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Description full title: Life seems a little black and white, when all I want to see is color.

This is Ellie, my equisona. I've been feeling a little down lately. Like I cant really talk out and when I do, there is no reason. I guess I just feel breathless or something.
But anyway, life is very pessimistic for me right now. I just want to see the light again.
I need to go back on meds...
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Royalitie [2013-04-12 01:46:56 +0000 UTC]

Lovely, if you felt this way why didnt you note me~
I don't like seeing my loved ones down in anyway or form. D:

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frenchly In reply to Royalitie [2013-04-14 04:23:08 +0000 UTC]

I'm not sure, I have been just really closing in on myself. I dont want to bother anyone, I guess.
I'm sorry if I worry you, dear <3 I really dont mean to, I swear I'm trying to get better.

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Royalitie In reply to frenchly [2013-04-14 04:38:34 +0000 UTC]

Its ok hun, I understand that feeling completely <3
Just don't be afriad to talk to me if you need anything, alright? <3

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frenchly In reply to Royalitie [2013-04-18 02:26:57 +0000 UTC]

Sure thing, dear. If I get really bad, I'll be sure to reach out here.

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Vivid-Myth [2013-04-11 10:27:10 +0000 UTC]

This is lovely, and now at least I donΒ΄t feel like the only one out there feeling this way atm I know exactly what you mean...
I hope you feel better soon but I know that it's hard to say when you don't know what's causing this I'm here if you need to talk xxx

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frenchly In reply to Vivid-Myth [2013-04-14 04:24:36 +0000 UTC]

<3
I know it gets better, but sometimes it just doesn't feel like it ever will. I swear, depression has been following me around for the past 5 years. Sometimes it catches up with me and all I can do is keep running, you know? Because if I stop... Well... I dont want to know what would happen if I stop.

The same goes for you too, dear. I'm always here.

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Vivid-Myth In reply to frenchly [2013-04-14 14:50:07 +0000 UTC]

I know, it's been like that for me too and sometimes I wonder if I will ever be truly happy, i don't even recall the last time I felt happiness... You know, not the faked and temporary kind but actual happiness that lasts longer than an hour...
I've come real close to stopping running away from it, a couple of times it's been so tempting to just stop everything and maybe then I wouldn't feel so sad anymore... But I can't, I force myself to push the thoughts aside because I can't bare thinking about them.

Thank you, It's 'nice' to know I'm not alone with this.. xx <3

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frenchly In reply to Vivid-Myth [2013-04-18 02:25:57 +0000 UTC]

All we can do is just keep going because one day, one moment, we will look behind and it will be gone. We will no longer be trailed by sadness. I cant wait for that day.

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Vivid-Myth In reply to frenchly [2013-04-20 05:43:53 +0000 UTC]

That is very true <3 Me neither hun xxx Stay strong

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BreakNeckViolet [2013-04-11 08:33:10 +0000 UTC]

I'm just a random passer by, but I think this is a truly deep and meaningful piece of work. I sincerely hope that you feel better soon.

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frenchly In reply to BreakNeckViolet [2013-04-14 04:24:59 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much for your kind words. <3
I am trying to keep getting better, and not let it get me.

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BreakNeckViolet In reply to frenchly [2013-04-14 08:25:52 +0000 UTC]

<3 You're very welcome.
I'm glad to hear that you're trying your best; that's all we can ever do. It does get tough sometimes, though - just make sure that you're taking good care of yourself.

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totalrandomusername [2013-04-11 07:58:58 +0000 UTC]

The only ones who deserve seeing black and white are those who made you feel this way If ever you want to drop me a note or talk on skype, go ahead

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frenchly In reply to totalrandomusername [2013-04-14 04:26:26 +0000 UTC]

Thank you dear. <3
I haven't been telling anyone because I feel like it's just not important, or that I just dont want to put it on anyone. I'm sorry if I worry you or anything. I know I need to talk to someone about how I feel, but sometimes I just cant get the words out and I dont feel the point. Sometimes I just become so exhausted that I dont want to talk. Bleh. I'm tired of being chased by depression.

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totalrandomusername In reply to frenchly [2013-04-14 10:26:20 +0000 UTC]

Depression... LEAVE MY ADORABLE FRENCHLY!
I also kind of had moments like that too, and I know how frustrating and annoying it is. Here's a little thing I understood of life a few years ago when others would bully me because of my diabetes:
" Don't change for others, they have to accept you, and if they don't want to, then they are not worthy of your attention."

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frenchly In reply to totalrandomusername [2013-04-18 02:26:32 +0000 UTC]

That's a really good inspirational quote. Thanks, dear! I really needed to hear it.

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totalrandomusername In reply to frenchly [2013-04-18 07:41:06 +0000 UTC]

I'm glad it made you feel better

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ANIMALGIRL1869 [2013-04-11 05:54:43 +0000 UTC]

awwww huney i am sorry that you are feeling this way. I do hope the light shines bright again for you and all the colors show

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frenchly In reply to ANIMALGIRL1869 [2013-04-14 04:26:36 +0000 UTC]

Thank you so much dear.
I hope so too! <3

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ANIMALGIRL1869 In reply to frenchly [2013-04-14 05:35:31 +0000 UTC]

You're very welcome sweety.

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