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I hate crying. Hate it hate it hate. I hate that it's possible for me to become so frustrated and so helpless that there is literally nothing I can do but cry. It makes me feel weak, it makes me feel like a child, and I hate it. HATE IT.

This morning I logged into my email, to read today's meditation - this is what it said :

""Don't be afraid to cry. It will free your mind of sorrowful thoughts."
-- Don Talayesva, HOPI

Human beings function from choice. We can choose to stuff things, or we can choose to let go of things. If we choose to stuff things, then we will feel a heaviness, or sorrow, self pity or fear. Sometimes we feel the need to cry. Sometimes we are taught it is not okay to cry. The creator designed the human being to cry. Crying is a release. This release allows us to let go of thoughts that are not helping us so we can open to new thoughts that will help."

These last few days have been hard for me, mostly consisting of tears I didn't want to cry, and then tears at being unable to hold back the tears, and blah blah blah. I hate it, as I said. I haven't been eating, I haven't been sleeping, it's been crying, crying, crying.
Today I feel better. I feel slightly annoyed at myself, for having been so lax over these last few days, regarding Jedi and school stuff... But I also feel renewed, and ready to jump on the horse again.

Have you ever been outside just after a storm? When the clouds are still clearing and tiny drops of rain still cling to the petals and leaves of flowers... The scent is fresh, alive, everything is soaking wet, but somehow joyful too. And I'll never be able to explain it to you humans [grins] But the song that's sung is beautiful.

That's my song, today.

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I hate crying. Hate it hate it hate. I hate that it's possible for me to become so frustrated and so helpless that there is literally nothing I can do but cry. It makes me feel weak, it makes me feel like a child, and I hate it. HATE IT.

This morning I logged into my email, to read today's meditation - this is what it said :

""Don't be afraid to cry. It will free your mind of sorrowful thoughts."
-- Don Talayesva, HOPI

Human beings function from choice. We can choose to stuff things, or we can choose to let go of things. If we choose to stuff things, then we will feel a heaviness, or sorrow, self pity or fear. Sometimes we feel the need to cry. Sometimes we are taught it is not okay to cry. The creator designed the human being to cry. Crying is a release. This release allows us to let go of thoughts that are not helping us so we can open to new thoughts that will help."

These last few days have been hard for me, mostly consisting of tears I didn't want to cry, and then tears at being unable to hold back the tears, and blah blah blah. I hate it, as I said. I haven't been eating, I haven't been sleeping, it's been crying, crying, crying.
Today I feel better. I feel slightly annoyed at myself, for having been so lax over these last few days, regarding Jedi and school stuff... But I also feel renewed, and ready to jump on the horse again.

Have you ever been outside just after a storm? When the clouds are still clearing and tiny drops of rain still cling to the petals and leaves of flowers... The scent is fresh, alive, everything is soaking wet, but somehow joyful too. And I'll never be able to explain it to you humans [grins] But the song that's sung is beautiful.

That's my song, today.