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EDIT: thank u guys.... I've been trying to deal wth my dad behavior for so many years and now my brother... I've been talking to a therapist the passed 2 month about my anxiety disorder and such but haven't yet talk about this issue.

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I never had this bad anger issue before,, thx to both of my dad and my lil brother. My dad treated me so differently compare to my brother, if my lil brother did something wrong, he’s not serious about it and just letting pass with only a few word,, fucken me?? Start fucken snapping and complain, makes does judging disgusted faces. My lil brother been on his phone the whole 4 hour straight, my dad saids nothing. ME?! Makes bullshit face and shakes his head for being on my PC working, drawing, or doing HW. We argued a lot over this, tried to explain to him... he doesn’t give a fuck. My lil brother is extremely addicted to his phone, my dad barely cares. Everything I fucken tries to explain, HE DOES not listen or care. My mom is also aware that he treated me differently, my mom had tried talking to my dad, does he care to change? No.

And now my lil 12 yo brother doesn’t even fucken care, trying to teach him what is right or wrong? Argue back with dumb shit and then my other 8 year old lil brother tries to argue against me,, so they’re making group to go against… so now I can’t tell them to respect to teach them anything. He bullies me almost every fucken day, calling me “ugly”, “mental”, “stupid”, “you’re never getting a gf because your ugly”,,, I don’t give a shit but now is just too much for me to handle?? I have to stress out over school, dad, and then my lil brothers. He no longer respect me as an older sibling, everytime I want to tell him something cool about my shit or update on stuff, he said “yeah I don’t care”, and when he come to me telling me about these gucci expensive fucken shoes or cloths, I have to care. All he cares about his fashion, shoes, gucci, supreme, brands, expensive shit, barely give a damn about school and my dad does not teach him a lesson. That’s why he doesn’t even care about how other people feel….
Sometime I just want to be left alone due to my mental issue, and tell them to fuck off or just shutup, he WONT leave me alone and keep on going with the bully, so next they went to tell my parent, I ended up getting in trouble. Any time my brother says slang word, he barely gets in trouble.
(There was just be time were IM so fucken angry and I just say slang words-- just lost myself.)
Now im just having anger issue, everything my lil brother or my dad does that gets me triggered even if it just words and expression will just makes me upset. I cry, tear up, and ended up hurting myself or punch a wall knowing there’s nothing I can do to ignore or tell them to stop, even if I did…I’ll start a big ass argument, they will not care. Even everytime I get upset and slightly tears up he just called me “cry baby” or “Im depressed”, I’ve never cry with such lil thing but it’s now stressing and giving sm anxiety (My mom had talk to them, nothing change). Tried crying in my bed alone, lil brother slam the door open, walks in and tried to pull my blanket….WTF can I do?!
My brother had lied or mentioned negative stuff about me even when we’re peacefully eating to my parent in order to get me in trouble even my mom knows that,, then a huge fucken arugument start!
I can go on because there’s sm more...
12/21/18:
Went to universal studio, accidently left my lil brother phone, at home. He called me a pedophilia repeatedly, imagine used to be a victim of that and ended up being called that way. I just wanted to fucken shout at him, but knowing my voice will break, I had to ignore it.

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EDIT: thank u guys.... I've been trying to deal wth my dad behavior for so many years and now my brother... I've been talking to a therapist the passed 2 month about my anxiety disorder and such but haven't yet talk about this issue.

Warning RaNT
I never had this bad anger issue before,, thx to both of my dad and my lil brother. My dad treated me so differently compare to my brother, if my lil brother did something wrong, he’s not serious about it and just letting pass with only a few word,, fucken me?? Start fucken snapping and complain, makes does judging disgusted faces. My lil brother been on his phone the whole 4 hour straight, my dad saids nothing. ME?! Makes bullshit face and shakes his head for being on my PC working, drawing, or doing HW. We argued a lot over this, tried to explain to him... he doesn’t give a fuck. My lil brother is extremely addicted to his phone, my dad barely cares. Everything I fucken tries to explain, HE DOES not listen or care. My mom is also aware that he treated me differently, my mom had tried talking to my dad, does he care to change? No.

And now my lil 12 yo brother doesn’t even fucken care, trying to teach him what is right or wrong? Argue back with dumb shit and then my other 8 year old lil brother tries to argue against me,, so they’re making group to go against… so now I can’t tell them to respect to teach them anything. He bullies me almost every fucken day, calling me “ugly”, “mental”, “stupid”, “you’re never getting a gf because your ugly”,,, I don’t give a shit but now is just too much for me to handle?? I have to stress out over school, dad, and then my lil brothers. He no longer respect me as an older sibling, everytime I want to tell him something cool about my shit or update on stuff, he said “yeah I don’t care”, and when he come to me telling me about these gucci expensive fucken shoes or cloths, I have to care. All he cares about his fashion, shoes, gucci, supreme, brands, expensive shit, barely give a damn about school and my dad does not teach him a lesson. That’s why he doesn’t even care about how other people feel….
Sometime I just want to be left alone due to my mental issue, and tell them to fuck off or just shutup, he WONT leave me alone and keep on going with the bully, so next they went to tell my parent, I ended up getting in trouble. Any time my brother says slang word, he barely gets in trouble.
(There was just be time were IM so fucken angry and I just say slang words-- just lost myself.)
Now im just having anger issue, everything my lil brother or my dad does that gets me triggered even if it just words and expression will just makes me upset. I cry, tear up, and ended up hurting myself or punch a wall knowing there’s nothing I can do to ignore or tell them to stop, even if I did…I’ll start a big ass argument, they will not care. Even everytime I get upset and slightly tears up he just called me “cry baby” or “Im depressed”, I’ve never cry with such lil thing but it’s now stressing and giving sm anxiety (My mom had talk to them, nothing change). Tried crying in my bed alone, lil brother slam the door open, walks in and tried to pull my blanket….WTF can I do?!
My brother had lied or mentioned negative stuff about me even when we’re peacefully eating to my parent in order to get me in trouble even my mom knows that,, then a huge fucken arugument start!
I can go on because there’s sm more...
12/21/18:
Went to universal studio, accidently left my lil brother phone, at home. He called me a pedophilia repeatedly, imagine used to be a victim of that and ended up being called that way. I just wanted to fucken shout at him, but knowing my voice will break, I had to ignore it.