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Forcing myself to upload this because I think I've kept people waiting long enough for content from me. I was gonna upload something Megaman related today but when I showed people it in Discord they started to point out flaws in the pic, so I've postponed uploading it until I address the issues. I still need to finish some B-day art I owe people though.... Oh, and btw, the character pictured here is Babel, my sona. Furry comments are imminent, I can feel it There's an alternative version too: sta.sh/01xmww7ifvdl

I made this a few days back because I was getting a little stressed over something I've just discovered about myself. I wasn't really upset at the time just stressed... Ya see, I take psychology as a subject at school and we were learning about a topic on different types of attachments and how they shape the way people approach relationships with others. The concept is that how much your caregiver (a parent usually) responds to you when you're a child growing up actually determines how you perceive yourself and other people. If your caregiver responds to you a lot of the time then you get a secure attachment style (you're confident in yourself, capable working on your own and as a team, trust others ect.), if your caregiver isn't around that much at all then you get the insecure-avoidant attachment style (you don't form close relationships with others because you don't see them as necessary), and finally if your caregiver is inconsistent the you get the insecure-ambivalent attachment style (you want to get really close to people you have relationships with, but you're highly insecure of yourself and can come across as clingy and needy).

Now then, I'm relatively self-aware so I know to a degree what I'm like as an individual, and I also know I have a lot of issues that should be fixed at some point (low self-esteem and absentmindedness for example) but only after finding out about attachment theory did I realise that a lot of the issues I have in my personality come from the same source. Turns out all along I had an insecure-ambivalent way of dealing with relationships. What that entails for me? I doubt myself constantly, no matter how much praise I get it doesn't inflate my ego at all (which you'd expect is a good thing, but it's not when you only ever feel indifferent or terrible about yourself), I feel like my friends will leave me some day, abandon me or replace me quite a bit of the time even if the likelihood is slim and no matter how much reassurance I get those same thoughts that they'll leave never recede. There's also the fact that I'm very observant about the way others speak/type and how much they talk to me or appear at all, and if that ever changes even slightly I feel like I've done something wrong even when I didn't and I can literally get headaches from the sheer stress of the thoughts. There's a lot more too, that's just the tip of the iceberg, but I think I've made my point already. I feel the worst part about all this though is that you can't just cure something like this, the only thing you can do is become aware of your own attachment style, make friends with secure attachment styles and hope for the best, but even then it doesn't guarantee that your attachment style ever changes.

Anyway, if you wanna read more about that attachment style, then you can do so here .

Description
Forcing myself to upload this because I think I've kept people waiting long enough for content from me. I was gonna upload something Megaman related today but when I showed people it in Discord they started to point out flaws in the pic, so I've postponed uploading it until I address the issues. I still need to finish some B-day art I owe people though.... Oh, and btw, the character pictured here is Babel, my sona. Furry comments are imminent, I can feel it There's an alternative version too: sta.sh/01xmww7ifvdl

I made this a few days back because I was getting a little stressed over something I've just discovered about myself. I wasn't really upset at the time just stressed... Ya see, I take psychology as a subject at school and we were learning about a topic on different types of attachments and how they shape the way people approach relationships with others. The concept is that how much your caregiver (a parent usually) responds to you when you're a child growing up actually determines how you perceive yourself and other people. If your caregiver responds to you a lot of the time then you get a secure attachment style (you're confident in yourself, capable working on your own and as a team, trust others ect.), if your caregiver isn't around that much at all then you get the insecure-avoidant attachment style (you don't form close relationships with others because you don't see them as necessary), and finally if your caregiver is inconsistent the you get the insecure-ambivalent attachment style (you want to get really close to people you have relationships with, but you're highly insecure of yourself and can come across as clingy and needy).

Now then, I'm relatively self-aware so I know to a degree what I'm like as an individual, and I also know I have a lot of issues that should be fixed at some point (low self-esteem and absentmindedness for example) but only after finding out about attachment theory did I realise that a lot of the issues I have in my personality come from the same source. Turns out all along I had an insecure-ambivalent way of dealing with relationships. What that entails for me? I doubt myself constantly, no matter how much praise I get it doesn't inflate my ego at all (which you'd expect is a good thing, but it's not when you only ever feel indifferent or terrible about yourself), I feel like my friends will leave me some day, abandon me or replace me quite a bit of the time even if the likelihood is slim and no matter how much reassurance I get those same thoughts that they'll leave never recede. There's also the fact that I'm very observant about the way others speak/type and how much they talk to me or appear at all, and if that ever changes even slightly I feel like I've done something wrong even when I didn't and I can literally get headaches from the sheer stress of the thoughts. There's a lot more too, that's just the tip of the iceberg, but I think I've made my point already. I feel the worst part about all this though is that you can't just cure something like this, the only thing you can do is become aware of your own attachment style, make friends with secure attachment styles and hope for the best, but even then it doesn't guarantee that your attachment style ever changes.

Anyway, if you wanna read more about that attachment style, then you can do so here .