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I feel like I’ve hit a wall. A giant brick wall that towers 100 feet above me with no easy way of getting over it or around it. I feel like I’ve just been staring at this wall for weeks.
I remember when I was younger I had such a passion for art. I had such a passion to create and I always wanted a pencil in my hand. I made things colorful and I had fun doing (no matter how bad of a job I did). I had ideas and inspiration and I had a lot to work towards. I had goals and hopes and dreams.

But now that I’ve reached some of those goals, I feel like there’s nothing else to do. I know that, as an artist, there is ALWAYS room for improvement, no matter how good you are. But I just don’t feel motivated to work towards that improvement anymore. I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’ve run out of ideas. Like I’ve run out of inspiration.

Don’t get me wrong, I love to draw. I just never know WHAT to draw or HOW to draw it. I always get frustrated over every little detail and end up closing the program without saving. I wish I knew what to do. It just doesn’t feel like the fun is there anymore.

I wish I could become my 9 year old self again, with so much to look forward to and so much to work towards. But right now, I just feel old. Older than 15, like I’ve lived a thousand lives other than my own. This world has done things to me, changed me and my perspective on life. My younger self would be ashamed.

I’m just tired.

Description
I feel like I’ve hit a wall. A giant brick wall that towers 100 feet above me with no easy way of getting over it or around it. I feel like I’ve just been staring at this wall for weeks.
I remember when I was younger I had such a passion for art. I had such a passion to create and I always wanted a pencil in my hand. I made things colorful and I had fun doing (no matter how bad of a job I did). I had ideas and inspiration and I had a lot to work towards. I had goals and hopes and dreams.

But now that I’ve reached some of those goals, I feel like there’s nothing else to do. I know that, as an artist, there is ALWAYS room for improvement, no matter how good you are. But I just don’t feel motivated to work towards that improvement anymore. I don’t know what to do. I feel like I’ve run out of ideas. Like I’ve run out of inspiration.

Don’t get me wrong, I love to draw. I just never know WHAT to draw or HOW to draw it. I always get frustrated over every little detail and end up closing the program without saving. I wish I knew what to do. It just doesn’t feel like the fun is there anymore.

I wish I could become my 9 year old self again, with so much to look forward to and so much to work towards. But right now, I just feel old. Older than 15, like I’ve lived a thousand lives other than my own. This world has done things to me, changed me and my perspective on life. My younger self would be ashamed.

I’m just tired.