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I Promised I Wouldn't Cry But I Lied

With my luck your wondering why I'm sitting here in the pouring rain, with no one by my side but raindrops and puddles, well to tell you I must start from the beginning.
The first reason I'm sitting here in the rain is because its the best place to cry because nobody notices, but the one you wish wouldn't.
The second reason is just life, everything was perfect, I mean perfect, everything was going my way, anything I wanted to do I did, anything I wanted I got, but that all went down the drain when my best friend Kaleb, told me that when we met, when we became best friends he fell in love, not with another girl but me, he told me that even if I didn't feel the same way his feelings would never change, and he would always be there for me if I needed him.
And at that moment, my whole life changed, it went perfect to a diaster, anything I wanted to nothing, anything I did totally wrong, it was all because my best friend tol me he loved me.

Like I said I must start from the beginning, I've told you my reasons, know you must hear my story.
Kaleb and I sat in Chem trying to focus on whatever the teacher was talking about, but it just seemed too hard for me I was more focused on my boyfriends Jake and I's one year anniversary. But like always to good to be true.
When the bell rang Kaleb and I were the first ones out, we had about ten minutes to get to our next class, and the next class Kaleb and I didn't have together so we went diffrent ways.

I was on my to History when I ran into Jake's bestfriend Joey, he helped me up and said "Ash, I'm really sorry that Jake broke up with you."
My hazel eyes widened, and Joey could tell that Jake hadn't done it yet "He hasn't broken up with you yet has he?" Joey asked.
I shook my head, "OMG! He is so going to hate me!" Joey stated starting to freak out.
"But I won't." I replied with a smile.

The warning bell rang so Joey and I went our diffrent ways, the whole way to class all I could think about was Jake breaking up withe me, I couldn't let that happen, so I decided I'd break up with him first.
I walked into class and sat in far back, I was in my own world, and figured I could get notes from Lilie if I needed them.
Class flew by, the only thing I heard was "Test." "next monday.", so I'd get the note Lil and I'd be set.
Everyone in class filed out of the room, it was lunch, usually the dreaded period but I looked forward to it today, I planned what I was going to say to Jake and how I was going to do it, I was confident. Atleast I was.

I was walking to lunch when someone pulled me into the janitors closet.
And who was it? It was Jake.

"What do you want?" I asked rudely.
"Whats up with you?" He asked not ansewering my question.
"Nothing! Now what do you want?" I stated.
"Just wanted to see you, geez." He replied.
"Could you have not waited till lunch?" I asked sarcastically.
"Well yeah." He replied.
"Well next time do so!" I said angrily.
"Wait there won't be a next time..." I stated walking out of the cramped closet.

I had just told Jake that we were over just five minutes ago and it seemed everyone in the school already knew and felt sorry for me, thats Im-ing for ya.
I took a deep breath before entering the lunch room, knowing that Jake probally told everyone that he dumped me, and that I didn't dump him so I knew I would be overwhelmed by friends saying "Told ya so!" and his friends whispering behind my back, but none of that mattered I had always ignored all of it before so I could ignore it now, right? Wrong.
When I walked in I was overwhelmed with whispers, rumors, comments and girls asking me if Jake would be intrested in them, so it didn't really work as planned.
Thankfully Kaleb was waving me over to our table, he was the only one I could trust and the only one that listened to wht I had to say, he was superman, he was my hero, he was my bestfriend.

I sat down, none of my friends had any comments, andy I was right wrods, nothing they just acted like it was a normal day, "So you guys arn't gonna say anything about Jake?" I asked.
"Well we were, but Kaleb talked us out of it." Jennie replied.
"You did?" I asked looking at Kaleb.
"Yup, why wouldn't I?" He replied smiling.
I nodded, then we went back to our normal conversation, our normal rants and raves, just everything we always did.
Then all went wrong, the guy was waiting for, the guy every girl was after, the guy that was the schools golden boy walked in, high-fives, flirts from girls, comments, and props for finally dumping the girl was given to him.
It didn't bother me, I didn't even really notice, untill he looked at me I could feel his smile, I could see it out of the corner of my eye, I could resnetment, anger and passion, but none of it bothered me, but it bothered him that I didn't ackowledge him, it hurt his pride.

