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Good morning everyone, it’s been a while since I last posted. I’ve taken the time between then and now to really think about my next step forward, talking with other people about all of this, and especially taking into consideration all the comments from the last post, and I’d like to say, thank you all. I never expected to get so much supportive feedback, and I couldn’t be more grateful. I think I was wrong, I really do have a community here that cares about me. I can’t thank any of you enough.

I’d like to go over some common threads in the comments, one was that I’m not a bad person for what I drew. Honestly, I think I’m coming around to that one the more I think about it. I talked with some family members about this whole thing, and the strangest thing happened, something I didn’t expect from them at all; I showed them everything I drew, and not only did they think I did nothing wrong, but they thought I shouldn’t have apologized for it at all. It made me reflect on all the reception I’ve gotten over the last year over my stuff, and it made me wonder if perhaps I treated myself too harshly on the matter, if what I was doing wasn’t as bad as I thought. I’ll always have a self-hatred problem, my brain is always out to make sure I think I’m the bad guy, but at this point in time, I feel like my mind is in a more relaxed state. I apologized to the world, and it told me no biggie.

Another common thread in the comments was that I should do what I want to do, follow my heart, find what makes me happy. Well, what makes me happy is what I’ve always done, make art for people. In all honesty, what I really want to do is keep posting. I want to do SFW stuff, I want to make a YouTube channel, I want to live stream, I want to make cartoons, all that kind of stuff. I don’t even know if I want to stop making TF content, there are just some ideas that still pop up in my mind that I’d like to do. It wouldn’t be the entirety of my identity on the platform, but it could still be here every now and then, just when I want to do it.

But here's my dilemma, even though I’d like to do all that, I’m wondering if it would be morally okay to. After what I said, is it alright just to come back, or would it be seen as regressing? Would it be the right thing to do to just leave? It’s ultimately my decision, but the concessions of the community matters to me just as much if not more, after all, you’re who I do this for. So, I want you all to be honest with me in the comments, should I come back? Or should I leave this behind?

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Good morning everyone, it’s been a while since I last posted. I’ve taken the time between then and now to really think about my next step forward, talking with other people about all of this, and especially taking into consideration all the comments from the last post, and I’d like to say, thank you all. I never expected to get so much supportive feedback, and I couldn’t be more grateful. I think I was wrong, I really do have a community here that cares about me. I can’t thank any of you enough.

I’d like to go over some common threads in the comments, one was that I’m not a bad person for what I drew. Honestly, I think I’m coming around to that one the more I think about it. I talked with some family members about this whole thing, and the strangest thing happened, something I didn’t expect from them at all; I showed them everything I drew, and not only did they think I did nothing wrong, but they thought I shouldn’t have apologized for it at all. It made me reflect on all the reception I’ve gotten over the last year over my stuff, and it made me wonder if perhaps I treated myself too harshly on the matter, if what I was doing wasn’t as bad as I thought. I’ll always have a self-hatred problem, my brain is always out to make sure I think I’m the bad guy, but at this point in time, I feel like my mind is in a more relaxed state. I apologized to the world, and it told me no biggie.

Another common thread in the comments was that I should do what I want to do, follow my heart, find what makes me happy. Well, what makes me happy is what I’ve always done, make art for people. In all honesty, what I really want to do is keep posting. I want to do SFW stuff, I want to make a YouTube channel, I want to live stream, I want to make cartoons, all that kind of stuff. I don’t even know if I want to stop making TF content, there are just some ideas that still pop up in my mind that I’d like to do. It wouldn’t be the entirety of my identity on the platform, but it could still be here every now and then, just when I want to do it.

But here's my dilemma, even though I’d like to do all that, I’m wondering if it would be morally okay to. After what I said, is it alright just to come back, or would it be seen as regressing? Would it be the right thing to do to just leave? It’s ultimately my decision, but the concessions of the community matters to me just as much if not more, after all, you’re who I do this for. So, I want you all to be honest with me in the comments, should I come back? Or should I leave this behind?