HOME | DD
DeviantArtSecret — Secret. 10766
Published: 2011-06-07 17:54:01 +0000 UTC; Views: 2860; Favourites: 27; Downloads: 8
Redirect to original
Description
Send your secret to DeviantArtSecret@gmail.comYou are invited to anonymously contribute your secrets to DeviantArtSecret.
"Each secret can be a regret, hope, funny experience, unseen kindness, fantasy, belief, fear, betrayal, erotic desire, feeling, confession, or childhood humiliation. Reveal anything - as long as it is true and you have never shared it with anyone before."
For a list of stock accounts pleas read our shout-board.
for more information please read UPDATES the journal you don’t want to miss
Send your secret to DeviantArtSecret@gmail.com
Related content
Comments: 50
I gave up on religion a while back, and I found it really difficult because of all the shit that it had helped me get through.
I will always believe in the power of prayer, because even if there were nobody there to listen, talking helps immensely. Keep praying, because it will help you keep peace. Equally, please look for some further help if it's at all possible, because you need to stay alive for yourself, not for any other reason.
Good luck, ST
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
me too but i got through the suicide part with my religion, it will be better i promise.
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
Sorry, I actually meant to write 2 Corintians instead of 1.
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
1 Corinthians 4: 8-12; 16-18.
I'm giving you that scripture passage based on the assumption that you're a Christian, ST. Sorry if I'm wrong, but I think the message will be helpful regardless. That passage has helped me through many hard times.
There are people who love you. If you would like to note me to talk, I would love to get to know you.
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
I know how you feel
My family's all muslim and if I killed myself my parents would think they're gonna go straight to hell and it would just be bad for them and all their muslim friends and stuff idk I don't understand the concept of this all I never did and my parents won't bother to explain to me how anything works DX
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
thank god for your religion then, because one day you will realize that life is worth living, and that you are happy to be alive.
i used to want to commit suicide, but the thought of my younger siblings finding my dead body kept me from doing so. as much as i wanted to die, i couldn't do that to them. now i'm so grateful that i'm alive because i've finally found happiness, and it was well worth the agony and the years of waiting.
i hope you find your happiness soon.
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
Ok, I´m gonna make my self clear for those who can´t read my 2nd comment. I think thi´s an ironic joke. If is not; well don´t kill your self. And the only cause you need is out there, everything is an excuse to don´t suicide. But; again, I think thi´s a joke, you can´t come to Deviant (a place for art) to say "i gonna kill my self"; damn, that why there´s analyst and places where you can ask for help, THI´S NOT A PSYCHIATRIC CLINIC, IT´S A PLACE FOR ENJOY!!.
👍: 0 ⏩: 2
DeviantART is both a social network and an art gallery. DeviantARTSecrets is on the social networking side.
Stop pushing the issue further, you're only making yourself look like an idiot. And I know idiots. >3> I used to be a big one until I realised life is life and people are assholes.
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
And this is DAS, a place to get things off your chest and not be judged. Your comment could really come off as hurtful to the st, especially if they are coming here for support. They may not want to (or be able to) see a psychiatrist. DAS is here for people to tell how they feel and get supportive input from other deviant art members. Please consider their feelings before saying things like this. If you were in their situation, this comment could be the make or break point for you. You never know just how much one persons words can effect someone. I realize that you also added a few supportive things in there, but people in bad situations tend to only see the negative side to certain things. I'm just cautioning, please, choose your words wisely when directing them at others.
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
My friend said something like this recently. Hang in there. I'm glad you've found something to hold onto. Keep holding on until you feel OK again. This world still has so much more for you.
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
Whatever works for you to stay alive and brave, stick with it because life is a precious thing. C:
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
I've never personally felt this way as I believe in reincarnation, but I know what it's like to only live because of something/for someone. I spent years not allowing myself to do what I thought needed to be done because I didn't want to leave two special beings in my life alone...I knew no one would take care of them the way I would, and eventually another person was added to that list, my little sister. How could I leave them behind, I had to protect them....
Sounds kind of noble when I think about it, but it was totally an empty and worthless place to be. I do not want you to wake up one morning and feel a lack luster pull of your religion and throw it all away....please, there are so many people who would be willing to help you if you so choose to seek them out. I know it's hard, but no one can do anything if they don't know that something needs to be done....even if one of the problems is that you wish you weren't "so invisible," I know of few people who waited to be seen and didn't go internally crazy over it. You must seek life to live it fully, you must go through the pains of life, not just the motion, to make it worth living...it can be hard work, but when you finally get to a place (and I believe that everyone has that hope) where you can stand being alone with yourself and know that life is not so bad, you'll see that life is worth the fight because you can make your life whatever you want it to become.