I had seperated from my friend off to art, my fave class I always could draw how I felt and what I thought, so it was perfect.
But that faded when I heard Jake's voice yelling "Hey Ashlee wait up!"
For some reason I stopped, I had told myself to ignore him and just toforget about him, but that was harder than I thought.
"So how are ya?" He asked like he used to before we started dating.
"I'm fine." I replied continuing to walk.
"Thats good." He said with his flirt smile, It bugged me so much I just wanted to beat him up for doing that smile.
I stopped, "So what do you want?" I asked.
"Nothing." He replied stopping with me.
"Well you want something, because your doing that smile." I replied pointing to his face.
"So?" He asked.

"Well that smile means you like me, and want me back." I replied calmly.
"Well what if I do?" He asked.
"Because I don't want you back, when I said never again I meant never again!" I shouted, I couldn't handle it I just left him standing there and spritned to the art.
I sat down in my normal seat, and just calmed down I really couldn't let him bug me like that, because if I did he'd just keep doing it.
Art went by rapidly, I didn't even feel like it had ever started, but I gotta say I was relived for it to over because Jake and his friend kept whispering and then giving me some rather odd notes.
School was over finally, and after a drama day like this I was glad it was, but seemed it wasn't yet.
I walking out to my white suburban when Jake ran into me, and not on accident.
"Oh I'am so sorry Ash!" He said standing up.
"Yeah whatever." I replied scrambling to pick up my keys and cellphone.

"Ash?" Jake asked.
"Yes." I replied, standing up.
"I know that you said you wern't going to take me back but..." He started.
"But what Jake?" I asked.
"I just want another chance." He said relived he had said it.
"I can't just give another chance..." I stated.
"Why not?" He asked.
"Because do you know what it feels like to hear that your boyfriend is going to break up with you from bestfriend?" I asked.
He shook his head, "Exactly, thats why." I replied, I turned on my heels and started back to my car, but before I could he grabbed my arm, "What, what do you want?" I asked annoyed.
"I just want another chance." He replied.
"I told you I can't." I said.
"Please?" He begged.
"I wish it was that easy, Jake." I replied with tears starting to form in my eyes, I looked away.

"Ash please." He said.
I turned my head to look at him, immediatly I felt no urge to cry I felt nothing for him, I felt no remorse for dumping him, I felt no saddness for him being so upset that I dumped him, "No!, Jake I'm not going to do it again!" I shouted sternly, he released his grip on my arm, turned and left.
Yeah In felt bad, but I couldn't do it anymore.

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I Promised I Wouldn't Cry But I Lied

With my luck your wondering why I'm sitting here in the pouring rain, with no one by my side but raindrops and puddles, well to tell you I must start from the beginning.
The first reason I'm sitting here in the rain is because its the best place to cry because nobody notices, but the one you wish wouldn't.
The second reason is just life, everything was perfect, I mean perfect, everything was going my way, anything I wanted to do I did, anything I wanted I got, but that all went down the drain when my best friend Kaleb, told me that when we met, when we became best friends he fell in love, not with another girl but me, he told me that even if I didn't feel the same way his feelings would never change, and he would always be there for me if I needed him.
And at that moment, my whole life changed, it went perfect to a diaster, anything I wanted to nothing, anything I did totally wrong, it was all because my best friend tol me he loved me.

Like I said I must start from the beginning, I've told you my reasons, know you must hear my story.
Kaleb and I sat in Chem trying to focus on whatever the teacher was talking about, but it just seemed too hard for me I was more focused on my boyfriends Jake and I's one year anniversary. But like always to good to be true.
When the bell rang Kaleb and I were the first ones out, we had about ten minutes to get to our next class, and the next class Kaleb and I didn't have together so we went diffrent ways.

I was on my to History when I ran into Jake's bestfriend Joey, he helped me up and said "Ash, I'm really sorry that Jake broke up with you."
My hazel eyes widened, and Joey could tell that Jake hadn't done it yet "He hasn't broken up with you yet has he?" Joey asked.
I shook my head, "OMG! He is so going to hate me!" Joey stated starting to freak out.
"But I won't." I replied with a smile.

The warning bell rang so Joey and I went our diffrent ways, the whole way to class all I could think about was Jake breaking up withe me, I couldn't let that happen, so I decided I'd break up with him first.
I walked into class and sat in far back, I was in my own world, and figured I could get notes from Lilie if I needed them.
Class flew by, the only thing I heard was "Test." "next monday.", so I'd get the note Lil and I'd be set.
Everyone in class filed out of the room, it was lunch, usually the dreaded period but I looked forward to it today, I planned what I was going to say to Jake and how I was going to do it, I was confident. Atleast I was.

I was walking to lunch when someone pulled me into the janitors closet.
And who was it? It was Jake.

