eventually turned. I was now spending the rest of my childhood and even young adult years in pretty dresses, makeup, and declaring myself to be a princess. Now here I am, looking back at a woman I no longer recognise, trying not to cry as I force myself to get dolled up for my date.. and by date I mean my next customer. That's right, I'm a prostitute. I was struggling to afford my hormone therapy and desperately wanted breast implants. I already had implants back when I was 14 when the hormones only produced a small B cup. But now, being a 23 year old "woman", I wanted bigger boobs. And now these boobs are a constant reminder of how I lost my future and childhood as a male. My sister will pay for this someday. I'm too scared to tell my family that I am not a woman anymore, nor have I ever been. I'm just a man dressed like a slut, nothing more. I don't know how much more lf this I can take. I struggle to hold back the tears when having to wear these clothes, putting on tons of makeup, and again.. my fucking boobs. I also have a very girly voice that I can't control since I've been doing this for 11 years. I want to die honestly. I can't fucking do this anymore. I just don't know when or how I should do it. Any help would be greatly appreciated because I'm running out of time. Help me someone please!

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How did it come to this? I can't stand to look at myself right now. Why did I have to choose a dress like this? I can't fucking breath with these E implants. I think I'm stuck! Yup, I'm stuck wearing this stupid dress. It all started with my sister practicing her makeup on me. She would then throw me into a dress and call me a pretty girl. She always wanted a sister. We started playing dolls together. 2 years later, I was her sister. She named me Bethany. Worst part was my mother knew she was doing this to me and already had girl's clothes for when I eventually turned. I was now spending the rest of my childhood and even young adult years in pretty dresses, makeup, and declaring myself to be a princess. Now here I am, looking back at a woman I no longer recognise, trying not to cry as I force myself to get dolled up for my date.. and by date I mean my next customer. That's right, I'm a prostitute. I was struggling to afford my hormone therapy and desperately wanted breast implants. I already had implants back when I was 14 when the hormones only produced a small B cup. But now, being a 23 year old "woman", I wanted bigger boobs. And now these boobs are a constant reminder of how I lost my future and childhood as a male. My sister will pay for this someday. I'm too scared to tell my family that I am not a woman anymore, nor have I ever been. I'm just a man dressed like a slut, nothing more. I don't know how much more lf this I can take. I struggle to hold back the tears when having to wear these clothes, putting on tons of makeup, and again.. my fucking boobs. I also have a very girly voice that I can't control since I've been doing this for 11 years. I want to die honestly. I can't fucking do this anymore. I just don't know when or how I should do it. Any help would be greatly appreciated because I'm running out of time. Help me someone please!