I really hope you take the kind words that everyone is leaving you and see that this is your choice. Please do what is best, I have nothing but hope for you.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
You're comment really got to me. The first part of it relates to how I feel recently and the rest of it just made me feel a little better about the whole thing. I am not the st, but thank you. <4
👍: 0 ⏩: 2
Thank you, your comment makes me feel that it's not all for nothing and that our pain can be the lesson of others as well. 
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Np, at all. I am finding the strength to do things for myself, but it is hard to not worry about others in the process. Hopefully you're doing well also. Just remember to keep your head up also. ^^
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
I often feel like this, it so hard but it's hope. Please, don't listen to the negative posters, because if you believe, BELIEVE, and you are far from insignificant.
If GOD had know purpose for you He would have freed you from whatever pain you're enduring. But He's got his eye on you, and don't forget it because it's a beautiful thing. I'm so glad I'm not alone, although I'm sorry you feel like this.
I Peter 4.16: 'For if any man suffer as a Christian, let him not be ashamed, but let him glorify GOD on this behalf.'
: "Behold, I have refined you, but not as silver, I have tried you in the furnace of affliction"
: "for I consider that the suffering of the present time are nothing when compared to the glory that has been revealed to us."
(I don't normaly throw scripture at people, but these have helped me a lot, and hopefully they'll help you. Note me if you want to talk at all, love you 
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
I was in this same place a few years ago... I guess I'm going to agree with =Diana-Kisa . Since your belief in God and your faith have keep you alive thus far, immerse yourself in the faith. Allow yourself to believe that God put you on this Earth for a reason, and that He lives you and has a purpose for you. Hang on to hope a little longer, anon, and things will get better.
That having been said, you alone might not be strong enough to fight this depression. You need to reach out to someone; a teacher, your parents, any adult that you trust. Just be sure to find someone who understands and supports you; I know first hand that not all religious people understand depression, so be sure you go to someone who won't put you down...
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
It's good that you've found something that gives you a little bit more hope for tomorrow, ST.
If religion has helped you get past this for the most part, maybe the person you should talk to should be someone that works at your place of worship, if you have one.
If you don't, find a family member or friend or even a deviant that you trust that can help you get past this or at least listen while you talk about what's been going on in your life. *kamikazekayti seems to have offered herself up to help you and I'll do the same. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm sure other deviants will step up as well. It's hard seeing anyone in a difficult position and not offering at least a little help. Or in my case, the only help I really can.
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
Go get some help! Call somebody. You can note me if you'd like. We can talk. Just hang in there. Life gets rough, but you never know whats in store for you.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I think It´s a joke!; the real suicide never says anithink like that; and never believ. So chill
👍: 0 ⏩: 5
Joke? JOKE? I knew someone like this once! Just because you believe doesn't mean you can't have suicidal thoughts!
I'm sorry, but you're extremely unhelpful to this secret. Are you seriously as old as your profile says? I don't make assumptions on age lightly, and I try not to judge... But YOU chill. You're acting like a fricken child! And don't assume religion is quitable; you can't stop believing if you really believe with all your heart. If you're able to quit, then you don't really believe in what you're quitting. But when you ACTUALLY believe in it, you CAN'T.
Had they of just said "I was going to commit suicide, but I can't bring myself to do it" they would be getting a LOT of support. It DISGUSTS me that just because religion is brought into it they're singled out and attacked. That because they say they have a reason to live, they are assumed to be lying!
It's just disgusting. I can't believe some people. I'm ashamed of what this world has come to. 
And also, to this comment here: [link] Maybe they're not scared of God, maybe they just have too much respect to destroy themselves in front of him.
Love is NOT the only reason to keep living. Respect, how you're brought up, if you think things could be better. You don't know this person. Maybe love is YOUR only reason, but there is so much more to the world.
Think before you start abusing someone, open your g/d mind and THINK about how they must feel. There are more opinions then your own.
And it shames me to tell this to someone almost twice my age: But grow the fuck up.
Also, ST. If you read this, there are a lot of people who care, don't let the assholes get to you.
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
Nu uh! Even if this person is not technically suicidal, which you really have no idea if they are or not, something is still wrong enough for them to say it. Also I really am not sure where you got that information, but your just wrong. Give some compassion, and be considerate. And why would someone joke about that? And even if they were joking why would you push the issue like that? It's never a joke, even if it's just a cry for help. Suicide is final, that's it, you don't recover from it. So when it comes up, it needs to be addressed. People like you are the reason some people cannot comfortably talk about what's bothering them.
