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DL for full

I edited it a bit 8)

I don't feel I can do anything more with this picture without ruining it but basically this has been my experiment mess around with pic for like 2 months now.
I worked on it when

a. had nothing to do
b. was in a bad or emo mood and needed to feel calm XD
c. wanted to just mess around with cg and not have to draw a picture first.

I will miss you angst emo relief pic XD but I guess I'll just work on other stuff when I feel like that.
OST's of shadow of the colossus, castlevania lords of shadow, lamento and final fantasy 12 were awesome bg music to this.

tl;dr ahead - also for once I won't whine how much my art sucks. Ok I lied wtf not happy with any of my art lately D|

Anyway yeah so it's all experimentation with cg and sort of a fail semi-realism. It's Kou but I didn't want to do him in his usual clothing as it wouldn't suit the mood and back in his early days he wore a lot of darker colours and cloaks or more plain clothes. I also just wanted to draw him in a cloak lol. The pattern is just made up but the crescent moon is his symbol when he belonged to an order and a house. Even though he's no longer a part of it he can't let go and feels at a loss now. Not knowing where he belongs, not knowing what to do. He does have an eye but during this time can't see out of it so covers it up to heal with rags torn from his cloak.
Sorry the background is so plain it was hard to put with 1 this pic as didn't want too much or to steal focus. I need more practice with clouds but think I'm getting better?

It also embodies something I kind of have always felt :/ that of alienation and a feeling of not belonging anywhere. Lately I think about my great aunt who passed away last year a lot I and realise the only time I felt at home was when she was still here. It feels like she was also the only person to ever give me encouragement. There are many regrets I have and even though I try not to think of them it's hard. You just wish you could have 1 last chance to say everything you ever wanted to but you can't.

Sometimes I feel like I don't really have a home or a safe haven or sometimes I just feel like I'm not meant to be here all together. This pic is supposedly searching for that place of belonging and warmth all he wants is acceptance and somewhere to call home.

No comparisons please :U

Description
DL for full

I edited it a bit 8)

I don't feel I can do anything more with this picture without ruining it but basically this has been my experiment mess around with pic for like 2 months now.
I worked on it when

a. had nothing to do
b. was in a bad or emo mood and needed to feel calm XD
c. wanted to just mess around with cg and not have to draw a picture first.

I will miss you angst emo relief pic XD but I guess I'll just work on other stuff when I feel like that.
OST's of shadow of the colossus, castlevania lords of shadow, lamento and final fantasy 12 were awesome bg music to this.

tl;dr ahead - also for once I won't whine how much my art sucks. Ok I lied wtf not happy with any of my art lately D|

Anyway yeah so it's all experimentation with cg and sort of a fail semi-realism. It's Kou but I didn't want to do him in his usual clothing as it wouldn't suit the mood and back in his early days he wore a lot of darker colours and cloaks or more plain clothes. I also just wanted to draw him in a cloak lol. The pattern is just made up but the crescent moon is his symbol when he belonged to an order and a house. Even though he's no longer a part of it he can't let go and feels at a loss now. Not knowing where he belongs, not knowing what to do. He does have an eye but during this time can't see out of it so covers it up to heal with rags torn from his cloak.
Sorry the background is so plain it was hard to put with 1 this pic as didn't want too much or to steal focus. I need more practice with clouds but think I'm getting better?

It also embodies something I kind of have always felt :/ that of alienation and a feeling of not belonging anywhere. Lately I think about my great aunt who passed away last year a lot I and realise the only time I felt at home was when she was still here. It feels like she was also the only person to ever give me encouragement. There are many regrets I have and even though I try not to think of them it's hard. You just wish you could have 1 last chance to say everything you ever wanted to but you can't.

Sometimes I feel like I don't really have a home or a safe haven or sometimes I just feel like I'm not meant to be here all together. This pic is supposedly searching for that place of belonging and warmth all he wants is acceptance and somewhere to call home.

No comparisons please :U