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(In Firefly's voice)

Dear friends and family,

Though i am home, I feel adrift. Here i am in the homeland and yet so far away? Always occupied, healing others in far away lands but lonely at the same time at home each night. I am not sure of this feeling. Maybe,it is that all of you are so busy. Wrapped up in your own busy lives. And I myself, forced into my adult years. As I progress in my healing, I lay awake at night. Watching the stars and time slowly pass by. I laugh to myself and wonder, "Where is this life to go?Where am I to progress and effect this place?" You tell me, find a mate in eight years time and go into marehood. However, I wonder... Is that really for me? You already have so many wonderful grandfoals and kits. I Do not see my addition of a foal as a benefit, but as a burden. Love is wonderful, but it,takes so,much more in resources to raise grandfoals. Resources stretched well over thin even now. I have yet to find a mate that apeals to me. There are many willing to court, but none speak to me in the,meaning I,wish to persue. It may be that I am,unwilling to try. For fear has locked me in places such as this before. However, I will not reveal myself until that creature has revealed himself to me. I dare not court Thoes close to me. For the pain of hurting them is stronger then the unknown feelings I have now. I just don't care. Yet the common threads of how things are "meant" to,be and the "proper" wayis not my way. My only wish is for Thoes closest to me,to be happy and move on without me. I have but a short time until I am truly on my own and forever out of the southern forest. Even without the needed resources to provide for myself. All I can hope for is a good quiet life, no matter How boring it may be to me.

-Firefly

Description
(In Firefly's voice)

Dear friends and family,

Though i am home, I feel adrift. Here i am in the homeland and yet so far away? Always occupied, healing others in far away lands but lonely at the same time at home each night. I am not sure of this feeling. Maybe,it is that all of you are so busy. Wrapped up in your own busy lives. And I myself, forced into my adult years. As I progress in my healing, I lay awake at night. Watching the stars and time slowly pass by. I laugh to myself and wonder, "Where is this life to go?Where am I to progress and effect this place?" You tell me, find a mate in eight years time and go into marehood. However, I wonder... Is that really for me? You already have so many wonderful grandfoals and kits. I Do not see my addition of a foal as a benefit, but as a burden. Love is wonderful, but it,takes so,much more in resources to raise grandfoals. Resources stretched well over thin even now. I have yet to find a mate that apeals to me. There are many willing to court, but none speak to me in the,meaning I,wish to persue. It may be that I am,unwilling to try. For fear has locked me in places such as this before. However, I will not reveal myself until that creature has revealed himself to me. I dare not court Thoes close to me. For the pain of hurting them is stronger then the unknown feelings I have now. I just don't care. Yet the common threads of how things are "meant" to,be and the "proper" wayis not my way. My only wish is for Thoes closest to me,to be happy and move on without me. I have but a short time until I am truly on my own and forever out of the southern forest. Even without the needed resources to provide for myself. All I can hope for is a good quiet life, no matter How boring it may be to me.

-Firefly