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So.. I originally said that I want to keep my horse and pony artwork to but after this one I was just like
"why not share it with your anthro and furry watchers? They deserve to know you're not dead because they're all lovely beans"

So... Some horsey artwork for y'all.

TL: DR - I'll try to do more artwork, but I'll refrain from trying to be perfect. That just killed me more than once.

Went back to my more comic-styled art for a while because it's easier to do and doesn't pressure me that much.
I've got the feeling that I pressured me by wanting to get better and better and better and better and so I've never been much satisfied with what I've created.
That leads to unhappyness and threw me into a depression hole I couldn't climb out of for quite a while.

What I want to do now and to work with in the future is the following:
I will get better if I don't stop practicing but it's not important to be perfect. It's alright to do mistakes, it's alright to NOT be a number one artist.
I always forget that every artist had to practice to attain what they are now. Not just weeks or months, years. A COUPLE OF THEM.

I'm drawing digitally for ~2 years now (minus one or three tries over 4 years ago) and I've been able to get so far and I really want to appreciate that by myself.
It's hard to do because my mind doesn't allow me to be "imperfect" - thanks to my illness - but I just... Want to try it.

I want to thank some beans in preticular:
0Iresh0 for being my best friend for years, for fighting for me and for being so strong while they have to deal with their own problems and illness.
PhaseWolf for being a lovely waifu. I miss you and talking to you and I hope that I'm able to be less anxious communication wise. I hope your new place makes your life easier and that you're happy where you are now. ♥
Captain-Starburst for being a big inspiration and a good friend. They inspired me with their works, helped me a lot with how to get better and motivated me to stay strong and keep on going.
Koffii-Kiitty for being a big inspiration and a good smol friend bean. Your works are so inspiring aswell as your doodles are and I'm glad I have you around to talk too. Smoochies to Akemiiii!
Larixe for literally everything they've done and for how they are. You are perfect the way you are, don't give a damn about the opinions of other people. Thank you for your support, for always taking the first step to talk to me and for never giving me up even tho I accidentally ignored so many messages. ;^;
kekeroo for being a big help mental wise and for all the nice words she always has. I'm sorry that we're only talking if I'm upset and that you end up cheering me up but... You're a master at that. Thank you. THANK. YOU. For being the way you are. (I'm still super jealous bc of your shark tattoo. It's just perfect, oml.)
Archivist-Kayl (who I nearly forgot, oh gOD) for being such a lovely support and OFC inspiration! Your comments and positive words always brighten up my day. Thank you!

... and ofc every single person reading this.
Thank you all for reading - or just taking a look at my art.
I appreciate every single one of you because you all gave me back a big piece of myself and made my life wholesome.
I've had so many struggles and so many stuff to deal with but with you all - as supporters, watchers, friends - I finally feel like I belong somewhere and that I'm not just a tiny grain of sand without a destiny.


OC: Mocca
Owner: GummiiShark
Game: PonyIsland.net
Time taken: Around 5 hours

Description



So.. I originally said that I want to keep my horse and pony artwork to but after this one I was just like
"why not share it with your anthro and furry watchers? They deserve to know you're not dead because they're all lovely beans"

So... Some horsey artwork for y'all.

TL: DR - I'll try to do more artwork, but I'll refrain from trying to be perfect. That just killed me more than once.

Went back to my more comic-styled art for a while because it's easier to do and doesn't pressure me that much.
I've got the feeling that I pressured me by wanting to get better and better and better and better and so I've never been much satisfied with what I've created.
That leads to unhappyness and threw me into a depression hole I couldn't climb out of for quite a while.

What I want to do now and to work with in the future is the following:
I will get better if I don't stop practicing but it's not important to be perfect. It's alright to do mistakes, it's alright to NOT be a number one artist.
I always forget that every artist had to practice to attain what they are now. Not just weeks or months, years. A COUPLE OF THEM.

I'm drawing digitally for ~2 years now (minus one or three tries over 4 years ago) and I've been able to get so far and I really want to appreciate that by myself.
It's hard to do because my mind doesn't allow me to be "imperfect" - thanks to my illness - but I just... Want to try it.

I want to thank some beans in preticular:
0Iresh0 for being my best friend for years, for fighting for me and for being so strong while they have to deal with their own problems and illness.
PhaseWolf for being a lovely waifu. I miss you and talking to you and I hope that I'm able to be less anxious communication wise. I hope your new place makes your life easier and that you're happy where you are now. ♥
Captain-Starburst for being a big inspiration and a good friend. They inspired me with their works, helped me a lot with how to get better and motivated me to stay strong and keep on going.
Koffii-Kiitty for being a big inspiration and a good smol friend bean. Your works are so inspiring aswell as your doodles are and I'm glad I have you around to talk too. Smoochies to Akemiiii!
Larixe for literally everything they've done and for how they are. You are perfect the way you are, don't give a damn about the opinions of other people. Thank you for your support, for always taking the first step to talk to me and for never giving me up even tho I accidentally ignored so many messages. ;^;
kekeroo for being a big help mental wise and for all the nice words she always has. I'm sorry that we're only talking if I'm upset and that you end up cheering me up but... You're a master at that. Thank you. THANK. YOU. For being the way you are. (I'm still super jealous bc of your shark tattoo. It's just perfect, oml.)
Archivist-Kayl (who I nearly forgot, oh gOD) for being such a lovely support and OFC inspiration! Your comments and positive words always brighten up my day. Thank you!

... and ofc every single person reading this.
Thank you all for reading - or just taking a look at my art.
I appreciate every single one of you because you all gave me back a big piece of myself and made my life wholesome.
I've had so many struggles and so many stuff to deal with but with you all - as supporters, watchers, friends - I finally feel like I belong somewhere and that I'm not just a tiny grain of sand without a destiny.


OC: Mocca
Owner: GummiiShark
Game: PonyIsland.net
Time taken: Around 5 hours