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hello.

i'm sorry i haven't written in so long,
i've had no reason to write to you.
your voice, it no longer haunts my dreams,
and for the first time in a long time,
I sleep through the night.
Yeah, my heart doesn't race like it used to
Yeah, my soul doesn't light up like fire,
but you burned all my senses away, melted them
with your liquid love.
Even now, with your voice in my ears
(or yours, ringing relentlessly via sms);
it bothers me more that i do not care
than the fact of how much i did.
i loved you, and you, once and once enough
i spent my time and tears,
i poured my soul in words and biblotherapy,
into art and music and emotionless sex,
and now, now-
i'm sorry i haven't written in so long,
i guess i'm done repeating myself,
walking through the same old emotion
that was the tyrant of my life.
words do not suit my purpose anymore.
what other words can i say,
that i havent a thousand time before?
i could carry the metaphor through
a thousand lines of uselessness
that wrecks my slumber.
this doubt is no longer my bed partner,
no longer my lover of my nightmares.
i fuel my inner fires with blue light
of tranquility and peace.
the color is soothing, the feeling, cold,
familiar, flickering, and cool.
i guess that's really all i've got to say.

goodbye.