inseparable-cities In reply to lilbluestar85 [2018-05-28 03:36:57 +0000 UTC]
wrong username earlier - but yeah, still sweating thinking of this. it's amazing how you can capture so much with only 50% of their bodies with no faces. damn. whether it was sexual or non-sexual intimacy, you can feel the intensity despite the dangling, almost casual, cigarette because of how much it had meaning between them - with neil's memories of his mother to new memories of what they both shared on the rooftop
side note - sometimes i wonder if andrew pushed the sexual nature of their relationship so soon, despite neil's inexperience, because he wanted to blur his emotional connection to neil and hide it behind something physical instead of emotional, vulnerable. that's also why baltimore hit him like a ton of bricks. he let flickers before, while still trying to grasp at his last remnants of denial and slowly losing it, but was all ripped away to raw vulnerability
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