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Why do I do this to myself?
Convince myself that you are holding back until we can be together..
Why am I soo stoopid to think that you care about me?
I never see you and I never talk to you- Are we still together?
I don't know..I have to ask those you DO see inorder to know if you still care about me... I miss you and that's why I am thinking about our future.. Do we have one? Can we take not being together for this short eternity? I can wait- because I know what is at the end of the tunnel... Me and you- together again... I can't wait til the day I can hold you in my arms! You are the darkness I wish I could hide in.. You are the knife that looks so comforting.. And since I can't see you- I am forced to go on- without my love and without my heart...
This pain will subside- the moment I lay eyes on you... that's how bad I miss our nights...Our nights on the phone just aren't enough- I need to feel you...your every kiss...your every hug... I miss them sooo much.. I have woke up at night- wishing you were there..to comfort me- to tell me everything will be alright..but your not.. you are no where to be found.. You are out of my reach- and this I do regret... I don't want to feel as if I am the only one living this relationship- but I do... no calls from you.. no way of knowing how you care... if you care... I hate this feeling of uncertainity- although everytime we speak- you always convince me you love me...and that we will be together again... It's been days since you told me you loved me- and who's fault is that? I have tried to call you- you are never there... This time I can't be blamed!! All I can be blamed for is falling in love with someone who doesn't exsist... that's what you are: you are a fantasy- that I can't wait to relive... I miss you soo much- it feels lyke there is a hole in my heart... most of my heart has already been thrashed- so why do you insist on hurting me this way... I am not obsessed- but I am in love...are you- truly?

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Why do I do this to myself?
Convince myself that you are holding back until we can be together..
Why am I soo stoopid to think that you care about me?
I never see you and I never talk to you- Are we still together?
I don't know..I have to ask those you DO see inorder to know if you still care about me... I miss you and that's why I am thinking about our future.. Do we have one? Can we take not being together for this short eternity? I can wait- because I know what is at the end of the tunnel... Me and you- together again... I can't wait til the day I can hold you in my arms! You are the darkness I wish I could hide in.. You are the knife that looks so comforting.. And since I can't see you- I am forced to go on- without my love and without my heart...
This pain will subside- the moment I lay eyes on you... that's how bad I miss our nights...Our nights on the phone just aren't enough- I need to feel you...your every kiss...your every hug... I miss them sooo much.. I have woke up at night- wishing you were there..to comfort me- to tell me everything will be alright..but your not.. you are no where to be found.. You are out of my reach- and this I do regret... I don't want to feel as if I am the only one living this relationship- but I do... no calls from you.. no way of knowing how you care... if you care... I hate this feeling of uncertainity- although everytime we speak- you always convince me you love me...and that we will be together again... It's been days since you told me you loved me- and who's fault is that? I have tried to call you- you are never there... This time I can't be blamed!! All I can be blamed for is falling in love with someone who doesn't exsist... that's what you are: you are a fantasy- that I can't wait to relive... I miss you soo much- it feels lyke there is a hole in my heart... most of my heart has already been thrashed- so why do you insist on hurting me this way... I am not obsessed- but I am in love...are you- truly?