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Dearest Scott,

         My heart aches as well as my head. I can't seem to get you out of my mind. I want you there, but I want you here too. I don't know what to do. Every waking and sleeping moment, it's you who is on my mind. I've taken up independent studies, to try and occupy my time, but everything reminds me of you... Is this what going mad feels like?
        I feel so alone in my own feelings, I talk to no one about you, in fear that if someone says the wrong things, you'll be taken even further away from me. I can't even focus on writing an actual poem or explain my feeling artistically because my words get so jumbled. I feel like my heart is beating right out of my chest in search of you.
        I sometimes wonder if all I need is one good fix. As if you're my drug now and all I need is to see you. But I see you everywhere I go, on the road, in cars, in the store.... Just to take a longer look and see it's not you at all, but some fake in a cheap suit. This... This is driving me wild.
        My adrenaline keeps pumping, even though I have no use for it. I want you next to me and want to be in your arms, even in this hot hot heat. I see girls who com plain about their lives and just shake my head. 'At least you have someone. Someone who isn't miles away and doesn't even have a clue your true feelings for them..' That is what going mad feels like.
        I don't know what to do, so I just hug myself and cough. My body is rejecting it's current status, this warm weather mixed with maltreatment. But something is still keeping me from driving away from it all, from going out and trying to find you. I think it's that promise I made before... The promise to let you choose. Or maybe I'm just hoping you'll choose me in the end, all on your own.

Forever yours,
The Misunderstood

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Dearest Scott,

         My heart aches as well as my head. I can't seem to get you out of my mind. I want you there, but I want you here too. I don't know what to do. Every waking and sleeping moment, it's you who is on my mind. I've taken up independent studies, to try and occupy my time, but everything reminds me of you... Is this what going mad feels like?
        I feel so alone in my own feelings, I talk to no one about you, in fear that if someone says the wrong things, you'll be taken even further away from me. I can't even focus on writing an actual poem or explain my feeling artistically because my words get so jumbled. I feel like my heart is beating right out of my chest in search of you.
        I sometimes wonder if all I need is one good fix. As if you're my drug now and all I need is to see you. But I see you everywhere I go, on the road, in cars, in the store.... Just to take a longer look and see it's not you at all, but some fake in a cheap suit. This... This is driving me wild.
        My adrenaline keeps pumping, even though I have no use for it. I want you next to me and want to be in your arms, even in this hot hot heat. I see girls who com plain about their lives and just shake my head. 'At least you have someone. Someone who isn't miles away and doesn't even have a clue your true feelings for them..' That is what going mad feels like.
        I don't know what to do, so I just hug myself and cough. My body is rejecting it's current status, this warm weather mixed with maltreatment. But something is still keeping me from driving away from it all, from going out and trying to find you. I think it's that promise I made before... The promise to let you choose. Or maybe I'm just hoping you'll choose me in the end, all on your own.

Forever yours,
The Misunderstood