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
Have you ever been suicidal? Because if not, how would you know?
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I hate do this in english, but I´m gonna tried my best. 3 years ago I had a nervous breakdown, was lying in my bed 24 hours until I saw a psychiatrist.The idiot gave me Rivotril (do not know how you call it in USA), was obviously a very high dose. I became a vegetable all day slovering in front of my grandma TV. (my mom was whit his boyfriend and my dad in Jail). So, yes, I look the bottle of Rivotril, and I thought it, but then I saw my self and all I have given, and I say, fuck, It´s time to do something for my self; so I rise for the couch (very lame at first) and start to be perceptive to the smells and the colours (I don´t gonna lie, sometimes was weed too), I start to draw (thats why I´m here), I I realize suicide is for those people who have not the strength to be not miserable. All that was in a period of 3 years, many things have happened, thing I wan´t even remember. So, when I have time I work voluntary In a psiquiatric hospital in which doesn´t use strong drugs (more like te and medicinal cannabis). Anyway, yes I know that possition, and also know tah the only thing can help you is love, and the only one is yourself, doesn´t matter others good intentions, If you wanna live you are go to live. But my point is; THIS IS NOT a place for this, thi´s supouse to be a place to be happy, to enjoy. Now xcuseme I´m going to cry a bit. cheers.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Okay, good. I won't judge you then. I just hate it when people try to judge suicidal people and whether they mean it or not when they're not suicidal themselves. Excuse me for making you remember a bad memory, I know how it feels..
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
It's people who say "I'm going to commit suicide" and never do that are the ones "joking". Someone who says they want to, but have a reason to live are not lying, they're just people who haven't gotten proper help yet but are on the right track. Regardless, suicide should always be taken seriously as you can never ever know if they are serious or not.
Also your other comment is offensive, either you're a troll or an idiot.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I don´t know what´s the offensive comment you reffer. Oh by the way; I work in a neuropsiquiatric... I know better the suicide tipe my friend.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Your previous comment about the person getting rid of their religion so they had no reason not to commit suicide. That's the offensive comment. You could have a degree in ice cream for all I care, a degree doesn't make you understand someone else's mindset any better than the guy down the street so I suggest you not preach your education to me or the ST thinking you know what's best.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
what?!, what education?... I´m assistant ´couse I was a suicide type!. You know what?, I´m tired; If you´re injured get used, life sucks, soon you realize, sooner you can get out of the hole. I know, Iwas There; sometimes I´m there, but simpaty doesn´t help anybody; of course I can be comprensive and thoughtful, but only in the place for it; here I came to enjoy, here I can thing whatever I want.
👍: 0 ⏩: 2
Oh, I'm human, does that mean I understand all humans? NO.
Just because you WERE suicidal doesn't mean you fricken understand ALL suicidal people. You're not the only person in the world. Everyone is different. And suicide can be for different reasons, don't forget that. Your reason may be different to the ST's.
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
Doesn't make a difference, you've called out the ST as a liar, you've told them to get rid of the only thing they believe is keeping them alive, and yet you're the one offended when people disagree with you? You're being a jerk, plain and simple, and DAS is about support, not judgment. My mental health is none of your concern just like I don't care about yours so save your "oh I was suicidal once" stories because frankly the way you've acted I could call YOU a liar too. Yes you have the freedom to think what you want, but guess what? People have the right to disagree with you and tell you you're wrong. Two way street, buddy.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I never call him a liar, I say I think It was a joke, an intelectual joke; I´m not offended ´couse people desagree with me, If nobody mentalhead is your concern; why is that you are defending his?, and I only told my, as you´ve called "suicidal story" ´couse somebody ask, and I frankly do not know it was to appear in the collective comments, and maybe you have someone who is having a tough time, as it seems by your anger, but none of that justifies the fact that this is still a place for art, not for mentally help. If I hurt someone I I apologize; But the fact that I work every saturday with suicidal people, and go to the groups and do a lot of courses MAKE a difference, and I never judge this guy, read better. Now, please, stop arguing me, I WANNA LOOK ARt!!!!. I do not want to be arguing with someone about something else other than art. I regret having made the first comment.
👍: 0 ⏩: 2
If you want to look at art art, get the hell of DeviantartSecrets.
Also, this picture is art. It's called typography. It's a VERY emotional piece!
