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I worked on this harder then any of my other landscapes. It is probably the best one I've made yet.

I know a lot of people have their own perspectives and their own thoughts on the art they look at. Well I am going to flat out say what I felt when I made this. I don’t really care how stupid it sounds or how absurd it may be. It is something that at one moment recently I felt and wanted to share it.

Story behind the art:

A World I Call Can My Own

I live in a world which is set by rules, boundaries, and pain. I am told how to feel and how to act. I am lost in a world that seems to be endless, every where I turn this world grows bigger leaving me ever smaller. I stare at the sky and my eyes fade upon the stars. I sit there in wonder and lost in thought, I hope for things to change or wonder what things would be like if they have. I dare not tell people my feelings for they do not understand. Why would they, as those who pretend to be my friend turn their back on me, those who say they care end up walking away from me. I do not ask for people to care I do not ask for people to understand. I stand alone, alone in my self-pity. Hiding the feelings I so wish to reveal.

I am hurt inside both mentally and physically. My breathing deepens ever breathe grows stronger, I clutch my ribs wishing for the pain to stop and as I fall upon my knees. My broken rib throbs in pain every breath I take. My eyes glaze over a tear drops upon the ground. I turn on my side and lay on the ground staring once more at the stars with tears still sliding down my cheeks. Darkness comes over me, my eyes close when I do not want them to. I question myself I blame god for the pain I feel for the things that happen to me, but it isn’t his fault. It’s not his choices that made me end up here.

My mind wonders I think about creating a world I can call my own and to share the world to one person. I want that person to understand, understand the feelings I feel. I want her to have the same feelings back. I would treat her so well, care for her, hold her in my arms when she cries, I would make her smile, and even when I thought every thing is just perfect enough. I would thank god for allowing me this chance for allowing me to meet this angel he was so willing to let down from the heavens. Her eyes are brighter then the night sky, her smile making everything fall silent, and for those split seconds everything is perfect. If she knew the things I’d do to make her happy. I sometimes wonder where she is and if she is creating a world of her own that I can only wish to be apart of. I wonder if she is staring at the same stars I am. I wish she’d only know. As my search continues I can only hope for the best and maybe one day our eyes will meet. We will both know then, that this was meant to happen and that it was only a matter of time for destiny to come our way.

As my thoughts come back to me the pain still at my ribs tears still fall down my cheek. The stars that once shined bright now blurry from the tears I’ve shed. With so many things that seem to go the wrong way, so many people that seem to ignore me when they once said they cared and that they’d be there for me. A smile still falls upon my face knowing that one day, one faithful moment in my life I will meet that person who really does care. Who will not ignore the feelings I have and will share them back. I will make her the happiest person in the world for that is my goal to save that happiness I seemed to have held back for so long. I will share that happiness for that person.

I live in a world which is set by rules, boundaries, and pain. Yet through it all I still smile. Knowing that one day, I will have a world I can call my own.

Description
I worked on this harder then any of my other landscapes. It is probably the best one I've made yet.

I know a lot of people have their own perspectives and their own thoughts on the art they look at. Well I am going to flat out say what I felt when I made this. I don’t really care how stupid it sounds or how absurd it may be. It is something that at one moment recently I felt and wanted to share it.

Story behind the art:

A World I Call Can My Own

I live in a world which is set by rules, boundaries, and pain. I am told how to feel and how to act. I am lost in a world that seems to be endless, every where I turn this world grows bigger leaving me ever smaller. I stare at the sky and my eyes fade upon the stars. I sit there in wonder and lost in thought, I hope for things to change or wonder what things would be like if they have. I dare not tell people my feelings for they do not understand. Why would they, as those who pretend to be my friend turn their back on me, those who say they care end up walking away from me. I do not ask for people to care I do not ask for people to understand. I stand alone, alone in my self-pity. Hiding the feelings I so wish to reveal.

I am hurt inside both mentally and physically. My breathing deepens ever breathe grows stronger, I clutch my ribs wishing for the pain to stop and as I fall upon my knees. My broken rib throbs in pain every breath I take. My eyes glaze over a tear drops upon the ground. I turn on my side and lay on the ground staring once more at the stars with tears still sliding down my cheeks. Darkness comes over me, my eyes close when I do not want them to. I question myself I blame god for the pain I feel for the things that happen to me, but it isn’t his fault. It’s not his choices that made me end up here.

My mind wonders I think about creating a world I can call my own and to share the world to one person. I want that person to understand, understand the feelings I feel. I want her to have the same feelings back. I would treat her so well, care for her, hold her in my arms when she cries, I would make her smile, and even when I thought every thing is just perfect enough. I would thank god for allowing me this chance for allowing me to meet this angel he was so willing to let down from the heavens. Her eyes are brighter then the night sky, her smile making everything fall silent, and for those split seconds everything is perfect. If she knew the things I’d do to make her happy. I sometimes wonder where she is and if she is creating a world of her own that I can only wish to be apart of. I wonder if she is staring at the same stars I am. I wish she’d only know. As my search continues I can only hope for the best and maybe one day our eyes will meet. We will both know then, that this was meant to happen and that it was only a matter of time for destiny to come our way.

As my thoughts come back to me the pain still at my ribs tears still fall down my cheek. The stars that once shined bright now blurry from the tears I’ve shed. With so many things that seem to go the wrong way, so many people that seem to ignore me when they once said they cared and that they’d be there for me. A smile still falls upon my face knowing that one day, one faithful moment in my life I will meet that person who really does care. Who will not ignore the feelings I have and will share them back. I will make her the happiest person in the world for that is my goal to save that happiness I seemed to have held back for so long. I will share that happiness for that person.

I live in a world which is set by rules, boundaries, and pain. Yet through it all I still smile. Knowing that one day, I will have a world I can call my own.