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Published: 2019-05-16 11:12:39 +0000 UTC; Views: 226; Favourites: 55; Downloads: 0
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This is for my art class (painting something, gunna attempt this)I don't have much time to type, but I need to explain some things regarding how often I upload and stuff.
I won't be on deviantart much. I know I haven't before, but I don't if I will be on more or less. School is almost over, which is nice, but I think my mental health is so bad that it's not going to get much better once school is out. I was hoping that it would for a while, and maybe it will, but I really don't think it will. I have been so bad for so long that at this point I don't think much will help. I have had to inspiration to draw. I spend a good portion of my day after school just sleeping. For a while I would just stay and bed and watch youtube or something. Now, everyone once in a while I'll play a game on my computer or something. I'm really not doing well though. I've gotten to a point where I just feel numb. I used to cry every day, but I haven't cried at all for at least a week. I don't feel like doing anything. I have lost my inspiration for litteraly everything. I've been trying to force myself to do artwork, and it was working for a little bit, but not anymore. I only did this picture because I had to, and it's really messy and not good at all.
I've also noticed that I'm starting to have memory problems. I can't remember simple things in school that I know I should, and I can't remember many things outside of school.
I really don't know what to do. I don't really have anyone to talk to about this either. Whenever I try to vent to my friends, they kind of just ignore me, don'y pay attention, or just continue with whatver they were doing. Things are a little complicated between some of my other friends, so I feel like I can't talk to them. I'm afraid to talk to my parents from the countless times they have done to my sister what my friends have done to me.
So I'm kind of just stuck. I don't really know what to do or where to go. I've been trying to figure it out for some time, but I haven't really gotten anywhere.
Anyways, I'll try to get back into artwork and oher things if I can. No promises though.
I need to go. Bye guys. Have a wonderful day.
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no worries for the whole needing someone to talk to. you have my discord and i know it was originally for work purposes on My Flower,, but vent there all you like,, don't worry about me judging you because i will help in any way i can. If i do not respond however,, please do not take offence as we have different time zones and i could be away from Discord. That aside please don't refrain to talk to me or anyone on the My Flower Discord. We will be here for you- I will be here for you and no matter what i will wait for you to get better.
Because you are my friend^^
hugsss from mee :>
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1 the pic is amazing and I envy your skills
2 it's ok. It will all work out. You have my discord right? Dont ever be afraid to message me. My door is open to anyone wanting to talk and receive advice. I may not tell you what you want to hear but I'll tell you what I think you need to hear. I'm here for you.
As for your memory problems and depression, I have been there, and let me say, excluding yourself into your room is not the answer. Get out of bed, go outside and exercise. Your body naturally makes you feel better once you get moving. Exercise is known to improve mental states, memory, and drive in many ways. On top of that, the numb feeling you have can be a side effect of too much screen time. I know that's your current escape to relax but it's only healthy in moderation. You have to break your addiction slowly and improve yourself.
I know your issues are complicated but changing the small and simple things you can control will help you deal with the harder issues in the long run.
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Perhaps you should consider getting some help from a specialist?
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