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Emotional numbness recently. Nothing makes me happy/excited or sad/angry/worried.
I read that this is the brain's self-defense mechanism to counter overwhelming situations to prevent extreme emotions/trauma so that the body can still function, albeit at a reduced capacity. The reduced capacity to feel anything.

I hope it's not chronic.

I've already had 2 mental breakdowns because of Studio Project... how will I last SP2, FYP or the working world? I just can't cope with this workload. It's not about passion anymore. Neither is it about grades. It's freaking ripping at my sanity.

I've lost my abilty to even feel frustrated about this or worried that I just spent 5 hours drawing this instead of doing school work with impending deadlines. I've lost that "spark" of life.

Don't need to console me or anything. It will pass with time. It's just... how am I gonna survive like this as I age? I'm "still young" but not getting any younger. I've never been so mentally tested till now.

Standalone persona drawing: fav.me/d9rm44a

Program: PaintToolSAI
Time taken: About 5 hours
Date: 13 Feb 2016
Do not use/alter/repost any of my artworks/designs/characters without my permission or claim them as your own.

Description
Emotional numbness recently. Nothing makes me happy/excited or sad/angry/worried.
I read that this is the brain's self-defense mechanism to counter overwhelming situations to prevent extreme emotions/trauma so that the body can still function, albeit at a reduced capacity. The reduced capacity to feel anything.

I hope it's not chronic.

I've already had 2 mental breakdowns because of Studio Project... how will I last SP2, FYP or the working world? I just can't cope with this workload. It's not about passion anymore. Neither is it about grades. It's freaking ripping at my sanity.

I've lost my abilty to even feel frustrated about this or worried that I just spent 5 hours drawing this instead of doing school work with impending deadlines. I've lost that "spark" of life.

Don't need to console me or anything. It will pass with time. It's just... how am I gonna survive like this as I age? I'm "still young" but not getting any younger. I've never been so mentally tested till now.

Standalone persona drawing: fav.me/d9rm44a

Program: PaintToolSAI
Time taken: About 5 hours
Date: 13 Feb 2016
Do not use/alter/repost any of my artworks/designs/characters without my permission or claim them as your own.