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girlchildAGL0W — borrowed and blue.
Published: 2005-09-02 18:48:37 +0000 UTC; Views: 392; Favourites: 2; Downloads: 17
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for the first time in months,my misery refuses to wrap around me
like a blanket,
or any other comforting
replacement for normalcy,
and instead it is forcing itself down my throat,
threatening me with nausea
and forcing me to choke.
oh, misery, i feel betrayed;
i feel betrayed by you.
the blacks and colds and deep, thick pains
i had grown to love
(love with the twisted face of a lemon,
or the shock of a stove burn)
were gone,
far, far away, i'm sure of it.
far away from me
(though i'm not sure what i loved was ever there at all,
and there is no leaving
if there is no existing).
i would imagine i'd wave goodbye
like a heartsick lover
watching the train taking her man away to find himself.
saying through her teeth,
'how could you be what you were,
then decide to be different without me?'
sweet, sweet malady,
this is an outrage.
since what i have known is gone,
(and apparently taken what i have known of myself)
it is time i must go too.
adieu.
and i ran so fast i felt nothing
rather than something new.
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Comments: 3
why so sad? you're in a different setting now. enjoy it. give me a call, i need to talk to you if you're willing. some reason that evades me is making me miss you. bye.
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holy shit i love this sooo much!!! 
my favorite stanza was :
"i would imagine i'd wave goodbye
like a heartsick lover
watching the train taking her man away to find himself.
saying through her teeth,
'how could you be what you were,
then decide to be different without me?'"
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I love the last stanza, very nice to read x
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