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"Just One more time, please, just once more and I can do it." Was the only thought on his mind. There he sat, a barely grown man, He had no idea what he was doing in this day and age. How he came to be, was a simple story enough, but how he perceived the world around him. The world that perceived him as, unadjusted, challenged with the normal every day things, different. Yes he works around many others like himself, but, those weak minded fools, they had no idea what was happening around them. They went along for the ride so to speak. Yes, he wanted to go along for the ride, but, He had seen the scenery pass by his window one time to many, He wanted to ride, yes, but he wanted to be riding in the drivers seat. He wanted to be leading the way, the only problem he had with that was, he had no idea how to lead. He could see other mistakes that people had made, he could go over battles that had happened and provide other ways the losing side could have won. But he had in no way, the skills a leader, a true leader, could, would, and ever have.

"Why can't I think, I've been away from it all for so long. Yet, I read others stories, see their worlds and stand back in awe of the greatness of their art. SO WHY THE HELL CAN'T I THINK OF ANYTHING!" He screamed inside of his head. Took him a few seconds to realize that, yeah, he was thinking, But, not of what he wanted to think of. He had read the comics, he had read the stories of old, he had viewed the artwork of many a great artist, But he still couldn't think of an idea for a freaking story. He sat there still, composing his thoughts, allowing for intervals of TV and enjoyment. "Life seems to have many turns, I have yet to see what it will throw at me, Maybe I'll enjoy it. Then again, Maybe I won't, I don't know.(Heheheh) Looks like I have my story, I'm typing my story, heh, not bad for a guy who has ADD, Auspergs Autism, and Schitsotypical Personality Disorder. Not good, but, not bad either." He glances over what he has, He realizes that there just thoughts that he has placed in a folder that no one will ever see, He searches for the reason why he continues to try and type, he looks within himself, he does realize that, yeah, he's written some decent stories in his day, some of them he was proud of. But to his dismay, he never got, noticed, sure when he was new, he got noticed, on a site that was geared towards a freaking anthropomorphic hedgehog that is able to run as fast a sound. He doesn't know why he even was a fan of that creature, yes he still reads the comic, yes he still reads the fan fiction of the other authors, but, why does he even bother to still be a freaking fan.......Because..........Because, that hedgehog stands for everything that he believes in, he knows it's corny, he knows it's child like, but, God Dang it, He believes in it.

He decides that he will put this on the internet, he doesn't know whether or not, any one will read this. Right now, he does not care, right now, "Yeah, I used to be able to think of things like a great story, but, I've lost my muse, I've lost the ability to write. The ability to understand the either, I just want to be able to write stories again without having to strain my mind just to come up with one freaking sentence. I envy those people that are able to...to...gah, why the hell can't I think of a freaking word to use there." And again, he sits there at his seat, his down trodden throne. He has 10 maybe even 20 fancharacters he can use to make a story, he has so many different worlds that he could put his spin on, but right at this moment, he can't think of one D@*& thing other than this. His story, insight to the turmoil that is his mind, for those people that are still reading this, remember, Life has no meaning, Death has no meaning, It is the journey between the two that is what is important. Never forget that, let what has happened to you influence your choices in life, If terrible, unspeakable things happen to you, then look to the one thing that is true, at least your alive, If you happen to be dying, then, well, hey, at least you get to see what's at the end of the tunnel right?

Thank you for reading this, Even the greatest minds took a long time to create their greatest works. So, yeah, If you want, then say what you want about this, These are my thoughts, This is what I think, and I hope you..........Ya know what, just, l8r, C ya'all L8r. And with that, this thing ends. good bye.