"What do you want?" I asked rudely.
"Whats up with you?" He asked not ansewering my question.
"Nothing! Now what do you want?" I stated.
"Just wanted to see you, geez." He replied.
"Could you have not waited till lunch?" I asked sarcastically.
"Well yeah." He replied.
"Well next time do so!" I said angrily.
"Wait there won't be a next time..." I stated walking out of the cramped closet.

I had just told Jake that we were over just five minutes ago and it seemed everyone in the school already knew and felt sorry for me, thats Im-ing for ya.
I took a deep breath before entering the lunch room, knowing that Jake probally told everyone that he dumped me, and that I didn't dump him so I knew I would be overwhelmed by friends saying "Told ya so!" and his friends whispering behind my back, but none of that mattered I had always ignored all of it before so I could ignore it now, right? Wrong.
When I walked in I was overwhelmed with whispers, rumors, comments and girls asking me if Jake would be intrested in them, so it didn't really work as planned.
Thankfully Kaleb was waving me over to our table, he was the only one I could trust and the only one that listened to wht I had to say, he was superman, he was my hero, he was my bestfriend.

I sat down, none of my friends had any comments, andy I was right wrods, nothing they just acted like it was a normal day, "So you guys arn't gonna say anything about Jake?" I asked.
"Well we were, but Kaleb talked us out of it." Jennie replied.
"You did?" I asked looking at Kaleb.
"Yup, why wouldn't I?" He replied smiling.
I nodded, then we went back to our normal conversation, our normal rants and raves, just everything we always did.
Then all went wrong, the guy was waiting for, the guy every girl was after, the guy that was the schools golden boy walked in, high-fives, flirts from girls, comments, and props for finally dumping the girl was given to him.
It didn't bother me, I didn't even really notice, untill he looked at me I could feel his smile, I could see it out of the corner of my eye, I could resnetment, anger and passion, but none of it bothered me, but it bothered him that I didn't ackowledge him, it hurt his pride.

I had seperated from my friend off to art, my fave class I always could draw how I felt and what I thought, so it was perfect.
But that faded when I heard Jake's voice yelling "Hey Ashlee wait up!"
For some reason I stopped, I had told myself to ignore him and just toforget about him, but that was harder than I thought.
"So how are ya?" He asked like he used to before we started dating.
"I'm fine." I replied continuing to walk.
"Thats good." He said with his flirt smile, It bugged me so much I just wanted to beat him up for doing that smile.
I stopped, "So what do you want?" I asked.
"Nothing." He replied stopping with me.
"Well you want something, because your doing that smile." I replied pointing to his face.
"So?" He asked.

"Well that smile means you like me, and want me back." I replied calmly.
"Well what if I do?" He asked.
"Because I don't want you back, when I said never again I meant never again!" I shouted, I couldn't handle it I just left him standing there and spritned to the art.
I sat down in my normal seat, and just calmed down I really couldn't let him bug me like that, because if I did he'd just keep doing it.
Art went by rapidly, I didn't even feel like it had ever started, but I gotta say I was relived for it to over because Jake and his friend kept whispering and then giving me some rather odd notes.
School was over finally, and after a drama day like this I was glad it was, but seemed it wasn't yet.
I walking out to my white suburban when Jake ran into me, and not on accident.
"Oh I'am so sorry Ash!" He said standing up.
"Yeah whatever." I replied scrambling to pick up my keys and cellphone.

"Ash?" Jake asked.
"Yes." I replied, standing up.
"I know that you said you wern't going to take me back but..." He started.
"But what Jake?" I asked.
"I just want another chance." He said relived he had said it.
"I can't just give another chance..." I stated.
"Why not?" He asked.
"Because do you know what it feels like to hear that your boyfriend is going to break up with you from bestfriend?" I asked.
He shook his head, "Exactly, thats why." I replied, I turned on my heels and started back to my car, but before I could he grabbed my arm, "What, what do you want?" I asked annoyed.
"I just want another chance." He replied.
"I told you I can't." I said.
"Please?" He begged.
"I wish it was that easy, Jake." I replied with tears starting to form in my eyes, I looked away.

"Ash please." He said.
I turned my head to look at him, immediatly I felt no urge to cry I felt nothing for him, I felt no remorse for dumping him, I felt no saddness for him being so upset that I dumped him, "No!, Jake I'm not going to do it again!" I shouted sternly, he released his grip on my arm, turned and left.
Yeah In felt bad, but I couldn't do it anymore.