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
By saying it's a joke you are essentially calling the person a liar. It's not a direct "this is a lie", but the assumption is still there and again, it's still rude. And speaking of assumptions, I would prefer you not assume I'm some angry person just because I decided to call out your rude comment that was made earlier. I don't have to be upset to say something equally unkind back.
And about your "this is a site for art not mental help", the group that posts these secrets are about letting people say anonymously what they can't admit with their name attached, it's not always about art, it's about the person behind it. Don't like it, don't look at the group. Don't like me, don't reply to any comments I make. Simple as that.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I don´t reply any comment of your antill you atac me; but you know what; I´m gonna make this more simple. I´m erasing all my comment; that´s make you happy?
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
Well, there's that "anonymous" thing going on here in DA secret, so it might be real, but still, if religion is all that keeps this person from committing suicide, I'll go with your 1st recommendation - quit religion. 7+ billion people on this planet, one more or less doesn't make all the difference. We need people who are willing to work, share, experience, fight, love and get up each day to experience new things. If this person thinks that it isn't worth living, well...BANG! Easy way out.
👍: 0 ⏩: 3
Using that logic, serial killers should be given metals, and everyone should just shoot themselves.
I was tempted to just post "Let's start with you", but decided against it. I'll explain that I was going to and why, though.
The world may need hard working people; but what's the point of hard workers if the world is full of assholes? Balance is the key to any world. We need nice people, hard workers, children, adults... Hell, even criminals are an important part of our lives. If everyone who ever had suicidal thoughts killed themselves, there would be nobody left in the world.
Please stop being such a narrow minded dick, get your head out of your ass, and think about other's feelings.
And why yes, I DID sugar coat this comment for you. This is me trying to be nice when angry.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
Balance? Oh, you mean that if we have 50% of nice people we need 50% of assholes? Which group do you think you belong to? No, don't answer that, I see by your message. Welcome to the Dork side, we have cookies.
World doesn't need assholes and criminals. We need challenge, yes, but I'd rather that nature itself present one rather than my fellow humans. I mean, have you ever been robbed and beaten, raped, shot at, tortured, anything of those things? I guess not. If you did, you wouldn't talk like this.
Balance comes from nature itself, not from demented human beings. If you think that somebody who steals, kills, rapes, physically and mentally abuses others should have the same rights as people who don't do those things and go on with their lives, I know that Yellow Pages have some shrinks in them that MIGHT be able to help you.
As for suicidal people - darling, if somebody thinks that this world is too much for them and wants to leave, fine with me. Do they need help? Maybe. Do starving children in Africa need help more and urgently? Hell yes! Do you mind if I focus my attention on people who actually suffer from real issues?
By the way, I know people who have been tortured in prison camps during war in my country who are not suicidal. They survived torture that you can't imagine in your pretty Australia yet they go on with their life and try to be decent human beings. We need more of those and less of whiny little punks who think that world rotates around them.
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
THE ONLY REASONG ´COUSE HE MUST NOT KILL HIMSELF IS LOVE PEOPLE!!!, How can you say "I don´t kill myself because I´m afraid of god angry"; I U kill your self you can´t have any other chance; The religion prohibe you to suicide, doesn´t listen, does not understand you, doesn´t contains you. Religion is based on fear of father, the father that if you do not like something that punishes you, and if a death sin burns you forever!. Life is love, love to everything, to your work, to your childrens, to your hobbies, to your girl, to everithing, that, and only THAT´S the only reasson to don´t kill ur self (or other people
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
...I...I can't believe I'm reading this. Somebody is suicidal and you're telling them that they're insignificant. And 'quit religion?' do you think religion is quittable? You can't quit believing something!
ST, you were put on this Earth for a purpose<3 I hope you find your purpose and get better soon
👍: 0 ⏩: 2
Why can't you quit something you're believing? We quit believing that Earth is flat. We quit believing that Earth is center of the universe. We quit believing in "pagan" gods (for the record, I don't believe in any of major religions - I think they're just plain stupid).
Lets establish something - by the time you're considered adult, you should be able to take care of yourself. Look at the nature around you and tell me how many birds you see that need counseling to become what is expected of them? I don't think that lion needs a shrink to be a lion.
The fact: world is in a mess because we humans are self-centered, egoistical bas***ds. It's always "me, me, me". If I don't like something that means that world is out to get me - it's not my fault, oh no. Well, guess what - world IS out to get you and if they do get you, yeah, it is your fault. Just like for everybody else.
