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My Heart Again.

14
When I was young, I was naive.
I stood my ground, had no defences,
When she was young, her family died,
She moved around, built up her fences.

When we met, I thought nothing of it.
I helped her stand where she’d sat alone.
When we walked, she walked beside me.
I held her hand, together till noon.

I knew I liked her, she knew I liked her,
She asked me out, but not when I was beside her,
She’d walled herself in, couldn’t face me,
I said I wouldn’t rush it; it was all new to me,
She took it as a no; she said she had to go.

She said she loved me to her friends,
I never even saw her again.
Those I knew asked who she was,
I was confused, I didn’t know
She built another fence, left for good
My heart had a dent, so I made it wood.

When I was young, I was naïve.
Knocked to the ground, then built my defences.
When she was young, her heart died.
Love she found out was our two messes.

15
I told myself, I wouldn’t get in
To something I couldn’t get out of.
I told myself, don’t begin what
You might want to end.
I froze my heart because of the past.

When I saw love coming, I went along.
Watching, not touching, not letting on.
We stayed just friends, I wanted more,
But could happily pretend.

She never knew, until it passed.
Only then could I ever say,
“I loved you, you know,
Back then” and she then said,
“Oh really? No”

It happened again, it was too late,
Act on it quick or love dies in confusion.

16
When I was sixteen my heart was cold,
I was young. My heart was old.

I met a girl; She liked me.
She wanted love; I couldn’t see.
She tried to kiss me; I didn’t notice.
She tried to hug me; I didn’t notice.
I broke her heart; I saw her crying.

She left with one more wall around her heart.
I looked back and saw what I’d done.
Losing in love is never fun.
She’d left so I couldn’t repair
The damage I’d done, it wasn’t fair.

I examined myself to find
What had stopped me from seeing love,
And found my heart in a cove.
I took it out to try and find
What had stopped my analytical mind
From seeing love in front of me.
What I found in my heart was
Love hid under a coat of frost.
Love for a girl that never noticed me,
But if I act on my hearts prompting,
Maybe this love lasts eternally.

17
I love you, so please don’t hurt me.
I want to know you love me,
Even if not unconditionally.
I apologise if I seemed to stalk you,
I was trying to muster courage to talk to you,
Trying to tell you this,
Trying to make you see this,
Trying to make it s I could back out,
Pretend that it never happened, if you just found out,
But that is not what my heart wants.
That is not what you deserve.
I’ve tried to rationalise, but all I get is
I love you,
I want to always love you,
I want you to love me,
But I don’t want to get hurt.
Again.

Description
My Heart Again.

14
When I was young, I was naive.
I stood my ground, had no defences,
When she was young, her family died,
She moved around, built up her fences.

When we met, I thought nothing of it.
I helped her stand where she’d sat alone.
When we walked, she walked beside me.
I held her hand, together till noon.

I knew I liked her, she knew I liked her,
She asked me out, but not when I was beside her,
She’d walled herself in, couldn’t face me,
I said I wouldn’t rush it; it was all new to me,
She took it as a no; she said she had to go.

She said she loved me to her friends,
I never even saw her again.
Those I knew asked who she was,
I was confused, I didn’t know
She built another fence, left for good
My heart had a dent, so I made it wood.

When I was young, I was naïve.
Knocked to the ground, then built my defences.
When she was young, her heart died.
Love she found out was our two messes.

15
I told myself, I wouldn’t get in
To something I couldn’t get out of.
I told myself, don’t begin what
You might want to end.
I froze my heart because of the past.

When I saw love coming, I went along.
Watching, not touching, not letting on.
We stayed just friends, I wanted more,
But could happily pretend.

She never knew, until it passed.
Only then could I ever say,
“I loved you, you know,
Back then” and she then said,
“Oh really? No”

It happened again, it was too late,
Act on it quick or love dies in confusion.

16
When I was sixteen my heart was cold,
I was young. My heart was old.

I met a girl; She liked me.
She wanted love; I couldn’t see.
She tried to kiss me; I didn’t notice.
She tried to hug me; I didn’t notice.
I broke her heart; I saw her crying.

She left with one more wall around her heart.
I looked back and saw what I’d done.
Losing in love is never fun.
She’d left so I couldn’t repair
The damage I’d done, it wasn’t fair.

I examined myself to find
What had stopped me from seeing love,
And found my heart in a cove.
I took it out to try and find
What had stopped my analytical mind
From seeing love in front of me.
What I found in my heart was
Love hid under a coat of frost.
Love for a girl that never noticed me,
But if I act on my hearts prompting,
Maybe this love lasts eternally.

17
I love you, so please don’t hurt me.
I want to know you love me,
Even if not unconditionally.
I apologise if I seemed to stalk you,
I was trying to muster courage to talk to you,
Trying to tell you this,
Trying to make you see this,
Trying to make it s I could back out,
Pretend that it never happened, if you just found out,
But that is not what my heart wants.
That is not what you deserve.
I’ve tried to rationalise, but all I get is
I love you,
I want to always love you,
I want you to love me,
But I don’t want to get hurt.
Again.