The solution: be a decent human being. Respect and help others but be ready to fight for your own piece of life. Don't give up. Life is ups and downs, you can't have only one. Accept the fact that only way to survive is to learn, adapt and improve, not whine and curl into a ball somewhere in a corner, crying yourself to sleep.
The clue: Any time you read about religious person doing something wrong (pedophilia, anyone?) and you think it's not ok but it's somebody else's problem, that's your clue - religion is turning people into sheep. Quit while you're ahead. Use your brain. Do something that will make you feel like a better HUMAN BEING, not a better sheep.
And for your own sake, USE YOUR BRAIN!
P.S. I apologize to all sheep for comparison. I'm fully aware that reason they're today's equivalent for stupid is because of greed of human race. We turned them into meek, dumb creatures. Together with countless other ones.
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
I can't be bothered to write out a massive long paragraph, I hate internet arguments, so ima just tackle your main points, short and sweet.
I find it very hypocritical that you write that people are their own reasons for their misfortune, then blame pedophilia etc. on religion. Religion is something different for every believer. If priests are pedophiles it's because they are pedophiles not because religion made them pedophiles.
if you don't believe, don't condemn those who do please. if religion is what keeps someone going, don't tell them to quit it. have a heart.
oh and for the record, I'm not religious and I've never experienced depression. But I have common sense enough to know to respect someone's belief system, and that depression is clinical and bad.
the end.
oh and btw, people quit believing that the earth was flat when the earth was proven to be round. same for your other point. and as for pagan God's, we didn't individually have the belief and then quit it, it phased out. An individual cannot simply quit believing without proof. It's something that takes an entire change of mentality, not an easy task
👍: 0 ⏩: 1
1. Pay attention, please: There are pedophiles between priests. That's a fact. Now, lets see how many people actually did something to make these CRIMINALS pay for their acts. Church tried to cover up the scandal and almost all those nice, god-fearing christians still believe that that same church will save them once they're dead. I don't see any bishops in jail for trying to cover up those acts and people. Check a little about pope's letter to a vistims of sexual abuse in Ireland and see if you can get some conclusions of your own, brainiac. Read the response of victims of sexual abuse and how much church did to help them.
2. People are to blame for most of their misfortune. I have a friend who was 25 when he was living with his parents (mother, father and sister) in a small home, barely surviving from one month to another. They barely had something to eat. When I suggested that they should STOP SMOKING and save that money to buy food, they didn't want to talk to me for a month, they've been so angry that I even dared to suggest something like that. They still smoke, they're still bottom-feeders. Just one example.
3. I left my family to work on a cruise ship. 6 months per contract, no days off, total of 5 years now. I managed to clear all my debts, pay for a new car, start thinking about moving to a better place with my family to live. When I offered to my friends to do the same, to pull them out of the misery they live in, they didn't want to do it. It's too much work. You have to SACRIFICE! *GASP!* Leave comfort of your little, shi**y home and go into the great unknown and try to survive on your own. Out of dozens of them, one tried it and quit after 8 months because he couldn't stand being away from home and it's comforts. Boo-fu**ing-hoo. Wait for Mega Millions to pull out your name, will ya?
4. Why should I respect somebody's belief if that same belief is responsible for a) religious wars
b) (sexual) abuse
c) poverty (check how rich is catholic church, for example and how much they could help the world with those riches only if they'd really care) etc.
You seriously want me to agree on status quo because you don't want somebody to be offended? Not gonna happen. Organized religion is a scourge of human race - if we keep quiet about it, it won't quietly go away. I condemn organized religion and it's followers because they're egoistical bast*rds, a huge majority of them. Not all, but that doesn't really help, ya know?
Bottom line(s):
I have a heart - I just don't waste it on those who don't deserve it. Life is too short to throw it away on lost causes. There are too many others out there who could prosper and enrich human race if they could only be helped, at least a little bit. They're not quitters, they're fighters. They don't whine, they go forward, no matter what.
Oh, and if something's not an easy task, doesn't mean you shouldn't do it, Ms. Conformist. It's called EVOLUTION. Might not be easy but if it is for our own good, we should definitely start doing it.
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
THANK YOU!
I'm glad someone on the post is sane and has a flipping soul!
👍: 0 ⏩: 0
What, so you think they should give up what keeps them alive and just go kill themselves?
I've been in a similar position as the ST for a while, so is that what you think I should do, give up and take a gun to my head?
It's not that easy, don't give advice on something you clearly don't know a lot about.
I'm sorry for whatever it is that made you so callous.
👍: 0 ⏩: 0